***Amira's POV
Flowers. Millions and millions of flowers. It's the first thing I see when I sit up. I'm dead. The asshole actually killed me. Of course he did. Why wouldn't he kill the only person who holds a legitimate claim to Blue Moon's leadership? If this is the afterlife, where is my father? My mother? Anyone to lead me where I need to go? I stand, looking around. Nothing. Only flowers. No trees, no people. Only flowers. This is a shitty afterlife. What did I do to deserve a bad afterlife? I never hurt anyone. Well, except Kosta. I'd hurt him. But he killed me, so that makes us pretty even, in my opinion. "This is bullshit." I growl. "Language, child." A female voice says as the wind blows lightly. I spin around, but there's no one in any direction. "Who was that?" "You should wake up now, Amira." "Wake up? I am dead, lady!" I yell into the sky. "Are you my guide or whatever to help me cross over? Cause I gotta say it has been a crappy experience so far." A light chuckle comes from somewhere in the wind before it picks up. I yelp as it feels like the wind gains hands throwing me. The last thing I remember is the wind beating against me as I struggle. "Calm down." A light growls comes from my right as I shoot up screaming. I close my mouth, looking at the source of the voice. A light haired man stands beside my bed. The one I stabbed. Before Kosta caught up to me. I lay back on the bed, looking around. We're in what seems to be a doctors exam room except the bed isn't like what we had. This one is softer. There's only one door, directly in front of the bed I lay on. The chair light haired man is now sitting in, and this bed are the only things in the room. Guess he doesn't want to stabbed again. I laugh in my head. The small action reminds me I'm alone. Truly, completely alone. An alpha without a pack. "Where am I?" I ask, looking at the man. "Rogue Pack." I snort. "That's an oxymoron." He narrows his eyes at me. "I guess Alpha could claim Blue Moon Pack." It's my turn to give him an evil glance. "Fuck off. These aren't Blue Moon's rooms. So we are where ever y'all have been holed up thirty years." The man opens his mouth but doesn't get a chance to say anything as the door opens. "Alpha." The man stands, bowing his head. I roll my eyes turning to him. Iyla stands behind him looking terrified. "Iyla. Are you hurt?" I ask, sitting up. I'm thankful for the fast healing my shifter genes provided while I was in fucked up dreamland. "She's fine." Kosta steps to the side, motioning for Iyla to enter. Iyla hesitates for a split second before rushing to my bed. "I thought you were dead." I grab her, pulling her into a tight hug. "Me? Girl, you shot a fucking arrow at an Alpha!" She yells, grabbing my shoulders and pushing me away. She looks me up and down, examining me for marks she won't find. "Everyone submitted except you, Mir. We all hear the command before you broke the connection." She glances behind her. Only a dark haired man stands there now. Kosta left at some point. I guess he's got better things to do. I don't know what it hurts to think about. "They were right next to us and we never knew." She whispers. "How many are alive?" I may know how many were alive but that doesn't mean some haven't died since. "Over three hundred of us. There's only fourty betas left." She says, anger filling her voice. "We had two hundred fighters." "We had arrogance. We had privilege in thinking we couldn't be touched." Light haired guy chuckles. "We will be okay, Iyla." I promise her, ignoring him and the nagging feeling I'm lying to my best friend.***Gabriel's POVDinner. It's what I've looked forward to since lunch. I nod at one of the guards, I think his name's Kyle but I can't remember, as he opens my bedroom door. "Barbecue pork tonight. Go grab some." I tell him. He looks confused but does as he's told. "When he comes back, you can go." I tell the other guard. He nods.I hear the girls giggling as I enter the room. I smile to myself, happy that Amira is finally enjoying herself. "Gabriel." Amira smiles at me as I walk into the closet, setting the tray on her desk. "Barbecue, yes!" Iyla jumps up, grabbing her plate before Amira can even stand. Iyla reclaims her spot on Amira's bed before digging into the food. "She really likes barbecue." Amira laughs as she wraps her arms around my waist. I hug her tight, both surprised and pleased that she's doing this in front of her friend. I take a deep breath, smelling my own products mixed with natural scent. It's a perfect combination. I relax as the heaviness in my body starts d
