Chapter 87: Sorry

Charlotte’s pov

“Please leave” he said.

His voice was low, the silent plead in it told me that he didn’t know what he wanted.

He wanted me to stay but at the same time he wanted me to leave.

I misunderstood him.

I thought that all this time he just didn’t want to feed on me.

He hasn’t fed on anyone for centuries; this is why he is acting this way.

I didn’t say anything but stood my ground, he then sat down on the couch and didn’t look up.

I sat next to him.

“I am sorry” I said, and he looked up.

“For what?” he asked me, and I thought about it.

What is it that I am sorry?

Am I sorry for misunderstanding him?

Am I sorry for all the things I said the other day?

Am I sorry for shutting him out the first time I saw him?

Or am I sorry for making him suffer for centuries?

“For everything” I said, and he smiled.

“That made everything all better” he said but I could hear the sarcasm In his voice as he said so.

“You shouldn’t be sorry; it was our love that got us in this trouble. I played a part in it” he said and then sighed.

“If I could go back in time, I would do it over and over again even knowing that I would end up here” he said.

I could tell he means what he says, there was a knock on the door and Mark came in.

“Sir is everything okay?” he asked, and Sebastian nodded.

“Tell her to come, I need some blood” he said, and Mark bowed as he left the room.

I looked at him, he really wont even think about feeding on me?

he wont even ask me?

He would have her called here when I am right next to him?

I am here and I offered and yet he didn’t care.

After a few minutes, the girl came in.

Her eyes landed on me, she smirked as she looked at me.

“How about feeding directly today? Your thirst is getting worse sir, please feed directly” she said getting closer to him.

She then pushed her hair aside exposing her neck, I watched as he got closer to her.

Is he really going to feed directly from her?

“This will be the last time I am getting blood from you, after this go to Mark and he will give you all the money you want.

I never want to see your face again” he said and then took a glass.

He handed it to her.

I could see the fear in her eyes as she looked at him.

“You are lucky I don’t like staining my hands with human blood. You would have been dead by now” he said then sat back down.

He closed his eyes, the girl looked at me, she had tears in her eyes, and I could see it.

She had developed feelings for him.

I don’t blame her honestly because he is really handsome.

Not only that but he is rich, powerful and has this aura to him.

That’s the kind of man every women wants.

The kind that could want into a room and demand respect.

She then slowly cut the inside of her hand and let blood pour inside the glass.

She seemed used to this because she didn’t even groan in pain as she did this.

After that she took the healing elixir and her hand healed immediately.

I could see that she wanted to say something, she wanted to plead with him.

I could see how desperately she wanted to stay but also how scared she was.

She looked at me and frowned but left without another word.

Sebastian picked up the glass and started drinking the blood, but I noticed the frown on his face.

I took the glass away from him.

“Just feed on me okay” I said, and he looked at me.

“Do you even understand what feeding on you means?” he asked me.

“What does it mean?” I asked and he sighed.

“It doesn’t end just there; I will not only want your blood but also your body.

I will touch you in ways you have never been touched before.

We could even end up sleeping together, especially since I haven’t fed in so long I wont be able to control myself” he said.

“Wait, are you telling me that you haven’t had sex in all these years?

Actually centuries?” I asked him and he sighed.

“Is that the only thing you got from what I told you?” he asked me.

I lifted up the dress I was wearing.

I sat on his lap wrapping my legs around him.

“Please don’t do this Charlotte” he said, and I smiled and then started kissing his neck.

He didn’t stop me but just sat there.

“I am ready for anything, you can feed on me” I whispered in his ear.

He looked up; his eyes were now red again.

I saw that he even had fangs as well, he placed his lips on mine.

First it was gentle, and the kiss got a little rough, he then stopped and looked at me.

We were both breathless.

“I can’t do it, what if I hurt you?” he asked me.

“You won’t” I said and then pushed my head to the side exposing my neck.

He then started kissing my neck.

I closed my eyes when I felt my teeth sink into mine flesh.

That’s when I felt it, the thousand sparks exploding all over my body.

This intensity, I felt this heat and pleasure coursing through my veins.

The pleasure was something I haven’t felt before in my entire life.

Even when he stopped I still felt like my entire body was going to explode.

This need, what is this?

Every part of me is on fire, and only the parts where he is holding me feel cool.

As if his touch is the only thing that can take this fire away.

I felt it as his hands started unzipping my dress and he let it fall.

He then looked at me.

“Once we do this there is no going back. Its not the mate bond but It is a bond” he said.

“Well then, lets build that bond” I said, and he smiled before gently placing his lips on mine.

Such gentleness from a man who seems rough and ruthless really did catch me by surprise.

The fact that he even controlled himself while drinking my blood told me exactly what I needed to know.

I started taking off his tux and shirt when he held both my hands and stopped me.

 “Not here” he said and then got up holding me in his arms.

He opened a door and it led straight to his bedroom where the lights were dim.

It was a little dark but perfect, all I could see was the look in his eyes.

This man really loves me, and I could feel it as well.

These feelings surging through out of nowhere engulfing me and completely consuming me.

The way I reacted to his touch, the way I readily gave myself to him.

This man’s touch will forever be like medicine to me no matter what life it is.

I knew it, I knew it the moment I felt myself him enter me.

The moment we behind one, I knew in that very moment that I love this man to the moon and back.

I love him more than anything, maybe I am not Scarlet.

But I love him in this life and this moment as he touches me and kisses every part of my body.

And not only my heart but even my body knows this fact.

It reacted to every touch, every kiss and I couldn’t stop the moans that came out.

I don’t need him to tell me.

I can feel it in his touch that he loves me more than I do him.

“That was amazing” I said still trying to catch my breath.

Sebastian was holding me in his arms.

As if he is scared that I might just walk away.

“You are amazing” he said and then smiled as he looked at me.

“Why?” he asked out of the blue and I looked at him confused.

“Why did you give your innocence to me?” he asked me,

and I knew the real question he wanted to ask.

Why him and not Logan?

Why did I decide to give him my innocence and not my mate?

“It felt right, from the moment I met you it felt as if I belonged in your arms.

I want to stay with you forever and ever” I said.

Honestly, I have felt that way ever since I was 16 years old, as if I wanted to always be by his side.

“Really? forever is a long time” he said with this huge smile on his face.

“Not only forever, but till forever falls apart. Because I love you” I said, and he kissed my forehead.

“I love you more” he said and then everything went dark.

What just happened?

What is happening?

Why is everything dark?