3. Confusion

"So what is it that you wanted to talk"? Alex asked the elder who was sighing and playing with napkins on the table trying to form a single sentence that could clear all suspicions and doesn’t offend the younger.

"Actually… I... I want to ask something, but am not sure if it’s too personal to ask". Emerson stated in a confused tone. Looking at Alex, he felt Alex wanted him to continue. 

"See. We barely know each other. Apart from little hello hi we haven’t talked about anything. But there is a certain urge that I want to meet you again and again and talk to you. 

Even if you seem friendly I don’t know how to explain." Alex was confused too but he was still waiting for him to continue. And he was free anyway.

"How about we start from start"? Emerson suggested and Alex raised his eyebrow. 

"Okay I guess its better".

"Well. Hello. I am Emerson Donovan. A PHD in ROBOTOICS. And I have a little garage that I manage with my friends as the production unit. So far am good in earning and managing my financial life.

I have two brothers. Fletcher and Zee. Well Zee is like a kid to both of us but he is closer to Fletcher. As he spends most of the time with him. And they are engineer too. Fletcher is now working on his PHD related to some surgical instruments and automobiles. And Zee. He is doing his bachelor's degree.

So far we all are single. No commitments. That’s all about me". Emerson stated and sipped his juice as Alex was looking at him with calculated expressions.

"There is nothing much about me. I am the only kid to my parents. Medical is my passion and I love kids. So I chose to become a Child Specialist. 

Jess, my cousin, is the only person I am close to. And as I told you I admire him. But these days he is getting busy. With his hospital and his husband to be". Alex was casually telling him, but Emery choked on his drink.

"Hus... husband"? He repeated and Alex frowned.

"Why? Sounds weird"? He was utterly offended though Emery didn’t mean it.

"Oh no. No, I am sorry Alex". He quickly held his hand assuring him that he didn’t mean to offend him. 

"Jess is married"? He questioned again and this time Alex didn’t miss the joy sparkling in his eyes.

"Uhmm. Yes he is. But why is it related to us"? He couldn’t grip on where it is going.

"That means, you are not with Jess"? Another question with beaming eyes and Alex was flustered. 

"What. Oh. Oh no. He is my cousin, as in brother. But…" 

"Oh my God Alex. Thank you". Emery couldn’t hold his excitement anymore. 

He pulled Alex into a bone crushing hug shaking him like a kid. 

"Emery… I can’t breathe". Alex managed to speak a word when he felt breathless. Not to mention the hug was mind blowing but he still needed answers. 

"I am sorry. I am so happy". Emerson was giggling like a little girl.

"I know you are confused. Okay. Let’s start. That day when I saw you in the hospital. I was quite attracted to you. Like I said I have never been into anyone, so I didn’t know how to ask you. I wanted to befriend with you, and I was planning to ask you but the way you were telling me about Jess, it made me uncomfortable in ways I cannot explain.

I thought maybe you are together. So I was trying to hold on any feeling I had in my heart for you, and to avoid you.

That day in the cafe. It was same. I heard you talking to Jess. And the fond in your voice couldn’t be ignored. So once again I thought....

And then today. I was on a verge of breakdown. I couldn’t talk to anyone. About my feelings. But then I decided no matter what. I will talk to you all about it. Either for a beginning or a closure.

So here I am". Emerson finished and saw Alex. He was expressionless. 

"Oh God. Does he hate me now"? Emerson was panicking inside. Alex was just staring at him. 

*******

"It’s good to clear the doubts, Emerson. But what made you think that I am available even if it’s not Jess". Alex actually threw a bomb at him. 

Now it was Emery's turn to be dumbfounded. 

"What do you mean, Alex"? He wanted to ask but Alex raised his hand. 

"You told me you are single, but what made you assume that I am single too"? Alex said crossing his arms on his chest. He could clearly see the hurt in Emerson's eyes. 

"So… You are in a relationship". Emerson asked cautiously. 

"Actually not exactly in a relationship. But I am trying to know that person". Alex remarked.

"Trying to know"? 

"You see Emery. I have met a person. And somehow I like him. I want to be with him. At least friends for now to date him, to know him more before stepping into a new relation. 

