5. A BEAST ON THE LOOSE

It was the first time, since I was dragged down, being upstairs. My head turned left and right seeing the house I had built for these disgusting people with my blood, tears and sweat. I was so angry I wanted to burn it all down but not the time. I had to get away.

My feet turned, running around until I saw a window, running through it with the pain wasted on me as I jumped into the night.

Vampires were creatures that never slept. They could but they did not need to thus some just liked wondering about at night. I knew I would be caught one way or another but if that happened, I would go down fighting. My eyes scanned all around, seeing so many vampires already making their way to the house.

I was scared, a new neighborhood to which I never grew up in, never walked out and explored its twists and turns thus I was going in blind. As stubborn as I was, it was time to hand over the rails.

I ran as fast as I could. I did not know if it was wise turning into a wolf in front of so many vampires but I was sure they could already smell the odd smell. I went on running with my bare feet. Seeing me running from the house where they had heard  screams had them suspicious thus they began running after me and God they were faster than I was.

I shook my head, wanting to cry, wanting to scream because I did not know what I was doing. I did not know where I was going, feeling so scared and alone.

Fuck it.

I ripped into my wolf, running at the fastest speed I could but my wolf had been starved, never having shifted since my sixteenth birthday. As much as she had saved all the energy for the escape, it wasn’t much and I was hurt, badly wounded and in pain.

A prayer ran out over and over again, begging for a forest, at least then I would be hidden. I was running here and there, dodging many vampires that were running my way but luckily for me, they were just ordinary people and not trained warriors thus it was better but how far could it take me.

The lights were blinding, the ground as if shaking with my heart at the tip of my tongue yet I kept moving. I felt panicked, turning left and right, leading me to more streets, no where to hide. My smell was like a siren, drawing them like sugar to ants. It was an open field for me and I did not even know how I got as far as I did but I kept pushing with my tears clouding my eyes because I knew what would happen to me if I was caught. I was still young, I had not wronged anyone, lord, who had I killed in my past life for such a fate. I hated it, I hated the whole world.

I was hit from the side, my body thrown off with much force. I did not even stop to see what happened. My wolf got back on all fours and I went running even harder in panic, head turning left and right, no escape for me and no where to cry to, no where to ask for help from.

How far off were my people? I did not know but I knew it was another kingdom. I would never get there alive, did not even know where to go, where to run off if they were still alive at that. The vampires had made sure to let me know all the dirty deeds they had been doing to my people all through the years and I was scared they had killed them all.

My lord where would I go?

The second I saw green I nearly died, the vampires dead at my heel with me running harder, no way they could catch me. My body went lower, running as if springs attached to my feet, not even feeling the ground because I was running for nothing but my life. I moved harder and faster, dust left behind but they never backed down.

The tree branches hit me from every direction, stones and tree roots scratching and nearly breaking my paws but I pushed past the pain. It drove me. I  had been through so much to give up. I knew I would not make it but moved none the less.

I could not take any more torture.

I could not take anymore abuse.

 I could not take another beating and anymore cruelty from these people. Could they let me go, those filthy bastards.

Who left me in their world either or? Who would have hated me or my parents that much? How had they thought it through? I wanted that person and I would deal with them specially.

My head turned back, thinking of hiding but they were too close, they would see me, no chance and option than to keep on moving.

My wolf was tired, my feet as if to break apart with it’s pants labored.

“ You can do it baby, please don’t give up.” I cried out, begging, begging even the heavens to just give me this. All I needed was just to get out and be safe.

I shook my head, my speed depleting fast like water being drained through a hole.

“ Fuck it, I did not go through so much torture while you lay back inside me for shit, move that ass!” I screamed in my head. I wanted to hit my wolf, wanted to scream at it and rip it apart until it moved faster but it was not working. My person form was hurt and surely not healing from all the energy I had used. I would be useless  with my person legs.

Shifting back was not an option.

A scream pulled from me as I went flying down with all four legs waving all through the air.

I had jumped off a cliff  without even knowing.

My scream got even louder.

Lord, please, please not like this.

Why! Why! Why!

My intestines went up my belly and I thought I would vomit them out. My body shifted mid air, already seeing myself die with the tears dropping but I refused to die crying, die scared and screaming like a little bitch.

The wind was as if cutting my body. I could feel it tear my wounds wide open, my body wet with my own blood and it hurt. My skin burned as if acid had been poured on it. It was the worst pain ever, I knew , I knew that pain very well. My back had been burned one afternoon and I never recovered.

This was it for me, my life ending just like that. I hoped I could come back as a ghost, I hoped I could haunt them all after. I hoped I could tear them apart from hell where I was going.

The anger spread in me and it was fine.

I could die, fuck it, take my life, I was good.

My back hit first, biting my lower lip with the impact not felt at first but a second was too long. I lay there, tall grass all around me with my eyes to the sky. It was dark and starless. It was as lifeless as I felt, the tears pouring from the sides on my eyes. I could not move, could not feel the pain with everything numb. I felt a warm liquid from my leg, down to my feet then the pain came hard like a wrecking ball, hitting me like a hurricane and I went pale instantly.

My arms came around my belly, my body turning to the side where I spilled nothing but saliva, gagging over and over again as the pain exploded from every part of my body.

Not even death wanted me.

My fists tightened to let go, shaking so bad with my ears ringing.

I did not move, knowing my leg was broken, the pain more than I could ever describe as the sob came through.

I let it out, crying out with my hand to my mouth, muffling it.

I screamed over and over, screaming into my hand.

My heart was not coping, it beating slowly but surely and my wolf deep inside me, retreating and hiding away. She had done all she could and there was nothing besides that. I was grateful even for that, just praying and wishing for death to claim me so I could wonder away.

I no longer wanted to be there, no longer wanted that life. If only the heavens could take me so I could float away like a bird to the sky with no bounds holding me down, no pain and arrows pointed at me.

My body staggered back, my eyes to the sky and focusing on it to drown all the pain away, drown all the ringing away. My heart beat lazily and I let it. I calmed down and let it slow down with me wanting it to stop with nothing but calmness falling over as nature hid me from the vultures that wanted to feast on me and leave me less than worthy even for a burial.

I dreamt of the wind carrying my light soul, watching the world from the sky to join the stars and finally shine on the wicked and let them know I was watching, soon to come for my revenge.

My fists let go, my head falling to the side as I drifted away with a smile on my face.