LOGINI am Erika Setyani Atmaja—a final-year business student trapped in a perpetual state of "almost." Haunted by the shadow of my father’s mounting ultimatums and the threat of being cut off, I find myself pushed to the brink. This year, failure is no longer an option. Desperation leads me to Pak Jefri, the cold, formidable gatekeeper of my future. To secure my degree, I am prepared to play any game, no matter how dangerous. "Dit... help me out. What do I have to do to get Jefri to sign off on my thesis?" "Just sleep with him." What began as a calculated move to manipulate a man I despised soon spirals into a labyrinth of forbidden desire. Somewhere between the cold clinicality of academia and the heat of stolen moments, the lines of hatred began to blur. Will I emerge with my degree, or will I lose myself in a love that was never meant to exist?
View More"This is my thesis manuscript, Sir. Everything has been revised," I said, my voice trembling with a quiver I could hardly hide.
I stood near Mr. Jefri, bowing my head. My fingers were clutched together behind my back. Cold sweat crawled over my skin, even though the blast from the air conditioner felt bone-chilling.
The atmosphere in Mr. Jefri’s office that afternoon was suffocating. It was only natural, considering this was the fifth time I had submitted revisions that ended in rejection. Every time that thesis was returned, it was covered in red marks—scars of my seemingly endless failure.
It didn't feel like a mere revision anymore; it felt like an interminable torture. I wasn't wrong to dub him the 'cruel professor.' I felt as though he held a personal grudge against me, constantly looking for any flaw to hinder my graduation.
Sure enough, today was no different. I glanced at Mr. Jefri, who merely flipped through the pages without actually reading them. My face darkened with resentment. Internally, I cursed, "This man is unbelievable! He doesn't even respect my hard work."
In a flash, he crossed out several pages. I instinctively looked up; my eyes widened in shock, my mouth agape.
"Sir... please, don't. I worked so hard to revise this. Why are you crossing it out again?" I cried out, trying to snatch the final project document back.
However, he pulled his hand away quickly, keeping it out of my reach.
"What kind of thesis is this?!" His tone was no longer just angry; it was an explosion. His voice thundered through the silent office, making me flinch.
"Everything is wrong!" He continued to strike through every page in the air, as if he wanted to tear them apart.
Frustrated and unwilling to give up, I kept jumping, trying to reach the manuscript. My leg accidentally buckled, causing me to lose my balance and fall right into his lap.
Our eyes met. A strange vibration hit my chest. My body felt warm, as if a fire had suddenly been ignited. Suddenly, Mr. Jefri’s lips crushed against mine roughly, and without realizing it, I kissed him back.
Without a shred of hesitation, I met his touch, inviting him to explore deeper. The kiss grew more feral. He began to trail down my neck, leaving a flushed mark there.
"Aahh..." A faint moan escaped my lips.
Until now, no man had ever touched me. Yet today, the cruel professor I loathed was the one who started it all. He tore down every defense I had built to avoid physical contact.
Mr. Jefri’s hands grew bolder. He wasn't satisfied with just my upper body. He began to explore my chest, slowly pulling at my lingerie strap while continuing to kiss me. The sensitive peaks of my chest, already taut, surfaced as he slid the garment and my bra down. With passion, he lingered there, his touch wild and uninhibited.
"Mmhhh... Sir..."
I couldn't stay silent, especially as his fingers began to wander toward my thighs, which felt damp. I could hear his ragged breath. I never imagined that the professor I considered a beast at revising was far more predatory than I had ever envisioned.
He lifted my small frame and sat me on his desk. The short skirt I wore made it easy for him to reach my most sensitive areas. Mr. Jefri lowered my underwear and spread my trembling thighs wide. He pulled the lever on his swivel chair to lower himself, allowing his touch to easily find my deepest folds.
"Aahhh... Sir..."
I moaned in pleasure. My hands gripped his hair as he worked. My hips moved instinctively, seeking the deepest sensation of his play.
