LOGINOLIVIA
Being a Red Sparrow did come with many perks. You were treated as royalty. Black, sleek cars drove up the border of our pack. Gathering outside the shriveled-down church, men dressed in all black stepped out, threw nasty glances around the state of our village, to which their leaders were responsible, before opening the doors. We stood in a crescent moon, dressed in glorious gowns, hand-woven gold stitching around the chest, where in the middle, a brooch held our capes together.
Masks on.
Hair done.
Heels high enough to accentuate our figures, but comfortable enough to dance in.
The girls all had their pick of what to wear. I went with an olive-colored fabric that the seamstress weaved in against the corset underneath. Laced sleeves that covered my arms, leaving only my collarbone and shoulders exposed.
”Olivia,” my mother spoke under her breath when she grabbed my hand just as I was about to follow the others.
A sea of emotions bathed the surface of her blue eyes.
”Don’t let them find out,” she whispered. Her lips trembled; her fingers folded around mine in a choking grip.
”I won’t,”
Regardless of what the night held, I knew for a fact that I was returning home to my mother. Not to mention that love was not something you built on a foundation of secrets. Something of which I had many. Though something told me that love was not what awaited me.
Getting in the car, buckling in, catching the gazes of the drivers as they entered behind the wheel, all that brought me a sense of calm, was that the choice was mine. I didn’t have to choose one of the men, nor did I have to go with the suitor who chose me.
We drove in silence, not allowed to talk until inside the ball. Something about our voices being preserved, but I think they just don’t want to give the illusion of mysticism away.
The closer we got, the more I rubbed my stomach. A nest of wasps buzzed around inside of me, biting off pieces of my flesh.
When the manor came into view, grand and worth more than most packs I knew combined, it made me sick. For a moment, it distracted me from the angst I felt about walking in; now I was just pissed. How were they living like royalty when so many of us were digging for scraps?
The gowns on our bodies, the shoes, the jewelry, had all been paid for by them, for this event alone. That was the money they had, able to splurge on strangers for a one-night extravaganza.
We were led out onto the pathway, organized in a line, before the house chief walked out in a common blue dress, a thin chain around her neck with a silver pendant, wearing a look that could scorn you if you looked at it for too long. With her hair in a tight updo, it was thick but impeccably in place.
”Welcome, girls. I hope you all are aware of what an honor it is to have been chosen for this decade’s Ruby Ball. In a moment, you will be led inside where the suitors have gathered, prepared to shower you in gifts, glamour, and compliments.” Her short heels clicked as she walked down the stairs. ”But make no mistake,” she said, eyeing each of us girls while another set of cars drove up with girls from other packs. Five girls from each pack, that was the rule. ”It is not the gifts you will be marrying, nor the sweet words they tell. It’s the character, the heart, the soul, which will be with you on your hardest days to come. On the best as well. Make sure that it is the man you admire, not the words.”
Everyone was staring at the door, but when the house chief walked down the line, a hand in the air to stop the chauffeurs from opening the doors to the other girls, I looked up.
Our eyes locked. A shiver sparked a cramp in my side, but I refused to look away. She said that we had a say, that we should fall for the person, not the words. It was up to us.
”Thank you,” I mimed. With the slightest bow of her head, she continued down the line, stopping by the fifth girl before leading us inside.
The foyer was grim; it didn’t look like an ounce of warmth had gone into the design of this place. We were led to a pair of double doors, standing idly by as they opened, revealing the lavish gold and eggshell-white on the other side. As though someone had propped the sun into a room, the light burned my eyes for a moment until I could see clearly.
Chatter ceased, and all eyes turned to us. One by one, the males approached with a drink in hand and a smile perfectly practiced on their faces. This was it. The energy shifted remarkably. For a brief moment in this life, we held the power. Not the Lockhearts, not the wealthy or powerful, but us.
Five more girls from another pack walked in. Heels clicked- the only sound louder than the beating of my heart. Another five entered. All of us were silent. Abhorrently aware of the rules: ”You do not speak, not at first. Make eye contact, remain stoic. Show nothing. You are the price, let the mystery unfold in its truest form throughout the night.”
When the doors closed, we were twenty-five girls. Honored guests were gazing in awe, some fanning their flustered faces, others glancing at the males with a hint of lust.
”Ladies and gentlemen, leaders of our lands and honored guests, please remember that the first hour is crucial. Mingle, speak to the one that catches your eye, but remember, at midnight, once you decide on the woman you want to wed, the final choice will be hers.” I looked at the woman talking, recognizing the devil’s glint in Lady Lockheart’s eyes straight away.
Pretending to look over the heads of the males, I was searching for his face. When I didn’t spot him, my shoulders fell, my fingers unclenched, and I let out a breath.
