19. MINE!

I should have been pissed. I should have been moody and fuming but I was not. As torturous as it was standing there all day long, I could not help but be excited. I did not know what I was excited about. The smiles that I had gotten, the compliments and the well wishes, they did something to me. I should have hated it, should have hated how much I was forced to smile but I was the opposite of that.

All these were unexplored emotions for me. Such happiness, it seemed almost criminal to have. I worked my hands over my dress. It was a bundle of colors and patterns with spaghetti straps, skin tight. I paired it with tall black heel sandals and odd pieces of jewelry. To add a piece that was known to me to the outfit, I put on my pearl beads. With that, I was ready to face the alpha couples sitting at the dinner table at that point. My hands were damp with sweat but admitting that out loud would be stupid because I would be accepting that I was nervous. I never got nervous. I thought, shaki