Brum walked in just as the sun was over the horizon. It’s vibrant rays poured over the valley, bringing color to the dull of the night. I was almost raw with fatigue, my eyes burning from it. Brum walked in to shower as I sniffed the air. He did not smell of anything at all, not even the woods. Maybe my nose just wasn’t working at all. I took a whiff again, getting nothing then the thought hit me. I could barely even get his own scent which meant he had used something to remove any scents on him. Why would he do that? What was he hiding? Could there have been someone in the hall and they had also hid their scent? I was sure I wasn’t making it up, someone had been standing at the other end of the door. My thoughts ran to the night I got sick. I had felt someone next to me. But now looking at it, it could have been Brum with his scent masked. All I had wanted was a good night sleep and that had been thrown in the gutter. Every part of me was aching, too numb to even shift from Brum’s
I did not have the energy to put up a show. I did not have the energy to stride in with confidence. All I could do was keep my head up and show them nothing. I still could not wrap my head around what had happened this morning. I was having difficulty processing it to the fullest. The moment I entered the dining room, chairs scraped the floors but you could feel the tension even then. It was thick, almost tangible in the air and consumed all in that room. I could feel my body sway with each step, my waist curving in as my long legs swallowed the distance between me and the breakfast table, yet I was not in control. I took a back seat and let muscle memory take over, leaving my body vacant of any coherent thoughts. I felt hollow, an empty vessel with an abyss inside. I bent into a respectful curtsey. “My king. My queen.” I did not know if they replied or not. I pulled out my chair and sat down. The one next to me was vacant. The opposite chair to me was also vacant, as were the six
Just after dinner the alphas from all the packs began showing up. They were trickling in like flies. Most had been travelling by groups. I was not in the best of moods and I was actually doing well considering the morning I'd had. Brum was nowhere to be seen but we had all expected that. He would miss even the birth of his child own at the rate he was going. “My king.” An alpha couple greeted the king. “My queen.” They continued, moving onto to me. I waited until the whole group had said their greetings then I led them to the dining hall where they would get refreshments. The castle was buzzing in a way I had not seen before. The kitchen was in full swing, the sounds of pots and cutlery cluttering could be faintly heard. Some ladies were showing the alpha couples to their rooms where they would catch some sleep. At that point I wished I was one of the incoming guests so I could also go sleep in my room. The many sleepless nights I'd endured had finally caught up with me and by the
“Where is the Beta?” Former Alpha Moonseekers asked and the occupants in the room started to scowl, aggressive murmurs rising between them once they perceived the slight. Areli kept sending me sympathetic smiles and they set me off. Any mention of that... of Brum did not help calm my foul mood in any way. I was sure my face was set in the deepest scowl. “He is running late.” King Conri said, as he ran a hand through his hair in obvious agitation. His words left a bitter taste in my mouth, bringing an angry flush to my skin. The silence that followed was heavy and suffocating. Eyes darted from one pair to another, realization sparking in all the alphas there. Brum wasn't coming, I knew it, the King knew it and everyone else did. It was not my best day but I would not bend my head in sadness no matter how much I wanted to. “Then we should wait.” Alpha Silver said and I was filled with dread. No one said anything in answer but a decision had been silently made. I walked off to sit on
“And now we are being held hostage!” “Don’t be dramatic Silver.” Conri exclaimed. I was not holding anyone hostage. What I was saying was that the ceremony would go on whether they liked it or not. Whether they were part of it or not. I was far too riled up to argue with them. My eyes spoke for me. The alphas averted their gazes, backing away and I took that as acquiesce. I turned away from them, walking back into the forest. The wind whistled shrilly, blowing the trees to it's violent rhythm. I gathered the fruits and herbs I needed before walking back to my hanging meat. I ground the herbs and fruits on the stone. I rolled the oranges on the ground over and over to get as much of the juice squeezed. I sliced the meat to perfect cuts which I carried to the fire. I set them near but not directly to the fire. As the large pieces cooked on the rocks I set them on, I divided the fire into two. I set up where I would hang up each animal then went to get the two beasts. I hung them upsi
I tended to the meat all night long as the others slept in the camp. My eyes were heavy with sleep but I was determined to complete the course that would follow that day. The forest came to life as the sun rose over the horizon. The rain had begun and exhausted itself on me. I liked to believe it was cleansing me of how weak I had gotten. By the time the men woke up I had assembled their plates for them. They sat and ate as they chat with themselves. I could feel the eyes take me in but I had my old self back. There was no way they could approach or start a conversation with me. Even Conri decided to let it rest. They walked away after eating, heading back to the pack, and I was left to dissemble all the shelters I had made. I cleared the beds and left the area as clean as we found it. They came back clean with a new set of clothes while I rotted, feeling like filth in my own skin. My back was to them, my legs were crossed and I was staring at the lake. The hand of time paused for m
I woke up alone, arms and spread out like an eagle on the bed. I had drunk too much Were-ale. It had knocked me out which was the only way I could sleep really. Looking back at the previous night, I had a great time. The people had led me down into the forest and I had become one with the rhythm until the wee hours of morning. Drink after drink made it's way onto my hand, and before I knew it, I was sloshed. We jumped around as a group and drank until dawn was upon us. I slowly dragged myself off the bed, stumbling to the bathroom where I crumbled to my knees and held on tightly to the seat. I spewed bile hard my belly arched inwards. I kept dry heaving with nothing else passing because I had been running on fumes for two full days. My stomach was rolling, so I decided to settle near the toilet bowl in case I had another episode. I was running warmer than normal and the tiles were cool. Passing out there was a very attractive prospect. It was hours later when I woke up. I dragged m
No one thought he was bold enough. I did not think he was that bold but I was wrong, I knew he was gone. I could not believe it, neither could Areli or Conri for that matter, because they were both gaping at the door he'd left through. We all stared at the door in shock as if that would will Brum back. My jaw was unhinged as well, and I looked between the royal couple and the door in confusion. The room alternated between hot and cold. I kept processing it and each time it baffled me even harder. I was at my wits end. My mind was in the gutter. Conri was visibly seething in anger, running his hand through his hair. He turned to a wide eyes Areli. I knew their attention would soon turn to me. I knew their eyes would be sorrowful and pitying. I didn’t want to be a part of it. I shot up to my feet, turned around and quickly made my way out of the office. Areli called after me but I moved faster, getting into Brum’s office. I quickly grabbed a chair and put it under the handle which wig