I stared-and stared. Looked intently. Leona came back last night, Sam drove her home. I didn't expect her to since she said she wasn't coming home. I got a little more time to talk to her mom, her dad had went straight back to work after their little vacation with Marissa and Frank. She had been giving me a cold shoulder ever since she found out that I was sleeping with her angel. She saw me as a bad guy. I practically was. I explained to her about my past and right there after she understood how and why I felt a certain way about the topic HIV. She was so consoling as she apologized about how ill-formed she had acted towards me. She even suggested a book for me to read, she said something along the lines 'it will give you inner healing to forgive your father and accept the things you couldn't change.' I read it through out the night, I didn't have much to do. She was right, it was actually good. I felt a tad bit better and less angry. I still hated him but this book gave me a dif
Tall.Dark curly hair.Smartly trimmed stubble.Strong built.There was no denying that we were related. Absolutely no way! We both resembled our fathers more than our mothers. "Oh hi Luka!" Leona said but Luka immediately pulled her in for a hug, I felt jealous. I felt uncomfortable."Traffic was just so bad, hope you didn't wait long." She asked with concern, one thing I loved about Leona. She was such a giver, always caring about the next person instead of herself and her own needs. "No no no, I wait ten minutes only now." Luka said excitement clearly vivid in his voice. I was watching their exchange from afar. I leaned against the car with my arms crossed. I didn't want to seem excited. I just wanted to look like 'whatever, I don't care.' "You're so beautiful, I don't think my brother could get such beautiful girl." Luka teased and I held back a sneer. What was that supposed to mean? "Thank you so much Luka." "You're just so glowing almost like you carry-" Leona immediately
Why did it feel like my life was falling apart? Was it. Maybe this was the beginning of something good. Something great, something that will change my life forever. There were five things I had learnt during the past two and a half months with Eric or just from being with Eric. 1. Just because you love someone, it doesn't mean they're obligated to love you back. 2. You don't plan, never plan, live as the day goes by. You're in control but never fully in control of your fate. 3. Unplanned pregnancies are not always dreadful, if you have the right support system. 4. You can't and cannot choose who you want to fall in-love with. It's as if your heart has a mind of its own, you just follow the way as it leads. 5. Pushing someone away is harder than it seems. It's true what they say, if you love something set it free..After puking my guts out for the second time this morning , I looked at myself as I brushed my teeth on the mirror. This is really my life? This is really me. I'm going
"How was Eric as a child, Luka?" My mom asked. I finally raised my head from my phone under the table because this was interesting. We were having breakfast outside on the porch. In our backyard, our house was pretty huge, there were often rooms, we hardly even ever used. My mom decided to be spontaneous because Eric's brother was around. It's as if Eric didn't matter because he was already family but Luka mattered. The reason I was staring down at my phone was because of the stupid group chat Laura and Sam had created. To cheer me up and to just make me laugh, I stifled a laugh. Eric was staring beside me, he probably thought it was Nick and it would be best if he thought it was Nick honestly. I turned the light for my phone down down down so I could only read whatever that was on the screen and not anyone else. My parents both sat opposite Eric and I. Luka day on the left side, alone. "Eric very quiet child." Luka said with a chuckle. "I hide my report because always Eric passed ev
I looked at the fine looking man who slept beside me shirtless. Tracing a few of his tattoos on his chest. I could feel his heart steadily beating, steadily breathing. He had a tight grip on my waist. My naked skin against his, I had told him that I liked sleeping in my underwear because it was more comfortable. We came back home, Luka grinning from side to side.. he congratulated us. We passed by McDonald's, Eric gave into my cravings. I didn't think I would tell him but I did. I only realized I did when it was already done. He was acting so weirdly gently. He didn't want anyone passing by the sidewalk to hit me not even my shoulder. He wanted to ensure, I was comfortable in every given moment and here I was thinking he wouldn't want to be with me. When we came back home, I hid my ring. Intending to surprise everyone today. I felt so overjoyed just looking at it. Eric had done this for me? I had woken up early because my reality was finally better than my dreams. It looked super expe
"Argh, your father forgot to buy the milk and eggs again.. Rodney." My mom faked disappointment. My dad was a horrible actor, he almost burst out laughing before he replied. "Uh-uhm I got busy, sorry hun." My dad said taking a sip of his green tea that he drank religiously every morning and before going to bed. Eric wasn't even minding their conversation, he just wasn't present, mentally. "I would go but I might get lost." Luca acted well. "Right well, maybe Eric and I should just go." I said looking at Eric who was still on his phone. Doing God knows what. My man looked so cute in that black shirt and jeans. He just looked handsome and I couldn't help but adore him. Adore the fact that he was mine, my boyfriend or fiancé or whatever but I just loved him so much not even words could explain it and at this moment I was at my happiest. I could have been given the opportunity to ask for anything and this would be it, I wouldn't change it for anything. "Huh-uhm What?" Eric asked as if
"Happy birthday to you.""Happy birthday to you Eric." "Happy birthday to you." I suppose if I tear up right now, it would only make sense. I'm so detached from my emotions but I never had this. I've never had this people actually give a damn about me. Like I actually matter, I actually have some sort of family. I looked down, feeling really overwhelmed, was I lucky? or Leona was the lucky one? No I was definitely getting more from being with Leona.. she was just getting stress and worry from just being with me. More like heartbreak in the process. Moments like these when I look at her from a distance when she is smiling and totally distracted from the fact that I'm watching her.. I realize how lucky I am. I don't deserve this. I do kind of deserve this but she is just too good for me. It was just after sunset and most of the people had left and now it was just Luka, Leona's parents, Laura and Sam. "Make a wish.." Leona's mom broke me away from my thoughts. "Am I not too old for t
"Where are we going, it's almost four pm.." I curiously asked her but she only gave me a small smile. We had literally spent the whole day in bed, showered then went downstairs for breakfast then came back up and just lazed around watch this very hilarious Netflix show called 'Chewing Gum' some sort of British comedy. I wasn't one for Netflix, never had time for it well not even television to be honest but Leona made me watch all these things. This girl literally nosebleed every time she was aroused- I found that very unsettling but funny. Luca had been out with Leona's parents apparently they wanted to take him sightseeing saying Leona and I were not bad at accommodating visitors because when we were together, we literally forgot everyone else around us. It was true, we were always so occupied with each other even if it wasn't sexual. "Eric please just go put on some pants..!" She tried sounding serious but she ended up laughing because I couldn't keep a serious face either. "A sh