Mag-log inCASSAINThree days feels like three years.I don’t sleep the first night.The second night is worse.By the third, I’m functioning on rage and routine, but practice and our game day helps.The stadium is packed. Students chant my name like I’m something untouchable.Lucian claps my shoulder before kickoff. “Keep your head in the game.”“I am focused.”He gives me a look that says no, you’re not.He’s right.Every hit I take, every hit I deliver, every sprint down the field is all displacement because she isn’t here.The whistle blows and I unleash.I hit harder than I should.I run like something’s chasing me.I score twice in the first half.By the second half, the other team avoids me.The crowd screams.My veins feel like live wires.Adrenaline hums under my skin like a second pulse.Final whistle.We win.The team piles onto me, shouting, laughing, slapping my helmet.I rip it off, breathing hard and I see her in the audience.Watching me.My chest stops.The world muffles.Ever
EVELESSA:"I'd come over as soon I can Aretha... take a chill pill, today's the third today. I'd go home tomorrow. "" You should hurry up, girl...Cassain is losing his shit." I hang up.I’m halfway down a deserted stretch of road lined with skeletal trees and cracked asphalt, and my wolf is restless beneath my skin.Something’s wrong, Aretha whispers inside me.“I know,” I murmur.The air smells strange soI let the rhythm of the steps I hear settle into my spine.The footsteps stop, and I turn slowly.Valeux.He stands in the middle of the road like he owns it.Dark coat flowing slightly in the wind.His eyes gleam with something sharp and bitter.“Going somewhere?” he asks lightly.I don’t answer right away.“What do you want, Valeux?”He tilts his head.“No greeting?”“We’re past pleasantries.”His lips curve faintly.“Yes. I suppose we are.”The air shifts.Aretha moves inside me, alert.His gaze drifts over me.“You look different,” he says softly.“I nearly drowned.”“I heard.”
CASSAIN I heard her father and I'm stunned “She almost drowned.”The sentence doesn’t sit well with me.Lucian repeats it like he’s reading weather updates not a news that has practically dishevelled my existence.“What do you mean almost drowned?” I ask, very quietly.We’re in my office now, it's exactly a fay after her father brings her back.The glass walls look out over the city but I don’t see the skyline anymore. I see water closing over her head and almost get a panic attack “She was thrown into a poisoned river by rogue assassins which triggered transformation for her into what I can't figure out till now. She was pulled out in time by her father”“In time,” I repeat.My hands curl on the desk.“In time?” I stand abruptly. The chair scrapes back violently. “Define that, Lucian.”“She survived.”“That’s not good enough.”He exhales slowly, the way he does when he’s deciding how much truth I can handle without destroying furniture.“She stopped breathing for several seconds.”
EVELESSA "Go again.."I'm back to school again and it's hell all over again because for some reason, Davina is on the war path.The bass drops and I let it take me. My hips roll slow, then sharp. My shoulders snap. My hair whips across my face and I don’t bother fixing it. I feel the wolf under my skin hum in approval. Dance is the only thing that makes my chaos align.“Again!” Coach yells.I sigh and we start all over again.I don’t see them at first.I’m in a spin when the air shifts.My skin prickles.I freeze mid-count.Everyone stumbles because I never freeze.“What is wrong with you?” Davina snaps behind me.I don’t answer because I see Seraphina.Standing at the entrance of the studio like she owns the building.She’s wearing a white tailored suit that looks like it was sewn by angels and tailored by sin. Her silver hair cascades over her shoulders like liquid light. She doesn’t smile.She surveys.Beside her stands the forbidden, my birth father looking ridiculously handsome.
EVELESSA "Go again.."I'm back to school again and it's hell all over again because for some reason, Davina is on the war path.The bass drops and I let it take me. My hips roll slow, then sharp. My shoulders snap. My hair whips across my face and I don’t bother fixing it. I feel the wolf under my skin hum in approval. Dance is the only thing that makes my chaos align.“Again!” Coach yells.I sigh and we start all over again.I don’t see them at first.I’m in a spin when the air shifts.My skin prickles.I freeze mid-count.Everyone stumbles because I never freeze.“What is wrong with you?” Davina snaps behind me.I don’t answer because I see Seraphina.Standing at the entrance of the studio like she owns the building.She’s wearing a white tailored suit that looks like it was sewn by angels and tailored by sin. Her silver hair cascades over her shoulders like liquid light. She doesn’t smile.She surveys.Beside her stands the forbidden, my birth father looking ridiculously handsome.
SERAPHINA "Hello love..."I knew he would find me eventually. I see him again, standing beside her bed as if time had folded in on itself, I felt the sky tremble inside my ribs.Michael.“You’re alive,” he said.Not a question but an accusation.My hand tightened around the crystal keys I'm holding. “I never died,” I answered evenly.He scoffed“You let me believe you were ash.”There it was.The wound I gave him.I looked at him fully then, and for one dangerous moment, the centuries dissolved.I saw the angel who once watched stars like they were fragile.I saw the male who pressed his forehead to mine and chose me over heaven, and I wanted to run into his arms.Instead, I straightened.“You were not supposed to survive,” I said quietly.“Survive?” he repeated. “They stripped me of light. They made me a beast. They threw me into the sea.”“I know.”His eyes darkened. “Then you know what your silence did to me. Now I find an adult with my blood humming in her veins and your essen







