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THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS MY WISH
OLIVIA“I want to be with you tonight.”He doesn’t seem to be breathing, frozen in place. A bitter taste fills my mouth and I ready myself for the excuse that's about to come.I have known for a while now that my boyfriend doesn’t desire me anymore. He doesn’t touch me nor look at me the same way he used to look at me. At least back then, he pretended to care enough and be present enough to make me believe.He pretended enough with me and I was content with it, as long as I held onto the illusion of a happy couple, as long as we pretended that we were both happy with each other, then everything was perfect.When was the last time things were seamless and smooth and it didn't feel like we were characters just saying designated lines?“livie.” His sigh tells me everything. I nod, the burger feeling like metal sitting in my stomach. Turning my back to him, I sigh as I look around the rooftop.This damned place.It was where we escaped together, where we were just two kids in love. We had
Last Updated : 2025-02-06THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS LET ME IN
ZADEAs I watch the orange flame, I flick the lighter in and off.I can hear her. She is fast asleep.I push off the door and make my way toward the room I am meant to be in.I don’t have to knock, the door slightly ajar. I push it open, eyes adjusting to the slightly dark room and there she is.Standing at the front of the room, wearing nothing but lingerie that accentuates her body, looking like a sinful wet dream.“you came.”I odnt bother removing my leather jacket, stiding ovet to her. her gasp arouses something in me that akes me curl my hand around her neck and push her agsint the wall.Fear and … hesitation flashes in her eyes as I tighten my fingers around her throat.“Zade,” she tries to claw my hand away but it's useless.I don’t wait for her to utter another word, swallowing it in my mouth as I take her puckered lips in my mouth. I am not gentle, as I unclench my fingers, and I give her a bruising kiss.My teeth clang into hers. I can feel she is trying to keep up but she
Last Updated : 2025-02-06THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS SO CLOSE YET SO FAR AWAY
ZADE“I don’t plan on being cute with you tonight.”My hand slowly caresses her skin, from her ankl,e to her thigh, traveling up her leg, watching fascination how she trembles and goosebumps leave in my wake, the higher I go.I kneel on the bed, slowly hovering above her, my elbow beside her head as I glide my palm softly on her skin, reaching her waist, to her ribcage, going up … feeling the swell of her breast, as I go further up until I reach her neck.I finally look at her face, her eyes hooded, her lashes fluttering as she looks up at me. I blink and I don’t see Livie but…Ari as she looks up at me, those smoldering eyes looking up at me.My breath hitches, freezing in place. I blink again and it's back to Livie, who is looking at me with desire, her hand going up from my chest, to my neck and finally to my jaw.“Baby?”What's going on?I lower my head towards her and kiss her softly, my lips pressing on hers, not going in, just feeling her plush soft lips on me.But it feels dif
Last Updated : 2025-02-07THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT MEANS
ARII wake up in a gasp, my whole body feeling so sore and achy.Startled, I touch between my legs, and a blush creeps up my neck to my ears. My sleeping shorts are soaked.“uuurgh,” I groan, burying my face in my palms. What was that dream? Is that why I feel like I ran a marathon?I have never had such a dream before, let alone think of something like that. I mean I have always been curious but I thought I was asexual since none of the boys or girls I have met ever aroused such emotions from me.But that dream … why did it feel like it happened in real-time? And worst of all, it had to be with that stupid boy?!“This is so fucked up,” I groan as I push the covers off me and run to the bathroom. It is embarrassing enough that I am still tingling down there, worse than the moment he comes into my mind I want to feel as I felt in my dreams.Ahh, this is driving me insane!I set the water to ice cold as I strip and toss the wet shots and the tank top into the dryer before stepping into
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ARII don’t want to leave the confines of my room.“This is THE gala. How can you think of not attending?” mimi I holding the gowns that Mother sent over for this birthday party I am supposed to attend tonight.“it's too last minute, I am not ready to mingle with the legacies.” She might have told me days ago but I have been avoiding everyone and the world.“believe it or not, you are a legacy too, missing this would be fatal. Like declaring a war or something.”I gape at Mimi. “are you serious?”“no,” she pushes her glasses up. “but missing the birthday party of your grandfather,” she raises her finger up when I narrow my eyes. “step-grandfather, that would mean that you are cutting yourself off the social group.”“I don’t see how that is a bad thing. The more you talk, the more enticing it gets that I miss it and just stay in bed watching Netflix.”“it's bad because this man is powerful and might bring problems to your father-in-law which leads to your mother. You said that you alwa
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ZADEI hate parties.A place where people come and mingle, pretend and laugh, drink, make a mess of themselves and then go home. Its too loud, its too much faking for me to handle yet here I am, smiling so effortlessly and even laughing you would never think I am not having the best time of my life.“I am so glad you two are sticking together. Everyone heard that the goddess didn’t fate you and it was just so sad,” the tall man with large eyes that looks like beads, glazed from having too many glasses of wine cocks his head in sympathy.“We are in love, of course, we will fight for our love. Nothing is ever a done deal, especially not to us, who are already arranged to marry.”Kill me now.Olivia touches my arm as she leans forward, her smile gleaming so perfectly and the man sighs in contentment. “yes, you are the epitome of a good daughter. I wish my daughter was like you.”“Kaitlyn is just as perfect mr.Nikolai,” Olivia chuckles and the man man shakes his head.“I was hoping she wo