Until, without realizing it, my grip on his hair slipped. My body felt like it was floating—not from pleasure—but because I was falling from a height.
Thud!
I jolted awake. My body had rolled off the bed and landed on the cold floor. Panting, my eyes swept around the room as I muttered, "Where am I?"
My brow furrowed as I saw thesis papers scattered everywhere. My laptop was still on, and books were strewn across the place. Seeing the chaos, I realized I was in my rented apartment, not Mr. Jefri’s office.
"Damn it! It was just a dream."
A few hours ago, I had been busy finishing revisions while cursing his name. Out of sheer frustration toward Mr. Jefri, I had fallen asleep and had a strange midday dream.
I felt my underwear, which was damp. And... sure enough, a trace of moisture remained.
"How stupid! How could I possibly dream that about that cruel man," I scolded myself.
Cling!
The sound of a notification from my phone on the bed rang out. I ignored it, still leaning weakly against the side of the bed.
My chest felt tight because of the dream. Beyond the disgust, I felt annoyed and indignant. I, who had never been touched by a man, was touched for the first time by the person I hated—even if it only happened in a dream.
I had never once imagined being touched by him; even seeing his face was enough to make my blood boil. I wondered how he could be the dream professor for other female students when his face was so stiff and devoid of emotion. His attitude was colder than the North Pole.
Though, I had to admit... he was indeed handsome.
Bzzzt!
The sound of my phone ringing accompanied by a vibration broke the silence.
"Who is this, anyway?"
Languidly, my hand fumbled across the bed, trying to reach the phone from the floor.
"Mr. Jefri?!"
My eyes instantly bulged seeing his name clearly displayed on the screen. I immediately pressed the green button and rushed to answer.
"Hello, Sir..."
Suddenly, my demeanor shifted completely. I spoke as softly as possible, as if I had never felt a shred of annoyance.
"If you aren't willing to finish your thesis, just say so! I don't want to waste my time waiting for you on campus!" Mr. Jefri’s voice sounded like he was suppressing a rage.
"W-what? You're waiting for me?!" My eyes widened in shock. My body froze, as if my lungs had stopped breathing.
"You didn't read the messages? I've sent several, Erika!"
Instantly, my heart felt like it wanted to leap out of my chest. My fingers moved quickly to check the screen.
And... there it was. Mr. Jefri had been messaging me since noon, asking me to come for a consultation at 3:00 PM.
And now?
I glanced at the alarm clock on my study shelf. The hands already showed 3:30 PM. Without a second thought, I scrambled up, holding the phone to my ear as I paced in a daze.
"Yes, Sir. I'll be there right away!" I answered hoarsely, then hung up.
Panicking, I ran back and forth looking for trousers and a shirt.
"Where did they go? They were just here."
It was as if they had vanished off the face of the earth. Typical—the things you need most always disappear in an emergency. I was certain those trousers were lying on the bed this morning.
My apartment wasn't large. There was only a bed, a shelf connected to a desk, a long sofa, and a cabinet wardrobe. The trousers shouldn't have moved far.
I ran to every corner, opening every cabinet. Empty. There were no trousers left. I slumped onto the floor, screaming while clutching my hair.
"Aarrrgghh.... Why is all my clothing dirty?!"
