I blinked once. Twice. Three times. As if, by sheer force of will, the man in front of me could blur into a stranger, fade into the crowd, disappear back into the years where I'd last laid eyes on him. But no. Aaron Warner was there, standing, unyielding, like he had every right to be in my now. His jaw was chiseled, his black hair cut into a harsh something, his suit fitted to within an inch of its life. And on his feet—Balenciaga. Real ones. He used to always mock brands, call them superficial. Now he was wearing them like they'd been stitched into his flesh.
But the shoes didn't gut me. It was the look. The same gray eyes I used to memorize in the dark, the same ones that gentled for me six years ago, now slid over me like I was something vile on the bottom of those designer shoes.
Then he spoke, and his words destroyed whatever fragile hope had started to build in my chest.
"What the hell are you doing?" His voice snapped like a whip. Cold. Unrecognizable. "Walking around with a hot cup of coffee and taking corners without so much as an ounce of caution? Are you an idiot? Can't you understand the most basic facts of how not to behave in an office building?"
I halted, my mouth opening but nothing coming out. Imbecile. He'd called me an—
"Aaron—" My voice cracked, small. "What the hell?"
His eyebrows shifted, but there was no flicker of recognition. No softening. Nothing. He stared at the stain on his suit sleeve as if it had cost more than my entire apartment, which it likely had. "Don't you dare speak to me in such a manner within these walls." His voice dropped into venom. "Mr. Warner. That's what people use when they address me in this building.". But then again, people in this building don't spill their pathetic excuses of breakfast all over me, now do they?
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My chest heaved. "Why are you—why are you talking to me like this?
"Why are you here?" he snapped, eyes cutting into daggers. "What are you doing in this building? People in this building are people who have success in their bank accounts. People who walk through these doors don't have resumes soaked in failure. So why in the hell are you here, wasting my time?"
The words hit harder than I meant them to. For a second, I could not even breathe. My hand clenched into a fist around the empty cup, knuckles burning. My tongue stuttered before I could stammer, "I—I had a job interview here today."
A spark was in his eyes then, but it wasn't recognition. It was contempt. A sadistic amusement. "And I should care why?" His lips curled. "You think that because you spilled your coffee all over my suit, I'll suddenly become benevolent? You think I care that you're so needy you're willing to crawl into a firm like this with no experience at all? You want me to pat your head, say you've got potential?
I felt my face flush, my chest tighten, yet still I stayed. Still I waited for the moment when he'd ease off, when he'd smile as always and say he was just joking. But it never came.
"Get yourself up from the floor," he finished, voice cold as ice, "and use the door. You don't belong here.".
He did not even wait to hear my response. He tugged at his sleeve, muttered under his breath, and turned on his heel. His long step carried him back through the glass doors, the lobby swallowing him whole like it had been waiting for its king.
And I just stood there, immobile, my shoes glued to the marble floor. My heart beat so hard I feared it would echo off the walls of glass.
That was it? That was all? The last time I'd seen Aaron Warner, his lips had been on mine, his hand fisted in my hair, whispering words that felt like forever. And then he was gone. No calls. No texts. Every number disconnected. Connor didn't know where he'd disappeared to, my parents didn't know, and I couldn't ask too many questions without raising suspicion. I told myself not to crack, not to let the truth rise to the surface.
Because if Connor had even suspected the secret—that I'd been falling in love with his best friend, that his best friend had disappeared right after ripping my heart out—he would've hunted Aaron to the ends of the Earth.
So I concealed it. I laughed when Connor asked if I was okay. I threw myself into classes, into anything that would tire me out too much to remember. But I remembered. Every day. Every glance across the living room when Connor wasn't looking. Every brush of Aaron's hand against mine when no one was around. Every moment when I thought maybe, just maybe, the boy I loved loved me enough to stay.
And now? Now he was here, in the attire of a stranger, talking to me like I was scum.
I swallowed, my gaze locked on the door he'd come in. The world continued around me—people walking, talking, phones buzzing. But I was frozen. I couldn't even breathe.
Aaron Warner was back. And he wasn't mine.
Not anymore.
