CHAPTER-6

I placed the shopping bag on the sofa nearby. I walked slowly towards our room and cautiously opened the room and peeked inside. What I saw there made the ground slip under my feet. My breathing stopped, I couldn't even move. The tears which were formed in my eyes before finally started streaming on my cheeks. I was standing there like a statue. It seemed as if my whole world was ruining in front of my eyes.

Why.....why.....what in the world..how could he do this?

There, my husband on the very same bed where we sleep daily was fucking her friend cum whore. With his sweaty back, like an animal pushing his manhood in and out of.......

Disgusting.....

I swallowed hard as too much pain squeezed in my heart watching them like this. Moreover, my cramping made it worse.

So this was his project which he intended to finish as soon as possible.

How long have they both been doing this? how many times?

I shuddered at the mere thought of being them together behind my back.

How could he do this to me? I've been loyal, caring and sweet to him all the time, even bearing all his wrongdoings and inconsiderate nature. always tried to see the good in him.

I never thought he would betray me like this one day, cheating on me with his best friend or I say personal whore, Sarika.

They were having sex in front of my eyes, panting hard and I was watching them like some live porn show with my frozen state, broken heart and crying red face. My heart wrenched badly. The whole room filled with their breathing, grunts and moans and their clothes with pillows were scattered at the corner of the bed.

I blinked my eyes trying to clear the waterfall which was flowing non-stop and put my hand on my mouth to control my sobbing.

Is this because I never let him consummate our marriage? If that is the case, I am immensely grateful that I did the right thing and never let him touch me with his dirty body and hands. It's been almost three months we are living together and he couldn't control.

I was on the verge of loving him, I already liked him. I do...I was going to give myself to him in a few days. I even started thinking about our kids. I even thought of the name of my baby girl. 'Rihana' but...

What should I do now? It's all shattered. My dreams, my wishes, all are crushed now. I can't stand him now, this is too much.

A little choke left from my mouth catching Sarika's attention as that 'man' was too much busy in fucking.

Saa opened her eyes which were closed due to heavenly pleasure which 'my husband' was giving her.

She was surprised at first and then smirked. A wave of victory passed through her eyes. I never felt more miserable than this. A marriage relationship is a sacred bond which is made by God. A husband and wife's relation is the most personal thing in this world. I agree, we were imperfect to each other, but it needed both sides to adjust equally.

"Ahh! Yesss....fast......baby....more.more...I need to cum...." she screamed in ecstasy while maintaining eye contact with me. Listening to her, He fastened his movements. I shook my head.

How cruel are they?

That's it......

After taking a deep breath, I burst opened the door which made them startled and stopped their fucking session. That bloody bitch rolled her eyes irritatingly, probably because of disturbance. Ranish turned and stilled, His face turned pale. I threw a pitiful smile in his way and he hastily stood out covering his manhood. What is the use now?

"Ma..mani..how..when..I." he stuttered and tried to say something reasonable but couldn't.

His face was full of worry, fear and utter guilt as he looked at me then at his whore.

Tskk......fake guilt. Bloody bastard, cheating pig.

"Yes! speak now. I want to hear. I want to hear about everything. How many times have you cheated behind my back after marriage? Huh...how cruel are you! You....how could you? Was I not enough for you...or you just wanted sex from me? Or tired of me waiting for long? you should have told me if you had a problem with being celibate even after marriage. Why did you do this? What I didn't do for you? I accepted you despite being addicted, alcoholic and befriending with girls. I had my doubts about you but never raised any issue regarding this because I wanted to trust you and in return wanted to win your trust back. Loyalty plays an important role to survive in marriage which you broke today." I said walking to him, feeling very dead.

"I...I know...I am sorry..baby... it's just..."

Before he could start his craps, I slapped him not only once but twice. I never raised my hand on anyone in my entire life but I didn't regret that time.

A little gasp heard. I turned to see that 'homewrecker' covered in sheets, watching at us with an opened mouth as I slapped her fuckboy.

I almost forgot about her.

What is her fault, if own coin is bad.

"Sorry? All you could say sorry? You know what! You don't deserve me. You exactly deserve her, both of you are perfect for each other. I didn't know you wanted a  trophy wife. I am done with you. You are a cheating bastard who doesn't deserve my kindness. You are worse than a manwhore." I said resentfully.

"I won't curse you because you will get it eventually by karma...you ruined my life, my parents sent me to you with so much hope. Not only me, but you also ruined them too. You insulted not only my dignity, my pride as your wife but also hurt my parents' emotions and feelings for which I will never forgive you Ranish Jaiswal. You will regret it. Mark my words.

kisi or ke saath aisa mat Karna. kyunki Maine to seh liya koi or seh ni payegi..."

(Don't do this to anyone else because I have tolerated it but no one else can.)

"And yes, yaad rakhna..." I walked close to him. "but milengi tumhe..but Mani nhi milegi." I said forcing every word confidently, looking straight into his eyes and went away from there, from them.