You see am still a student, I am just afraid if that person will pressurize me to be in a relationship to bind me. I mean I am okay and would be happy to spend my life with him, but after I achieve my goals.

I want to become a doctor and join a hospital professionally. And it will need time. At least four five years. The person I am talking about is almost settled in his life. 

He has a home, his work, his well-maintained status. And I want to have at least one of those under my name before he asks me to be with him. 

But I am afraid if he could wait for me that long. So I am just trying to know if the person is really worth to wait for". Alex relayed all his doubts and plans..

Emerson was feeling like his heart was sinking down a bit more. Alex was standing too far from him. He couldn’t even hold him. This thought alone was enough to crash him into million pieces.

"Well. Uhmm. You have good plans and I pray whoever the person is, wait for you and support you to fulfill your dreams. You are too worthy to be wait for, Alex. But I hope we can be good friends at least. I won’t meddle in your personal life. Just when I feel low, can I contact you to get my energy back looking at your smile?" Emerson wanted to leave. 

It was getting hard for him to restrain himself from crying. 

This was exactly why he was afraid of LOVE. The heartache.

"Sure. Here I will give you my LINE ID". He asked for his mobile and Emerson didn’t spare a second to think.

Alex simply saved his number in Emery's mobile and dialed to save in his mobile.

"Here. We have the numbers. We can talk whenever we want. And Emery one last thing". Alex stood up to bend near his ear. 

"You said I am worthy enough to be waited, so will you wait for me"? He whispered and Emerson turned to him so fast that he stumbled due to the whiplash.

"Alex"???? He was still unsure. 

"Umm Emerson Donovan... Will you wait for me? Will you support me to fulfill my dreams? Will you be there at the end of the day to be my Home"? He was confessing shyly. 

"Oh my God Alex... I can’t tell how happy I am. Of course I will be with you at every step. I won’t pressurize you. I won’t burden you. I will help you take every step. Just be there for me. Let me be with you. Please". Tae was smiling with teary eyes. 

"Emerson. I like you. You are my first. I want us to be the last". Alex held his hands and Emerson hug him tightly. 

"I love you Alex. And you are my first too. I will keep you forever". He promised him.

His heart was swelling for all the love he had for Alex. And he promised he would never hurt him.

*******

Alex had introduced him to his parents. Though they had doubts but they didn’t object in their affair. They gave them margin and space to sort the feelings they have for each other. 

And then Emerson took him to meet his brothers.

They were here, together for two years. Despite the fact that they had to get married prior to Alex's plan, but Alex was happy indeed. He couldn’t stay away from Emerson too. And Emerson always supported him. 

His hectic routines, his long shifts. He took care of everything and never complained about anything. 

Alex was surely more close to Zee. As Fletcher had left for his studies. Listening to music, playing games. Talking about their childhood. Zee never failed to amuse him. 

And he noticed that he loved Fletcher a lot. But it’s common to be attached with your brothers. Right.

******

/*Present */

"It’s almost dawn, Alex. You didn’t sleep a blink baby". Emerson just noticed the night turning into faint shades of day.

"I slept for three hours before coming down. So it’s okay". He stretched his muscles to take a bath. He had to report at 8 in the hospital. And he had two surgeries in a short span of time. 

"When will you be free"? Emerson back hugged him as he was brushing his teeth looking at the beautiful man in his arms through the mirror.

"Around six, Emery. Will you come to pick me"? He asked and Emerson nodded.

"I will be free in the evening. Let’s go on a date". He proposed and Alex turned to him.

"A date"! He was excited.

"Yes. A date. You, me, movie, dinner. What say"? He wrapped his arms around his waist pulling him closer 

"Sounds good Hubby. How about I take a bath now. And you wake up your brothers. We will have breakfast. Okay"? He leaned in to softly kiss Emery's lips. But he was trapped.

Emerson made sure to hold him in his place to deepen the kiss. A soft moan escaped Alex's plump lips when Emerson moved to mark his golden neck.

"Emery… Sss… stop… Emery. I am gonna be. Get laaa.... latee". Alex was asking him to stop but his body was reacting on its own.

