TRUST IS NOT A YES OR NO QUESTION

Eduardo’s lips moved over mine, his hands locked around my waist, his pulse racing under my fingertips as I traced his neck. For a moment I forgot who I was, where we stood, what time it even was. Then came the low rumble against my mouth. He was fighting to stop kissing me and still trying to do the right thing.

“I have to quit now,” he murmured between kisses.

I pulled him closer. “No, you don’t.”

“I swear I do.”

''Only swear that you are mine.''

''It would break my heart, if you have doubts about that.''

''Then, you'll stay. This is my command.'' I said.

My little play made him giggle. ''I am all yours Emily but I have to quit. I cannot get paid by you, I am a man with pride.''

''So your pride makes you let your woman to be guarded by somebody else?''

''Do you think my woman may need to be protected?''

''So you think that; a men with pride like you, will be with a woman who will allow her man to be guarding some other woman? Really, Eduardo? What are you going to do when you quit? You will get another job, won't you? You will leave me to protect somebody else, am I mistaken about this?''

''I can try something  else, if that would bother you so much. I can work in construction, or restaurants...''

''You are being ridiculous! Cut off with the BS, por favor!''

''Ay! Woman! Did you just speak Spanish?'' he said with joy.

It was easy for us to switching moods like a Gemini. My ringing phone interrupted us, it was daddy.

''Hey daddy, what's up?''

''Emily where the hell ever are you at?''

I was twenty five years old and this might be first time I heard my dad speaking to me with that tone.

''I am on my  way to work, what's up? You sound like something's wrong.''

''You are taking your brainless bodyguard and coming to LA, now!'' he shouted and I hung up before I even said a thing.

I couldn't help myself burst into tears. That was the first time my dad talked to me like that. It was like he stopped loving me. Maybe someone else in my shoes would be scared but I was just feeling sad. I was always my daddy's favorite person in this world. He showered me with nothing but love and compassion. This was the first time, I was feeling unloved. I am aware of the silliness, but I couldn't help. Human nature can't figure out how to react to extreme situations after all.

I found myself in Eduardo's arms. He was there for me with full of concern and compassion.

''Emily, what's wrong?''

''It was dad. He yelled at me!'' I said as I burst into tears in Eduardo's arms. I was like a toddler.

Eduardo pressed his lips against my hair.

''I always knew that you were a baby girl.''

Oh, my sweet Eduardo... He was doing his best to cheer me up.

''Why don't you tell me what he exactly said?''

''He just yelled at me and told me to come to LA.''

''Do you mean, now?''

''Yes, he probably already arranged my private jet. I gotta head to the FBO.''

''I am coming with you.''

He didn't even know that, dad was asking him to come with me yet, he wanted to be there with me at my worst.

''He is asking you to come with me already.'' I said.

''Did he yell at you about me? Emily, do you think he is mad at you, because of me?''

''I don't know, Eduardo.''

''Do you think he found out about last night somehow?''

''I don't know, maybe somebody saw us and called him.''

''I can go, talk to your father by myself, to sort the things. You stay here and let me handle this, ok.''

Neither he was afraid of my father nor loosing his job. He was fully concerned about my vulnerability and doing his best to sort things out.

''What's done is done Eduardo. I have  to face it anyway. Thank you for your courage, I appreciate that.''

My words misled him probably. ''I am not making a scene to show my courage, Emily. I just want to do something for you. This is the first time I am seeing you clueless like that after all.''

''Let's go, Eduardo. I don't want to waste any second more here.''

''I want to ask you something before we go.''

''Yeah, shoot!''

''Do you trust me?''

Trust is such a complicated concept. That wouldn't be a yes or no question. You wouldn't trust someone with your property for example but you would defend them for not talking behind the one's back. Your ride or die partner would be accused of murder and you may give credit to the accusations.  So his question had missing points.

''Do I trust you in what, Eduardo?''

''Okay, I am going to rephrase it; do you trust me in this? Do you trust me that I can handle things for you? Do you trust my feelings of you? Do you trust me that I won't leave you alone at your worst? Do you find my feelings sincere, Emily?''

''I am more confident about my daddy's rage than all these. It's because I have witnessed his rage more than I have known you. I have been confident of daddy's unconditional love for me all these years. I have been confident about that, he would never yelled at me no matter what. Look, what I am dealing with now. I cannot say that you are lying or trying to toy with me but trust is a strong word, Eduardo.''

''You know what Emily, you are so damn right that I cannot even get offended. But my point is; your fears are in vain now. You will be daddy's spoiled girl again in heartbeat, I promise.''

''I hope that you are right, Eduardo. Let's go back to car.''

''After you my lady.''

It was a sweet detail that he could manage to find a way to cheer me up even if it's slightly. Our flight to LA was quiet. Eduardo and I, we both were really tensed. Dad has managed the transfer already, so we were picked up by his chauffeur after we landed to LA.

''Welcome Ms. Arquette. How was your flight?''

''It was alright, thank you for asking. Is my dad in the car?''

''No, Mr. Arquette is waiting for you at home. He has guests this evening.''

''He has guests, this evening?''

''Yes, Ma'am, he has guests at the mansion tonight. I don't see any luggage.''

''We don't have any. Let's head home already.''

''As you wish, Ma'am.''

Calling mom finally crushed my mind as I was watching the streets of Beverly Hills sliding in front of my sight.

''How silly I am; could have called mom to find out things, right!'' I said.

''You were way to frightened to think straight, Ma'am.'' responded Eduardo from the front seat.

''Are you calling me Ma'am, again?''

''This is not the right time to argue on that. You better call Madame Arquette before we arrive. Maybe she can tell what we are about to face.''

I didn't waste anymore second; called mom right away.

''Emily, where are you at?'' was her response as soon as she picked up the phone.

''I will be home in like ten minutes, mom. What's going on.''

''You tell me what is going on. What are you doing with your reckless bodyguard, Emily? Your dad is frustrated. I cannot calm him down at all.''

Oh no! He probably found out about me and Eduardo spending the night together. So what I had a thing for my bodyguard? I am a grown up woman and he is a grown up man... We can be together as long as we want to be. Dad has no right to come between us.

''Okay mom. We will talk once I am there. See you.''

''Did your mom say anything?''

''She  said something about you being reckless, probably he found out about last night.''

''I can take the blame and quit.''

''Don't you ever talking about quitting again! You are hitting my nerves!''

''Watch, your tone!'' he warned.

''I am not talking to you until we arrive, ok!''

''Well, you better!'' he said.

I was quite impressed by the way he has the guts.

We arrived home few minutes later. Dad was waiting for us in the living room with his so called guests. I had billions of scenarios running through my had, but the surprise that was in front of me; that was beyond my imagination. How is this happening and why is my dad mad at me because of that; Benjamin?