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ZADEMy hand is shaking as I look at him with her.“Baby, you are bleeding!” Olivia rushes to my side and grabs my hand. “what happened?”I shrug her hold off my hand gently, looking away. “it's nothing. Just a small scratch it; will heal in a minute.”She grabs it again persistently. " You have shards of glass in the flesh; let me clean you up.”Logan looks at me and I shake my head. Everything is fine, I am fine I won't jump off and go punch my father right in his face even if it's all I ache for now.Logan seems to feel content that I won't storm off and sits back in his chair, back to being broody. That’s why he is my closest friend. There is Rowan and Cass as well but I am closest with him. he understands me, sees the darkness chiurning inside me, and doesn’t seem frightened by it. He encourages me to look at it once in a while too.He once told me it's good to be familiar with all of you because the longer you ignore those parts, the stronger and more pressing they get. When it
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ARII shouldn’t have come.“my baby!” a kiss on my cheek. “you look so beautiful.”“thank you mom, you look amazing too as always,” I look ar her side at the man who is smiling, hand on the small of her waist. “Mr. Parkers, thank you for inviting me.”He chuckles and steps in front of me. “when will you stop addressing me so formally?” probably never? He leans in for a hug. Its stiff, all my joints and limbs locked and I count the seconds until its all over.“the place looks wonderful.” It does. The who place is decorated so beautifully, I feel like I have walked rihght in a movie set.“my father loves everything to be a high luxury, everyone must have a good experience at his parties.”As I look around, I feel a smoldering gaze on my left and when i lock eyes with the silver ones, I feel my heart lurch to my throat.I knew he would be here, its his grandfafther’s party after all. I also expected the girl in his arm too, she is his girlfriend after all.I hate how my stomach drops whe
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THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS YES, SHE HAS ME BY THE COLLAR
ZADEI stop behind one balding man, I think he is here because he is a legacy. Not the official family but still as important. I can see the sweat trickling down his neck into the stiff, tight suit he is wearing.If I wasn’t so sure before, now standing behind him as he reeks of fear … it's solid. My hand goes through his back, and I touch the organ that’s beating and warm in my palm.Gasps echo around, but no one says a word, as they look at me with horrified expressions, save for my father, of course.“This man,” I turn to Jude, “you missed this man.” My fingers close around the beating organ and pull my hand back. The body shakes, twitching before his head thumps on the table like a log. The scent of blood permeates the air, thickening it with the tension and fear pulsing in the room.I walk over to Jude and let the organ fall on his file, and he looks at it, eyes wide. I am sure he isn't breathing. After all, I just killed a legacy, and he has a lot of mess to clean up.And also,
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THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS ALL OR NOTHING
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THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS BROKEN DOLL
ARIMy life is a mess.It’s a fucked life, painful, dry, bland, void of colour.I am ugly too, rotting slowly inside, underserving of anything good because that’s just what is set in stone for me.Despite it all, despite feeling all of that, as Zade looks at me like I mean something, like I matter … I can't help but want to be under that gaze for a longer time.He is looking at me how he used to look at Olivia, like he might love me, like I mean something. He wants to know if I am okay, taking care of me, a gentle, caring touch on my cold, withering soul.I don’t deserve it, and yet.I yearn for it. Crave it. I can't not shudder under it.“Do you want me to ask you?”Yes. I want him to ask me. I want him to push for me to tell him what's going on in my head. For him to fight for me. I am selfish like that. Mother didn’t say anything untrue, because here I am, asking and taking what doesn’t belong to me.I came into this life, took Olivia’s man under fate’s guidance, and yes. It hurt.
THE REJECTED LYCAN PRINCESS WHY WONT YOU ASK ME?
ARII don’t think I have ever truly let myself think deeply about Zade, who is becoming, and his birthright. I am not one to attach my identity to the boy I am seeing or crushing on, and in this case, the boy I am mated to.But it's still heavy. I find it … sexy that he is already so mature, powerful too, and it's only going to get even better.Yes, I think I am crushing on Zade, and I can't control choking on my water once that fully hits me.“Are you okay?” he asks me as he rushes to my side, rubbing my back.“Yeah,” I wheeze out. “Guess I am a little surprised.”“Why?” he chuckles as he gets back to cooking.“The first thing someone sees when they see you is how spoiled you are.” That’s not true.The first thing I saw and felt when I first laid my eyes on him was just how magnetic and powerful he was. Yes, you could tell from miles away that he is wealthy, but it wasn’t the kind I got from the rest of the students.No, his was the quiet, generational wealth that just didn’t come fr
