로그인Chapter One Hundred-two [The initial reaction]She was still able to attend the spiritual retreat for free in the mountain region. Another man had shown interest in her and was willing to marry her, but she avoided him until she returned to the lowlands.She stopped interacting with everyone in the group and hid inside the convent. Her parents recently learnt that she is no longer employed as a catechist due to her need to remain secure within the convent. Ericka is content to compose a lengthy letter and deliver it to her cherished parents.Her parents responded to her letter brought by her older brother Willie, who frequently travelled to the countryside, by saying, "We are no longer worrying of your safety and security because we leave all to God, trusting you under His loving care, Ericka our beloved." She had assumed that they would be enraged, but when she went to see them, they all had happy faces.But it wasn't enough to convince her, and she continued. She even sent a messag
Chapter One Hundred One [ The temptation ]Ericka is experiencing internal conflicts as she attempts to discover her new personality. .”My previous college coursework seems insufficient to claim that I am a self-satisfied, fully developed, and mature person. All pertinent information was provided to me, but the fundamental principles of social, psychological, and spiritual development—all of which are essential in all fields of endeavor—were overlooked."Adding,"I find that I need additional experiences and training workshops to improve my dull personality after encountering rejection and carelessness in the social interaction and job application fields. However, given my family's high expectations of me, I lack the confidence to tell them the truth.”Ericka is going through an identity crisis and has found that the only way to fully develop her personality and interpersonal relationships with the world is to adopt a religious life. Ericka learnt to grant others’ rights and priorities
Chapter One Hundred [ The personality disorder]Ericka's delayed college graduation was the reason for the entire delay. Additionally, there has been a significant communication gap since their previous meeting before Ericka left for the countryside.This is another reason why Ericka is searching for the meaning of her emptiness and why she is motivated to go on a mission for the glory of Christ instead of pursuing her ambition as a teacher. Rather than assist him, she went to watch TV with her eldest sisters next door.The following day is fortunate because Ericka's older sister, who works as a secretary in a different city, paid her a visit at her home. They had a pleasant conversation that resulted in an invitation to accompany her. "I'm offering you a job in my office. However, you should be prepared to learn a lot of new things with humility. I asked you to help me find a client because I work for an insurance firm. Ericka, is that alright with you?"Since Ericka is unemployed,
Chapter Ninety-nine [ The horrific incident]Ericka keeps indulging her uncomfortable emotions and nagging thoughts. ,”Even though you knew he was Natalia's sole guy, the man who ignited your innocence and made you feel like an endless fire as he grew closer to you. In the middle of the paradise that our God has given you, you could be easily tempted by such storms.Ericka's conscience is eating away at her because she is surrounded by a lot of temptations and opinions that she has already buried in her stomach. The blow of the turbulent windstorms that strike the stainless steel protecting the passenger bus loaded in the enormous passenger ship across the ocean separating the regions of the island she hopes to give her paradise allows her to let them out. Ericka is currently trying to figure out why she continues to live in this small, meaningless world that she has thought of as her paradise since she was a young child.While her emotions are in turmoil due to the hardships, sufferi
Chapter Ninety-eight [ The heart of a mother]Ericka is currently travelling while enetrtaining to her nagging thoughts dictates by her deceiving emotions."But it's nonsense to entertain this kind of emotion which is deceiving as everybody says, because it will only waste my thinking and preoccupy my attention and deceive me as what I read from the Bible.” She said adding, "Of course ,I am still human who feels hurt. I know it will shape my character and tailored my personality."Ericka is still whispering to let out her heavy emotions and overloaded mind after graduation and she return home to countryside to help her parents in managing the farm.After graduating from that awful university, she makes every effort to obtain her university degrees and pays the outstanding balance before leaving to start over.However, Ericka has already made up her mind to go through on her intentions to join the missionary group in order to receive training both here and overseas. She goes to her alw
Chapter Ninety-seven [ The clash]While her male cousin opens the television and watches a show with John, who has just arrived from his factory job, Ericka yells as she sees her older brother Randy quickly stop it and just lay down on the bed to rest because he is just coming from looking for a part-time job and is so exhausted."My dear brothers and cousins, you smell drunk with alcohol and smoke with cigarettes. You should rest first."Ericka acts like a little monster because she feels trapped in a small realm and is unable to move freely. She believes her two brothers and cousins were secretly telling her older sisters against her, and they intend to cease funding her master's degree, so she doesn't feel bad about her own rude behavior just yet.Rather, Ericka changed into a new outfit and returned to church, but it remains locked. She therefore visited the missionary sisters in the vicinity of the university. Until she encounters the multinational congregation that adores her, s