*** Amira's POV "Amira." Iyla's voice pulls me from blissful slumber. "Iyla, wake up." She shakes my shoulder. "Go away." I growl. "That's rude. Move over. I'm not going back to my room. I hate not having you with me to explore our new home.""It's not my home." I say, moving over so she can lay in the bed too. Iyla laughs. "Deny it all you want but this is your home now.""Oh, like you deny being mates with Dimitri." I snide, a little meaner than intended."He's not my mate." She growls, angrily. She can deny it but I'm not stupid. I've seen the way Dimitri looks at her. If they aren't mates I would be surprised. It's my turn to laugh as I finally come from under the cover. "Is that why you won't touch him?" I ask. "Fuck you, Amira. I could leave and let you be all alone again." She stands. "Hey! I was kidding." I sit up, looking at her. "Don't leave."She smirks, plopping back onto the bed. "So what happened? Dimitri looked aggravated. Which means Gabriel probably did someth
*** Gabriel's POV That was stupid. I shouldn't have kissed her. I knew before I did it that she wouldn't like it. I knew she would shove me away. I knew, but I still did it. Because I wanted to know how she tasted. She tasted like home. Like Mama's freshly baked cookies after dinner and Dad's sweet tea after a long day of training. Like the smell of Waverly's lavender bubble bath Mama used. I know it's the mate bond. Mama,Dad, and Waverly were my home. I always thought of them when I thought of home. Now, Amira is there, too. The damned brat had wormed her way into the memories of my family. How did she do that? She didn't want to. Amira doesn't want to be here. She doesn't want me. She was made for me, but her father decided I wasn't worthy. He condemned her to a life alone. I could never imagine doing that to my child. I could never purposely kill my child's mate. My office door slamming draws me from my thoughts. I look up at Dimitri. He looks concerned and pissed off. It's a
*** Amira's POV The soft knock on the bathroom door tells me I have run out of time hiding in here. I've been in here a while. I figured he would eventually knock. But I was hoping he would give up and just leave. "Princess? Are you okay?" Gabriel asks softly. I hate this new him. It seems so fake. "Fine." I sigh, giving myself one more look in the mirror. I can do this. I can pretend to like whatever he has. I can pretend to be excited for whatever. As long as it's not anything sexual. I don't think I can fake enjoying that. The knob is cold as I pull the door open. Gabriel paces beside the bed. He stops, looking up at me as I walk out. His eyes roam my body before he plasters on a smirk."Ready?" He asks, holding his hand out. No, I'm not ready. But I can't tell him that. I doubt he would care. I hesitantly take his hand. "I know you've had problems adjusting to this." He talks as he leads me across the room. "I wanted to do something for you." He stops in front of his closet
*** Amira's POV When I woke up, I expected to still be in Gabriel's arms. Maybe not in the bathroom, but he would at least be here. Instead, I wake up in Dreamland. I really hate these flowers. Truly purely hate them. They are beautiful, but I'm tired of seeing these damn flowers. This is my third time here. Except last time, I barely opened my eyes before I woke up. I've been here a while, moving through the miles of flowers. No one has appeared, not even an animal. I find it strange there's no animals. There's not even bugs on the flowers. I don't understand where I am or how I keep getting here. I just want to leave. Where the hell is the lady? Surely, whoever lives here wouldn't let me just trampled all their flowers. I have purposely pulled fists full of flowers from the dirt, hoping someone would appear to stop me. Not a single person had. I hate this. "Amira!" I freeze. I know that voice. It's one I never thought I would hear again. I spin, half expecting him not to
*** Gabriel's POVAmira is asleep on my lap, her arms wrapped around my neck. It took a while for both of us to calm down, but she had finally fallen asleep about ten minutes ago. I couldn't believe my eyes when she threw herself into my arms. She willing came to me. She willing fell asleep in my arms. "You okay now?" Dimitri's words remind me he's still here. He leans against the door jam, watching us. He stayed to protect her. From me, I realize. I must have truly scared him if he thought I would hurt Amira. Well, hurt her beyond repair anyway. I have hurt her plenty since finding her."Yeah." I tell him. My voice sounds a lot stronger now. The darkness isn't at the edge of my vision anymore. I don't feel ready to rip apart everyone anymore. "You thought I would kill her?""Yeah." He sighs heavily. "I'm going to let Iyla know everything is okay. I'll have Mary bring something to eat." He pushes from the wall. His eyes follow my every move. It's almost as if he doesn't trust me with