Selena's pov.

"Let's do it again..."

Perhaps... Maybe I've bitten more than I can chew. 

"Give me a moment...I need to catch my breath,"

I had heard rumors that Alpha mate hits different from other males, I had assumed that there was some light exaggeration to foster their egos 

I don't know if other Alphas live up to that hype But the one that has been pummeling into me like a man possessed for hours leading into the morning exceeded it. 

He had ravished me, for someone that was so hesitant when he got into it there was no stopping him, granted there was no moment I wanted to stop him.

There was no doubt that our first meeting had sparked an intense heat and we were indulging in it.

His hands found my left boob, casually twirling the nub in a way that siezed my breath.

I gasped then in a bout of revenge turned around and grabbed his tool that had been tormenting me for hours. His back arched like it was the first time I touched him. 

In moments he was back inside me, imprinting my insides until it would only match his member.

"Ah...ah!"

I hate the sounds coming out of my mouth so much, hate how none of it is exaggeration or pretences, that he was capable of making me feel this way.

This man who was an enemy...

"But he is trying to right everything.. "Razor told me, it was nice to hear her again after so long, even as she spouted nonsense.

"That's what he says there's no reason why I should believe him,"

" And there is no reason for him to lie to you either."

I didn't want to think about it So I just rode myself to another climax that was even more amazing than the last.

••••••

"He's really something else..." I say to Razor as I swept up another plum of dust into the air. "To think he brought me to his pack only to assign me to the annex!"

I tossed the broom to the side and collapsed into a waiting sofa. 

"Now I spend my days cleaning and dusting, wasting away when I could helping him uplift the North, he's unreasonable isn't he?"

"We have to be patient, I'm sure he misses us too," Razor said trying to be positive. 

I scoffed throwing one leg over the other. 

"I don't miss him,"

Razor paused in shock. 

"Yes you do, all you do is think about him and get angry that he's not around..."

"That's because..." I said gesturing vaguely with my hands, "...I need him to restore the south and get revenge... there's no other sappy reason as to why I want to be close to him,"

Razor got quiet for a long time. 

" Selena, Even though I have not been able to speak to you I have always been within you, I've felt everything that you've had to go through... I...I...I'm sorry I wasn't able to protect you...."

I softened instantly. 

"Razor where is this coming from all of a sudden?"

"It's just that...you sound so different from the Selena I know..."

And there was no lie there, "I'm sorry, Razor, the naive little girl that had a heart too big for her chest couldn't have survived the world I know now."

"I know...but I still wished you could open your heart,"

I didn't refuse or accept Razors request just quietly put her to sleep in my subconscious. 

There could be many things between me and Ian Silvermoon.

Blind f**king? Sure

But love wasn't in the cards for us, there was too much blood, malice and grief for love to build a foundation.

If there wasn't...then maybe...

No, no... don't think of the impossible.

I looked around at the half clean living room, a twisted Kind of spite building up within me. Two long weeks had been wasted on this place, not like I was being overworked infact I did so little work compared to before that I was practically on an unofficial vacation!

In all the years I had worked as a slave I had never known rest, I worked until near collapse that was the closest thing I had to rest.

One would think that would make me quietly accept what I'd been given and life the rest of my days more or less loitering here in Silvermoon's packhouse annex.

Perhaps I might have in the past.

Not until I tasted power again.

Ian had commanded an entire hall filled with the most elite of Northern elite and nobody had dared to muffle a word of resistance to him.

He has controlled the room without even needing to exhert his Alpha aura and I wanted exactly that.

The kind of power than carried a room without trying.

Because in the end He could change his mind about whatever reason was making him To be concerned about the southern packs, What if one day he wakes up and decides that we are not worth the risk or the trouble?

I can't just lay around with my hands crossed and legs folded hoping that he never changes his mind, That was too much of a risk and I would hate myself forever if I came so close to attaining a power that could finally free my people only to just give up at a little pushback.

Fine, perhaps he's only interested in my body right now, that's not too bad.

I'll make him fall for me, helplessly too.

Once I have him wrapped around my finger the North will follow.

But I couldn't casually enter The main building Where he resided I would need an excuse

I looked around and my eyes caught an expensive looking vase, one that looked so lovely that it would be a shame if someone broke it and had to report straight to the Alpha of the damage.

My feet carried me over to the vase my legs already feeling coincidentally shaky, it looks like I'll be seeing my mate in a moment.