He looped his arms around Emery's shoulders and gasped a bit when emery lifted him to place him on the counter.

"You are so addicting, Alex". He said in a lustful voice, peeking up to see Alex, all dazed in pleasure. He quickly opened his shirt and his eyes were stuck at two little buds. 

Putting just a little pressure on his neck, his thumb was caressing his lower lip. Grabbing him close by his waist, standing in between his legs. Emery was marking the skin presented before his eyes. 

His neck, collarbone. Those nipples. His strong muscles below his chest. He was Emerson's treat to feast on.

Alex pulled him again for a kiss, inviting for a tongue battle. And purposely let him dominate. He always loved to lose in front of Emerson. 

Emerson slipped his hand between his legs to hold the hardening dick restrained in the soft fabrics of the trouser.

******

"God baby. You like to tease me huh"? Emerson whispered against his lips and Alex smirked. He wasn’t wearing boxers or underwear in the trousers. And it was a major turn on for Emerson.

"Ready for some morning fun baby"? He lifted Alex a bit slipping his trousers and stripping naked himself. 

He picked up Alex bridal style and slipped in the bath tub filled with warm water. 

The bath bomb was relaxing to make them excited for the Bath. 

Pulling Alex in his open legs, he was slowly scrubbing his body with the loofah. Alex closed his eyes leaning his head on his shoulders feeling the soft fingers moving on his body. 

He gasped when he felt a finger teasing his rim. He moaned giving Emerson the consent to proceed and so he did. Slightly moving his finger inside out, he was nipping at his shoulder. Making sure to mark him. 

It added to two fingers while his hand was busy entertaining a painfully hard cock... 

"Emery... More". Alex requested in a husky voice and Emerson fastened his pace. Both hands. His fingers had loosened up the hole to his satisfaction. 

Alex whined as Emerson freed both of his hands just to lift him and guide to slide down on his dick. 

"Gaaaaah. Why I always forget you are so big". Alex murmured gritting his teeth. He was suppressing his loud voices. 

"Scream for me baby. I want to hear you". Emerson turned his head to capture already glistering lips and bite them a bit. And this time Alex couldn’t hold his loud moan. 

The sudden impact of Emerson lifting him fully to his mushroom head and smacking him back down. 

"Damn Emery".

"That’s my boy... Go on. I want to hear more". He was guiding Alex to ride him fully while meeting him midair. 

He held Alex's ignored cock again and pumped him gradually meeting his thrusts.

"Emery. I am cuming". Alex screamed shedding his entire load in Emerson's hands followed by Emerson who emptied himself in his warm cavity.

"Wow". Alex was breathing heavy leaning in his chest feeling Emerson getting limp into him before popping out. 

"Had fun"? Emerson softly kissed his temples and Alex smacked his chest. 

"You are a bad husband". He pulled out of the tub and stood under the shower to get a quick bath and dashed out to dress up. 

Thanks to his husband. He was late to make breakfast.

*****

"Morning Fletch, morning Zee". He was running downstairs in a hurry but his feet slowed down as he saw Fletcher arranging the table. It was all set with the delicious breakfast served.

"Fletch. Did you make it"? He was in awe.

"Yup Alex. Fletch is a great cook". Zee commented finishing the apple as Emerson approached them too.

"Wow Fletch. Yummy. It’s too good". Alex was commenting on the food stuffing his mouth and everyone on the table was laughing at the squishy baby. 

"Oh my god. I am so full. And I have a surgery to perform. How will i work"? Alex whined licking his fingers to clean the crumbles stuck on his fingers.

"Alex, hold on. I will cook more food for you. Take it easy". Fletcher was laughing looking at his greedy face.

"Do you promise, Fletch"? He held his pinky finger and Fletcher crossed it. 

"Then... I am leaving. Bye all". He waved everyone on table pressing a soft kiss to Emerson. 

"Ehemm... Alex… Take care of your collar". Zee casually commented.

"Why Zee? Not ironed properly"? He was worried about the crease.

"No... It’s just that something should be kept hidden. Right Fletch". He said sipping his juice and this time Alex glared at Emerson who was running outside for his life.

Followed by a loud laughter from Fletch and Zee.

****

Tabby