OLIVIALocking the door was a real dick move, I thought while I pressed my foot against the wall beside it, cupping the handle with both hands and pulling with my entire weight.“Come on!” I bit down, pulled harder, and felt something akin to a creak before I landed on my ass. That door was deadbolted. There’s no way I couldn’t open a goddamn door unless it was some fortified prison cell meant to keep people from entering. Or exiting…shit.The sun had set, Nathaniel hadn’t returned, and I hadn’t eaten in hours, so I was grumpy as all hell. On the golden hook in the corner hung my dress. Throughout my time in solitude, I occasionally slipped a peek every now and then. It was just as beautiful no matter how many times I saw it.Maybe just one more peek. I tiptoed across the floor like it was a secret what hid in there. Reaching for the zipper, already smiling, someone knocked on the door and nearly gave me a heart attack. My back hit the bedpost when, like a startled cat, I jumped acros
NATHANIELI wanted to press Olivia on what plans Isla had for her, but there wasn’t time when we arrived back home. After delivering both the dress and my wife to our room, I reluctantly locked the door on my way out. Couldn’t have her wandering around the halls or getting into more trouble than she already was. All my family needed was one more indication that she was a descendant of the Grace line to commence the trials. A series of events meant to cause excruciating pain, test a person’s sanity in ways that, if you weren’t a Grace, you wouldn’t survive. I’ll be damned if anything happened to her. Hell, I’d rather do the fucking trials myself to spare her.All I could do was hope that she didn’t put her trust in Isla. I'd known the girl my whole life; she’s loyal to a fault and fiercely protective —she’s also a sly snake with poison in her fangs, which she’s not opposed to using on those she doesn’t like. If, by some fucked up chance of fate, Olivia chose to trust her, it’d be my fa
OLIVIAEver since we exited the car, I’d felt like a rag doll being pulled in every which way. Down the packed streets on the busiest side of town, in and out of boutiques with the gaudiest dresses I’d seen in my twenty-two years of life. In a few of them, Nathaniel asked the store clerks if they had anything green, to which they showed him every piece they had with flecks of green in them, clearly desperate to sell him something.One of the girls beamed in the last place we visited. She asked if it was for the Emerald Gala, to which she received a growl that had her scurrying out the back to grab one of everything they had that could suit the occasion. Emerald Gala- never heard of it, but something told me that it wasn’t a quiet evening without the Lockhearts…“Here, put it on.” We were in our fifth boutique of the day, and the poor girl who was helping us out was sweating from her head. A pile of dresses was folded over her arms, all of which Nathaniel had dismissed. All but one. Th
OLIVIAOkay, that was moronic. We shouldn’t have done what we did last night, and I was paying the price today, when walking to the bathroom proved rougher than a week’s worth of combat training.It was just something in how he positioned himself in front of me last night. Like a wall prepared to capture the flying arrows and vicious howls. Unbothered. Stable. Unyielding.Nathaniel was gone when I woke up. Off to kill someone, no doubt, probably alongside that equally sadistic brother of his. This family had always been known as the devil’s henchmen, reaping souls like they were flowers in a garden.Instead of leaving the room to face his family of demons, I opted to stay in bed for a few more hours.It kept slipping my mind that I was now officially and undeniably married to him. Which, in a way, couldn’t have worked out better.Though what we did last night could never happen again, I couldn’t risk things getting more complicated than they already were.The Lockhearts were already o
NATHANIELI didn’t leave the room that night, nor did the subject of our earlier conversation arise. No clarity was offered from either side; we simply sat in silence, in fear of what the other would say.Fear, what a fucking joke.Since when was I afraid?That answer I had: since I met her. On her eighteenth birthday, fucking her raw in my room at the Inn. Watching the fire burn in her eyes when my identity was found out.Never in my life had I found a fire to match my own, a deep seated fucked up psyche that would overlook logic in the face of what was right. Now we had different opinions there, on what was right, brought up on different ideologies. Nevertheless, we were the same, equally unafraid, equally defiant, and equally fucked up in the head.Sun shone in through the parted curtains. I hadn’t slept a wink last night, shifting my head only to watch her eyes flutter behind their lids when she dreamt. Now she’s in the bathroom, the shower’s running, and I was replaying the same
NATHANIELThe guards stood stoically, awaiting my wife to accompany them. Fuck that. Each time Olivia tried to move, I choked the blood flow in her hand. No more gentle warnings; if she didn’t fucking stop moving soon, I’d throw her in the closet and lock the doors. Maybe I’d join her in there, ignoring the world around us while I forced my parents to listen to her moans. They’re fucking delicious; they were the sound I fell asleep to each night.Bickering and nagging from all directions— Olivia tugging my arm like it was a fucking chew toy— the walls were drawing in, and a pounding headache began in the back before it traveled down my neck.”Enough!” Trinkets on the shelves trembled in their spots when I raised my voice. Luckily, it did what it was supposed to; it got my family to shut up. ”What is this about? Tell us here because she’s not going anywhere with you.” Despite the fierce glare from the girl standing behind me, I could feel her erratic pulse under the grip on her wrist.
OLIVIAThe girls straightened up, some more than others. My girls looked at each other, a deep-seated disgust piercing each glare.One step was all it took for my heart to stop.Don’t come here, go to the siren…please. A pair of blue eyes that would’ve pulled any man under the surface of the water
OLIVIAA loud gasp echoed over my shoulder. Widened eyes stared at me when I turned, and the older gentleman was looking around as though to catch someone he could snitch to as he clutched his damn pearls. What a child.Nathaniel shot his hand out, resting it on the man’s chest.”Just a joke,” he t
OLIVIABy the time a fifth man came up to me, my cheeks were hurting, my stomach was fluttering, full of butterflies that never died. It seemed like the night would never end, and to be honest, I hoped that it wouldn’t.For the first time in my life, I wasn’t anxious or stressed. The talk was stimu
4 Years Later.OLIVIAWhen nightfall came, everyone gathered at the waterfall on the edge of the pack. It was said that this arcane lake hosted powers bestowed upon us by the moon goddess. Every ten years, under the blood moon, women in our pack would gather at the lake as an initiation, welcoming







