Nivia’s pov
I held my tongue as we walked inside, wanting nothing more than some peace and quiet. Unfortunately, Ford was heading in the same direction as I was.
We both wanted to freshen up before dinner, I guess.
“I’ll leave you alone to do your thing; I’ll head down to the living room.” I said awkwardly. How was this going to work?!
“Fifteen minutes until dinner is served,” Ford said sternly as he turned his back to me and walked into the bathroom.
Thankfully the kids were downstairs to distract me.
They both smiled when they saw me, and Ada called me over. “This is our playtime.”
“That’s cool, so what are you playing, and can I join?” I always play around with the kids in my family. There are a lot of them!
“A puzzle.” Ada pointed to the pieces in front of her.
That’s boring. They have homeschooled all day, it seems, and then have some time to play, and they play with puzzles. I mean, if they like that sort of thing… It’s not how the kids at home play, though.
Percy joined me and Ada, while Madeline stayed seated on her sofa across from us, reading a book. But I saw her looking at us from time to time.
“What do you do for fun?” I asked Percy.
He smiled at me, “I like to read.”
“Okay, that’s good. And sports?”
He nodded, “I have training each weekend, and we run laps.”
“No soccer or other sports?”
Percy shook his head, “Football, we call it football.”
I giggled, “sorry, forgot your dad is British. Football. And you’re homeschooled?”
He nodded, but before he could speak, Madeline interjected. “Those are a lot of questions, Miss Omari, that should be directed at the alpha.”
I faked a smile, “I’m just trying to get to know them.”
My attention went back to Percy and Ada, “you know what I do with my cousins when I babysit?”
They both shook their little heads.
“We do dance parties. Sometimes we dress up too. We have this big chest with dress-up clothes for Halloween and other holidays. And then we dance. We play a lot of hide-and-seek or tag because our house is pretty big. Or... we go to the petting zoo.”
“Petting zoo?” Ada asked, her eyes wide. I knew she would find that interesting.
“Yes, my granddad has a farm. And all the kids are allowed to visit the farm and see the animals. We help feed them and take care of them. He has dogs, bunnies, guinea pigs, alpacas, and horses. All kinds of animals. It’s a lot of fun.”
“Can we see them?” Percy asked. “I’ve never seen an alpaca or a guinea pig. Only in books.”
I chuckled, “maybe one day. I’m sure Grandpa Cy would love you guys. But if you want, we could do a dance party soon."
Ada clapped her hands, but Percy seemed unsure. “You don’t have to dance, Percy. You can just jump around.”
He laughed, “jump around?”
I nodded, trying to look very serious. “Yes, or just use one finger. My other granddad calls it the white-man dance. You just dance with one finger, and that’s it.” I showed him the move, which made him laugh even harder.
Ada joined and started dancing with just one finger.
“And then if you want to step it up, you use one arm.” I said as I raised my hand to the roof. “But remember, the rest of your body does not move with you.”
I took my phone and put on some music. “And this is how it looks.” I said as I stood frozen, except for my right arm, which slightly moved up and down to the beat. “Or you can add some shoulders like my aunt does when she’s been, um… happy.” When she’s been drinking.
Percy and Ada both tried my moves, while Madeline looked at me with disdain. I guess that’s why Ford chose her to be the nanny; she’s no fun either.
Soon we were all dancing silly, with the kids laughing loudly until my mate walked in to ruin the whole thing.
He coughed to draw attention to himself, and immediately the kids stopped dancing and stood up straight with their eyes down to the floor. Like fucking soldiers.
I turned down the music and waited for Ford’s next rant. Thankfully he decided not to complain, but I was sure I’d hear about all this soon enough.
“Let’s head over to dinner, shall we?” Ford said with clear disapproval in his voice.
“I’ll race you.” I said to the kids with a wink as I ran out of the living room towards the dining room. “I can’t be tardy again.”
I took my seat as the first person there, and the look on Ford’s face did not disappoint. Not only was his throbbing vein there, but he had a sneer that would surely be accompanied by some hurtful remark.
But I wasn’t going to let my mate ruin everything. I’m a fun person. I enjoy life, and he will not turn me into a miserable person just because he’s a boring stick in the mud.
Thankfully, my mate didn't say a word. Actually, nobody did. We all ate in silence, and as much as I felt the need to speak, I held back, remembering that this is not my home. If Ford can keep himself from making a remark about our little dance party, then I can eat in silence.
