LOGINFifth day after Kira's burial"She's not breathing." Kaelin was holding Vera, face white. "Serna she's NOT BREATHING."Serna ran over, grabbed the baby, flipped her and hit her back. Nothing. Did it harder. Still nothing."ELIRA." Serna screamed it.Elira came running, took Vera, put her mouth over the tiny face and breathed. Pulled back. Nothing."Again." Kaelin was already crying.Elira breathed into her three more times. Baby's chest moved then went still."She's not taking it." Elira laid Vera down, started pressing on her chest. "Come on.""How long?" Serna asked."A minute maybe?" Kaelin's voice shook. "I was just holding her and she stopped."Elira kept going. Compressions, breath, compressions. Nothing. Baby stayed blue."Aziel your daughter's dying." Serna said it loud to where he was sitting with Lyra. "AZIEL."He didn't move."Did you fucking hear me?" Serna yelled it."I heard you." Flat voice, didn't look over."Then get over here." Serna's voice cracked."What do you wan
Dawn after the night watch"We have to do it now." Elira was standing over Aziel who hadn't moved since Lyra passed out again. "Before the sun gets high."Aziel didn't answer. Just sat there holding Kira, staring at nothing."Aziel did you hear me?" Elira crouched down. "We need to bury her this morning.""I heard you." His voice came out flat."So we need to—" Elira reached for Kira."Don't touch her." Aziel pulled back. "I'll do it.""You can barely stand." Elira said it gentle."I'll do it." Aziel said it again, harder.He tried to stand, legs wouldn't hold. Fell back down. Tried again, got halfway up before collapsing. Third try he made it, swaying on legs that shook so bad Serna thought he'd fall through the floor."Where?" He asked it to nobody."Courtyard." Rhea said from the doorway. "North corner. We cleared space."Aziel nodded once. Started walking, each step looking like it took everything he had. Made it five steps before his knee gave out. Caught himself on the wall."Le
Same night after Kira dies"Give her to me." Serna was standing over Aziel who sat on the floor holding both babies. One crying weak, one not moving at all."No." Aziel didn't look up from Kira's face, gray and still in his left arm."We need to prepare her, we need to—" Serna crouched down. "Aziel you can't just hold her all night.""Watch me." His voice came out dead.Vera made a choking sound in his other arm. He didn't react, didn't even look at her."Aziel she's choking." Serna grabbed Vera from him, flipped her over, hit her back. Fluid came out, baby gasped and started that awful weak crying."You have to watch her." Serna tried to give Vera back. "She keeps stopping."Aziel wouldn't take her. Just stared at Kira."Aziel take your daughter." Serna pushed Vera at him."No." He pulled back. "Keep her.""She's YOUR daughter." Serna's voice went sharp."So was this one." Aziel looked at Kira. "And I killed her.""You didn't kill her." Kaelin said it from where she was leaning again
Same night, hours later"This one's not breathing right." Elira had the quiet twin, the weak one, holding it up to the light. Lips were blue, chest barely moving. "She's going."Serna looked at the baby in Elira's hands, so small and gray and wrong. Then at the other one in Kaelin's arms, still crying but weaker now, hoarse from days of screaming."Going where?" Serna asked even though she knew."Dying." Elira said it flat. "Lungs are giving out, probably got fluid in them still from the birth, body's shutting down.""Fix it." Aziel said it from where he was slumped against Lyra's cot. "Fix her.""I can't fix both." Elira looked at him. "I've got enough supplies, enough energy, maybe enough skill to save one baby. But not two."The room went dead quiet except for the crying twin and Lyra's ragged breathing."What do you mean one." Aziel's voice came out wrong."I mean I can focus everything on keeping one alive." Elira held up the blue baby. "This one's worse, needs more help. If I wo
Fourth day after the twins are born"She won't take it." Kaelin was trying to get the stronger twin to suck milk off her finger, baby kept turning her head screaming. "It's been two days since she nursed right.""Keep trying." Serna had the weak one, the one that kept choking. This one wouldn't even open its mouth, just made these sounds like something dying."I've tried thirty fucking times." Kaelin dipped her finger again, baby knocked it away with a tiny fist. "She doesn't want it.""She has to want something." Serna looked at the baby in her arms, skin going gray, you could see every rib. "This one's gonna die.""They're both gonna die." Elira was with Lyra, still out from yesterday's cutting, fever still cooking her. "Babies born this early need their mother's milk. Nothing else works.""What about another wolf's milk?" Rhea asked from the door. "Someone else who's nursing.""Tried yesterday." Elira didn't look up. "Woman in south wing, her baby's three weeks old. Got some of her
Third day after the twins are born"She's burning up." Elira had her hand on Lyra's forehead, yanked it back fast. "This isn't normal fever, this is bad."Serna looked at Lyra's face, red now instead of that corpse white, sweat pouring off her like she'd been dumped in water. Her breathing came too fast, like she couldn't get enough air."How bad?" Serna asked."Bad enough her brain starts cooking if it gets higher." Elira pulled the bandage off the stitches and the smell hit like a fist, sweet and rotten and wrong. "Oh fuck. Fuck."The cut looked horrible, edges swollen and leaking yellow shit, the moon-silver thread buried in puffy red flesh. Red streaks crawled out from the wound going up her ribs like cracks spreading."That looks really bad." Kaelin said it from where she was holding one twin, the stronger one who'd figured out how to nurse yesterday. The other twin was in a box by the fire, still alive but just barely."It's infected deep." Elira pressed around the wound and pus







