CHAPTER 52

Riella's POV.

I twirled my fork gently in my hands, eyes fixated on the cheese that stared back at me in the face. Carolyn had gone all out to make dinner; macaroni and cheese. She didn't like to cook, so, it was such a grand gesture to have her do this.

I however wasn't feeling the meal. I was trying hard not to bend over my toilet sink and retch everything I had consumed out of my system. The offer was so tempting and I knew if I didn't kill the thoughts now, it would be fate all night long.

“Ella, ” Carolyn called softly, reaching forward to touch my fingers. She took my hand in hers, caressing it softly. It was then I realized I had tears streaming down my cheeks.

I was bitter.

Heartbroken.

“Ella, come on.” Carolyn nudged me as she pushed the plate out of the way before inching closer to wrap her hands around me. Winter barked and wagged its tail at the same time the tears came running down.

I hated to feel this way.

I didn't want to feel this way.

The last time I had felt this br