Ethan's POVI tugged at my shirt collar and undid the first three buttons, gasping for air. The office was too quiet, the air too still, and my head seemed like it was spinning in circles. My screen stared back at me with all the progress of an empty grave. I had the title. I had the general idea. That was it.It was now 7:13 p.m. and I'd achieved nothing concrete.I sighed in frustration and rocked backward in my chair, pinching the bridge of my nose.Why did it feel like Aaron Warner was in my head, tapping his finger against the inner wall of my skull and whispering, You can't do it. You're going to fail.Like hell I would.I’d give him something so polished he’d have no choice but to respect it — or choke on it.There was a soft knock at the door.I didn’t even bother lifting my head, just grunted, “Come in.”It had to be security or someone who forgot their badge. Everyone else had gone home hours ago.The door creaked open and a small voice said, “Um… hi?”I looked up.Mandy
Ethan's POVHe was a goddamn dick, and I'd be damned if he would be the rain to my sunshine.He needed a project review?Fine. I'd give him a project review that would blow his stupidly beautiful hair right off his arrogant head.I pushed all thoughts of him — of us — aside. I didn't need them. I didn't want them.He didn't need me.So I wouldn't want him.My throat was scratchy from the amount of times I'd swallowed through that meeting, the amount of times I'd looked at him and locked eyes with him, which he ignored, pretended not to have seen.He disappeared. He vanished. And it wasn't that there wasn't effort put into finding him. I made those telephone calls, knocked on those doors, begged for information — he chose to vanish.I was not going to pretend that seeing him had not stirred something inside me, had not opened a box that I had taped shut a long time ago. I was not going to pretend like his voice, his eyes, his obnoxious commanding presence didn't mess me up all over ag
Aaron's POVWhat the fuck.What the actual fuck.It was going to be easy.I just had to just ignore him — pretend he wasn't even standing there, stuff all of those memories back in that locked little box I'd been pounding shut for six years.But since when has Ethan Banks ever been the kind of guy you can ignore?I sat across from him behind the conference table while he listened to Maxwell, one of my shrewdest analysts, talk about Q4 expectations. He was focused, nodding, pen tapping against his pad.I wished I could despise him for how intent he was.But I couldn't.Not when my heart was pounding out of time in my chest just for having him in the same room.Not when he looked like that.God, how was he even in New York?When he had crashed into me three weeks ago in the lobby, coffee spilling everywhere, it had taken every bit of myself not to grab him there, not to slam my lips into his like I used to.Things have changed.I am no longer the foolish young man that I used to be.I a
Ethan's povI woke up smiling.No, scratch that grinning.For once, the weight that had been resting on my chest was gone. Today was the day. My first day at Warner Industries. My first move towards making something that was mine, not Connor's, not my family's, not a handout.This was going to be a good day.I sprang out of bed and yanked the curtains wide open, drenching the room in morning sunlight like some soap opera movie montage. I caught a look in the mirror — hair flying out in every possible direction, eyes gleaming a little too hard with nerves — and just laughed out loud."Pull it together, Banks," I snarled at my own reflection.I dressed in the outfit I had set out the night before — clean white shirt, black trousers, black tie. I even took out the gel and smoothed my curls back, trying to look more sophisticated, more. corporate.But as soon as I caught sight of myself, I stopped dead in my tracks.That wasn't me. That was a person who was too willing to fit in somewhere
Three weeks.That's how long it had been since the humiliating event outside Warner Industries. Since Aaron Warner had looked at me with those cold eyes and spoken to me as if I was nothing more than dirt on his thousand–dollar boots. Since the coffee seared through the pristine lines of his suit and through whatever strand of hope I'd been foolish enough to hold in my chest.Three weeks, and still nothing.Not from Warner Industries. Not from any of the other firms whose clean glass doors I'd walked through with tidily stapled résumés clutched in my hand. Silence.I despised it. Despised the way every unreturned email, every rejection, reminded me of him. Of Aaron.I shattered my heart every time his face surfaced in my head, uninvited. The strong cheekbones hardened now into something unforgiving, the jawline carved from stone, the seriousness that had replaced the goofy smile I remembered from highschool. Six years ago, he was a boy still shedding his skin, laughing too loudly at C
I blinked once. Twice. Three times. As if, by sheer force of will, the man in front of me could blur into a stranger, fade into the crowd, disappear back into the years where I'd last laid eyes on him. But no. Aaron Warner was there, standing, unyielding, like he had every right to be in my now. His jaw was chiseled, his black hair cut into a harsh something, his suit fitted to within an inch of its life. And on his feet—Balenciaga. Real ones. He used to always mock brands, call them superficial. Now he was wearing them like they'd been stitched into his flesh.But the shoes didn't gut me. It was the look. The same gray eyes I used to memorize in the dark, the same ones that gentled for me six years ago, now slid over me like I was something vile on the bottom of those designer shoes.Then he spoke, and his words destroyed whatever fragile hope had started to build in my chest."What the hell are you doing?" His voice snapped like a whip. Cold. Unrecognizable. "Walking around with a h