"So, you came?" Mr. Jefri's voice echoed from the end of the hallway.I remained in the living room, staring toward the source of the sound. A few seconds later, Mr. Jefri appeared. He was wearing a dark, silk kimono pajama set. He left the chest area open, as if intentionally leaving his top untied to show off his muscular physique."Didn't you say you would never want to see me again?" he said, walking toward me.I glanced behind him, worried that Dita might appear, but the room was empty. Mr. Jefri was in this house alone. This meant he had intentionally ignored my calls and messages, not because Dita was present. He was acting this way as if to prove his point that I would inevitably come looking for him, even if my heart resisted."Why didn't you answer my calls?"He stood directly in front of me, standing tall. He brushed the pajama top covering his chest aside with an arrogant air, then slid both hands into his pockets."I didn't feel there was anything to discuss. So, why shou
I stood up abruptly, startled. Mother did the same; she stood frozen for a few seconds, staring at the form. Tears fell, dampening the paper in her hand. She wiped them away and then, with a trembling hand, signed the surgery consent form."Please save my husband, Doctor," Mother’s voice wavered as she handed the form back."I will do everything in my power, Ma'am."From inside the room, several nurses pushed Father’s gurney toward the operating theater. The wheels squeaked loudly, and the nurses’ faces looked panicked as they rushed him through. Mang Ujang and I followed behind, while Mother walked alongside the gurney, crying and whispering into Father’s ear, "Pa... stay strong. You have to wake up and get better soon.""I’m sorry, Ma'am. Please wait outside," the doctor requested as we reached the entrance to the operating theater."Pa..." Mother sobbed as soon as the doors closed.I approached her and hugged her to calm her down. "Mom... please, try to stay strong..."Suddenly, Mo
"Do you realize that your mistake this time is fatal, Erika?" Father asked, his expression rigid.I could see the immense anger in his face, yet he tried to contain it—perhaps because he had given up on my attitude, which always disappointed him. My lips were sealed; I could only look down as tears streamed down my face. Internally, I thought, Forgive me, Father. I have become a useless child."The reporters have managed to track down your identity. They even openly mentioned the name of my company."Father's voice sounded somewhat raspy. It wasn't just emotion; I knew there was a deep wound in his heart that he couldn't express to me."Do you know the consequences of your actions?!" Father's tone rose. I remained looking down, wringing my fingers. "My company collapsed overnight. Share prices plummeted, and shareholders have been scrambling to sell their stakes!"I instantly lifted my face and stared at Father, my eyes wide. I hadn't expected the impact to be this severe. Father's fa
Mr. Jefri stepped closer, narrowing the distance between us. "I helped you so you wouldn't be expelled. Don't you think I deserve a token of appreciation?"My suspicion was correct. Mr. Jefri had intentionally let today’s events unfold so that I would remain tied to him."What do you want? For me to serve your sexual needs?" I asked with a cynical tone. I stepped forward, closing the gap between us. "Is sex all you ever think about?"My tears spilled over, my lips trembling as I held back the sobs that kept escaping. "You have no idea how devastated I am today!"My voice caught in my throat. I clenched my fists to suppress my emotions while glaring at him with pure hatred. "I promise, I never want to see you again!"I slung my bag over my shoulder and left him after grabbing my thesis manuscript from the table."You won't be able to run from my life." Mr. Jefri’s cold voice rang out, halting my steps. "No matter how much time passes, you will always come back to me... even if your hea
Mr. Jefri crushed his lips against mine again, brutally. He exerted his dominance, as if to prove what he had just said. Even though I kept struggling, he didn't care, becoming even more aggressive in devouring my lips.Suddenly, a knocking sound echoed at the door.Knock! Knock! Knock!Mr. Jefri s
I never imagined Roy would be this reckless. This was a total surprise; perhaps this was why he had pressured me to come to the festival. I didn't expect him to declare his love in front of so many people.This situation was an ace up my sleeve. At first, I only wanted to make Dita and Mr. Jefri je
I burst into a chuckle at the sight of Dita's expression. She looked shocked, her face tense, and Mr. Jefri didn't look any better."Do you really think Mr. Jefri would be interested in someone like me?" I said, casting a cold glance at Dita.Dita stared at Mr. Jefri—scrutinizing his flat, stiff ex
I continued to struggle, trying to pry myself away from the lecturer’s grip. "Mmmhhh..." I groaned through his aggressive kiss.I tried to signal that Dita was approaching, but he didn't budge, doubling down on his dominance by continuing to devour my lips."Yes, Sir... Alright... I’ll get it done,


















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