(Remember this, you will get many, but not Mani)

I walked out of His house crying, without even caring about anything.

What should I do now? I don't have any place to go...I don't even have any relatives here..how will I tell this all to my parents?

I sobbed hard. Again and again. people walking around were staring at me pitifully.

Yes, I was pathetic and naive.

After wandering on roads here and there, I decided to call only one person who could help me then. Ria, Sammie's girlfriend. I called her and told her all the happenings, she came for me along with sammie and took me with them into sammie's home. After that, he went to meet Ranish to talk about god knows what. I happened to know about their big argument including the facts which shook me.

Ranish married to me only because of his family as they wanted only Indian girl with good values for their only son but he has a girlfriend at that time and he never desired to marry with some simple and naive girl like me his words not mine..I was thankful that his parents were not involved in his barbaric act. He even told Sammie that he didn't mind getting me back as his wife.

So the marriage is playing for him. He wants to keep his girlfriend and me at the same time.

Disgusting.

I never thought he would stoop so low.

Lowlife!

Sammie is a good person, he became my brother as he also didn't have any sister. He and his family helped me so much in my grieving days and gave me a place to stay for days. With their support, I told my family the whole thing from start. And the last incident too. They were broken and devastated. They blamed themselves for this as they couldn't choose the right person for me but I was not their fault at all. It was meant to happen.

Even his parents apologised for his wrongdoings as they knew little about his habits that's why they wanted him to settle down so that he would become responsible.

And what about me?

There is a saying that parents suffer more than their child when he or she suffers. Their love is pure, they will love, support and care for your life without anything in return. Their love is selfless and pure in this world which can't be compared with anything.

They asked me to come back to India but I declined to say that I need some time and space for myself. Moreover, I knew, after some months, I would be married again to some stranger as a divorced girl is seen with accusing eyes in India, in our society especially. people will only get to say, they won't know about the reasons, hurt and sufferings of that girl. And most girls are held responsible for the divorce. My mother belongs to a Punjabi family and they are orthodox, village typo whose beliefs are to never let the girl out of your sight for long, let alone in another country.

The very people who used to praise my parents of our upbringing, they would see me with different eyes. My mother assured me saying that they will give me time to replenish myself. I know they only want my happiness, but this world is cruel, it can't let you live peacefully. All my relatives would pressurise them to marry me off to some good man again.

Once I asked my mum before marriage that why can't I live with them after marriage, because they don't have a son Then she said,

"Every daughter has to marry and leave the house because we won't live for a lifetime. After us, someone has to be there for you."

Look now, Where did my life bring me. I never thought this would happen in my life ever. I don't need anyone. my god is with me..maybe it was written in my karma. We can't do anything in this only can try to be a better person day by day and face the challenges in life.

She always used to say whenever we face any failure or sufferings, "have a good cry, wash out your heart, if you keep it inside it will tear you apart..."

That's what I will do. I will cry until I can't, will mourn with myself, then the next day I will stand up and continue my life as usual. Life must go on, don't look back, live your life happily. There will be some sorrow moments, it's up to us if we want to live them with a happy or cry face. Or is there another option?

"Stop thinking about yesterday, get ready for tomorrow."

I remembered the lines which I told my sister once.

Enough is enough.

Everything happens for a reason.

I don't need those pathetic people in my life. It's good that I got rid of em.

"Stay with the pain until it passes, and you will be calmer for the next one"...

Life is all about the ups and downs.

To discover and explore myself, to get the confidence I decided to stay here itself. I convinced my parents that I will be back but after some months I needed to find myself, me, which was long lost in finding other's happiness. I needed to be independent and to stop having hopes from others.

I don't need to prove anything to anyone, I am doing this for me.

Sammie handled everything for me. I owe him too much. He helped me to get a little apartment and job at a nearby cafe as I didn't want to be burdensome on him or anyone and I had some money in my account. He and Ria got my stuff from Ranish's home afterwards.

After that, I made a few friends at my workplace. Amy, Samuel, Serge and others. I used to be hesitant and shy with them at starting. They all knew about my past and consoled me.

Amy once told me,

"A person's true colours will always show within time. You may be fooled, for the moment but be patient and see what happens."

She was right, I should focus on my future and let's see what will happen.

Sammie also filed the divorce suit in India through USA court, which usually takes three to six months if filed by mutual consent. I had to appear once in the court at that time. I hope within two months I will get my divorce hereby.

Flashbacks ended:

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A phone call broke my chain of thoughts from my past events, that's when I realised a single tear was rolling on my cheek. I cleared my throat and  picked up the call,

"Yeah, I'm coming to Ma....within five minutes. See you there." I told her. Meanwhile, my stop came and I got off the bus to my destination which became my solace after work. "Lil Angels home"(orphanage).

I looked ahead and went inside the main gate. I smiled seeing the sight before me.

I was about to walk when a very familiar and sweet voice came from behind me,

"Mommy....."