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Teach me to sin
Teach me to sin
Author: Still Iv

One: Alex’s POV ( Why is he doing this?)

Author: Still Iv
last update Last Updated: 2025-03-27 00:08:02

“I don’t get it,” I tossed my phone on my bed and groaned in frustration, “He isn’t replying my texts and he’s not answering the phone either.”

Nico, my college roommate and one of my best friends sighed as he spun himself around on the spinning chair placed next to the study desk.

“Dude, it’s obvious that he’s blowing you off and probably blowing on some other guy while he’s at it”

I tossed a pillow at him and he laughed as it made contact with his face.

“Don’t say that” I scolded, “Julius likes me way too much to do any of that”

Nico shook his head and hugged the pillow.

“You know you can do way better than him, right?”

Better than Julius?

He was the golden boy of Heldon college and indisputably one of the wealthiest and most attractive guy on campus.

Not to mention how he touched me the way nobody else could. It was so easy for him to see through me and turn me on.

So who exactly is supposed to be better than him? I could hardly think of any other person.

Plus, I had feelings for him.

“I don’t know why you keep acting like he’s the spawn of the devil. Julius is a good guy”

I defended my boyfriend.

“I don’t know many good guys who act the way he does. Has he decided to make your relationship official and open yet?”

“Not yet, but he….”

“And he’s blowing you off on top of all of it”

“These things take time, Nico. It’s not exactly easy to come out of the closet. Plus, his folks are super strict and religious”

“I bet they are” Nico responded sarcastically.

“They actually are. He just doesn’t want to get in trouble with them because of me. He’s really a good guy if you take the time to know him”

“I know Julius and he’s an arrogant prick,” he tossed the pillow at me and i caught it, “You, on the other hand need to get to meet new people. Who knows, you could meet a cute guy that doesn’t hide you”

“Julius isn’t hiding me”

“I bet you a thousand dollars that he is”

I scoffed at him and rolled my eyes.

“Get off my dick, Nico. You’re not exactly the best at this love thing seeing as you and Rita still don’t know what you are”

“Rita and I are a completely separate situation and you know that”

I folded my arms.

“Yeah right. You’ve been in love with her for years and all you two do is make out. Hello, give it a tag already”

“I want to. She’s the one whose scared of commitment. Her sister’s divorce did a number on her”

“Was it that bad?”

“Bad enough for her to never trust a word that comes out of a man’s mouth”

I sighed and lay back on one of the two large beds that was provided for Nico and I in our standardized dorm room.

Rita was a wonderful person and an even better friend. It sucked that she was not willing to take a shot at love especially with Nico. He may be a tad annoying but he was a great guy with even better intentions.

“So what really happened?” I asked.

He shrugged. “Don’t know, man. Not my story to tell”

I understood.

“Hey, maybe I should stop by his dorm and see what he’s up to” I blurted out.

“Stop by where?” He asked like he didn’t already know.

“Julius’ private dorm” I replied

Nico scoffed and shook his head.

“And the asshole even has a private dorm” he murmured.

“Don’t be jealous, Nico. Your family is pretty rich as well”

He shook his head. “It’s not about that. I told you that he was an arrogant prick.”

It was my turn to roll my eyes. Nico always had something negative to say about Julius. He was usually nice to other people but it was a load of criticism and accusations when it came to Julius.

“Do you think you can take me there?” I asked and Nico froze and stared at me.

“What?”

“I… well, look, Nico I don’t want to go alone”

“You’re about to make me very uncomfortable, Alex”

“I know and I’m so sorry but…”

“You do know that I really don’t like this guy right?”

I hated that i was dragging him into this but i was losing my mind here. I needed to know if my boyfriend is trying to silently dump me..

“I just want to find out what’s wrong with us and why he’s been avoiding me”

Nico rose to his feet, his curly hair bounced on his shoulders.

“Or I could tell you what is really going on and we could save us so much time”

I got up and picked up my jacket and wallet.

“It’s fine,” I said as I put on the jacket, “I’ll see you very soon”

Nico called out for me as i was headed for the door.

“Dude, are you serious? You really could be chilling and watching demon slayer right now”

I turned to face him; there wasn’t a smile on my face.

“Will you help me or not?”

Nico studied me for a moment and slumped his shoulders in defeat.

“Whatever, dude. Let me grab my keys”

My face lit up as I watched him grab his car keys and throw on a hoodie to ward off the cold outside.

“Thank you, thank you, thank you”

I was glad that I didn’t have to go alone just in case my intuition was right and Julius was over what we had. I really did hope that I was wrong though.

Besides, I don’t think I’m ready to live a life without him in it.

“Yeah, yeah, yeah. I’m not walking you into his so called private dorm just so you know”

He dragged the words private dorm.

“It’s fine. Can we please leave already?”

“Yeah, come on”

I grabbed Nico’s hand and pulled him out of the dorm room and he followed with very little resistance.

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