One benefit of eating in silence is that dinner is over much faster. Once everyone cleared their plates, the kids were excused from the table.
"I will be by to wish you goodnight," Ford said as the kids walked out.
"Can Nivia come too?" Ada asked, and it warmed my heart to hear her ask this.
I held my breath, wondering if Ford would say yes or no. He did not like his routine changed, so I was convinced he would tell her no.
"That will be up to Miss Omari."
I breathed a sigh of relief; the thought of little Ada being disappointed didn't sit right with me. "I'd love to say goodnight to you, Ada. And to you, Percy, if you like."
Percy smiled at me and nodded, "Thank you, Nivia. And thank you, Daddy, for saying yes."
"Thank you, Daddy." Ada added excitedly.
So this was out of character, it seems. If Ford hadn't been a dick all morning, this might have made me feel like there was a chance for us. But if I counted all the negative things my mate had done and said and compared them to the few moments he had been nice... Well, it was no contest which list would win.
The kids and nanny left, leaving Ford and me at the table.
"So... what do you normally do after dinner?" I asked Ford.
"After saying goodnight to my children, I train and prepare work for the next day."
"And what do you do for fun?" I regretted my question immediately, but it was too late to take back my words.
"I'm an Alpha, Miss Omari. I do not waste time on frivolity such as dancing.” He sneered. “Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to change into my workout attire. The children will be in bed within fifteen minutes. Can I expect you to be on time?”
"I'll be there?" Goddess, I sounded so insecure. This stupid man.
I texted my parents and a few other people to let them know I was alive and okay. Of course, I could have mindlinked most of them, but they're too noisy, and they could probably tell by the sound of my voice that I am not okay. I'm miserable and want to go home, and if Dad finds out, he'll come get me instantly.
When it was almost time for the kids to go to sleep, I headed up. I was proud to see I got there before Ford did.
Since Ada is the youngest, I went to her room first. I figured she probably has to sleep before her brother does; at least that's how it was with me and Forrest. She smiled when she saw me come in, all tucked into her little bed. She looked adorable.
"Aren't you the cutest thing ever, Princess Ada?" I said, walking up to her. "Are you all ready for bed?"
She nodded, and I looked around the room. There weren't many toys, but there were plenty of books.
"Do you want me to read to you until your dad comes here?" I asked, and she nodded eagerly.
"Yes, please."
I looked through the books to find one I knew and grabbed a chair and sat next to her on the bed. I had purposefully left the door open so I could hear Ford's footsteps when he was coming.
But there were lighter footsteps headed this way as I read the first page.
Soon Percy stood beside the bed, "can I join?"
I nodded, and he sat beside his sister under the covers. The kids seemed mesmerized as I read to them. I tried to use different voices for different characters, which made them laugh.
It was so cute, and it made me feel proud to see I got this reaction from them. Even if their dad hates me, at least they like me.
When I heard Ford's footsteps come closer, I kept on reading. I wasn't doing anything wrong, so I didn't see a reason to stop.
He entered the room, but let me finish the page before speaking. After finishing the page, I glanced up at him. He was wearing shorts and a tight shirt, showing off every muscle. He had good legs too. Bastard.
"It's time for bed. Thank Miss Omari for reading to you." He told the kids sternly.
"It was no problem." I told the kids. I kissed the top of Ada's head, "goodnight sweetie."
Percy looked at me expectantly, so I did the same for him. He waved at me before walking back to his room. "Goodnight, Dad, goodnight, Nivia."
"Sleep well, Percy." I said, waving back.
"Night night, Adalaide," Ford said, giving her a nod.
"Night night, Daddy and Nivia." She yawned, and I so badly wanted to squeeze her and eat her up. She's so freaking cute.
I walked to the door; Ford turned the lights off and closed the door behind us and then kept walking, not uttering a word to me.
His butt looked good in his shorts, though.
I went up to the room I would be sharing with my mate and got dressed for bed in my brother’s old shorts and a big shirt. There was no need to dress sexy for Ford, since he clearly wasn’t interested in me, and more importantly, I was planning to avoid his side of the bed entirely.
Making a wall of towels between us crossed my mind, but I was sure we could both use his king-size bed without touching each other.
My experience with men or women in the bedroom hasn’t been, um, how do you say that?
‘You have no experience?’ Gwyn joked.
Basically, it’s limited to kisses and a few awkward second base moments.
But after the way Ford treated me today, it was clear he wouldn’t try anything with me. Even a kiss between the two of us seemed ridiculous at this point.
Boy…. Was I wrong…
Thank you for reading my story so far! I have already written some chapters, so I'll be able to post daily for at least a week. Let me see if I can keep up with my schedule and give you lots of updates on this crazy couple.
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Ford’s pov‘Say something,’ Callum urged me.I had tried to acknowledge my part in this debacle, but she could not let it rest. Nivia had to keep questioning me, my judgement, and my choices.She’s eighteen years of age, yet she seems to think she knows better than me. The arrogance this woman possesses is beyond me. Not only did she label me a bad father and a flawed alpha, but she also tried to dismiss my efforts in caring for Pearle.Pearle and I were not in love; our relationship was based on mutual respect for each other. Never in her time with me would she dare to critique my choices. However, Pearle would provide suggestions occasionally to better my relationship with my children.Pearle instinctively understood when to speak and when to remain silent, recognising when her presence was beneficial and when it wasn't. Pearle understood my vision for this pack and for my children.As a trained teacher, she was able to homeschool the children and prepare them for the life they were
Nivia’s povA few more days. I can do this. Just a few more days of laying low. Pretending none of this is bothering me. Just say as little as possible to avoid fights and then get the hell out of this place.I’ll find ways to keep myself busy while I’m here, away from Ford and his stupid, handsome face.Because when I’m near him, I either want to kiss him or kill him, and both of those options aren’t good. At all.‘Hey Niv, just checking in. Or are you busy?’ Dad mindlinked me on the drive back to the packhouse.‘No, I can talk.’He chuckled, ‘so, how’s asswood treating you?‘Fine. It’s fine.’Dad scoffed, ‘so, it’s fucking horrible? Don’t fucking lie; I can hear it in your voice.’I sighed as I stared out the window. I didn’t want to lie, but I would rather not tell Dad how bad it really was, or he’d
Ford’s povI studied my mate’s facial expression as she spoke to someone using their mind links. Once Nivia joined my pack and she was marked by me, she would not be able to speak so easily with her family and friends.Using the mind link that our pack shares has never been something I have done for informal reasons. While others might use the mindlink to converse with their mates or family members, I have only employed it to speak directly to my pack or discuss pack business.Occasionally Madeline would discuss matters surrounding the kids with me using this method, or my beta would try to engage in small talk.Nivia seemed to talk daily with her family and friends, either using her phone or the mind link between the Iron River pack’s members.It irked me not to be able to hear what she was discussing, especially since I could clearly see whatever was being said bothered her immensely.“Is everything all right?&rdquo
Nivia’s pov“Join you?” I replied.“Yes, you mentioned feeling eager to train. Would you like to join me tonight?” He asked. For a moment he sounded insecure, but it was probably just my imagination.“Sure.” I replied. I did really need to blow off some steam.I was still thinking about everything my mom had said. She had asked me for a favor, not realizing what was going on between me and Ford. She had assumed, since I would be staying anyway, that it wouldn’t be difficult to gather some information.I think the only reason Mom seemed conflicted about asking me for help was because it could influence my relationship with Ford. There was a difference between asking some questions and spying on a pack. And although she acted as if it would be as simple as talking to a few people, I knew what they really needed was access to data that was surely hidden.It’s safe to bet that if the council
Nivia’s povI woke up half expecting Ford to be here. His scent surrounded me, and I purposefully slept on his side of the bed to feel close to him.I missed my mate.More than I ever would admit to him.He probably felt it, though, if he paid attention to my emotions through the bond, that is. I don’t want to make assumptions about how much or little my mate cares.As I got out of the giant bed and walked to the shower, I thought about all the times we had showered together, even before I got my mark.Cleanliness was a big thing for Ford, but the things we did in this shower were pretty dirty.Would Ford feel it if I touched myself?Would it make him mad or happy?Either one would be kind of fun, but I didn’t want to distract him at work too much. Maybe I’d try to perform my experiment when he’s on the flight back.He might not admit it, but Ford really didn’t want to go back there. I don’t have to be able to feel his emotions to know that.From everything Fletcher told me to the way
Ford’s povNivia did not get a chance to train with me, unfortunately. Or perhaps it was for the best, considering what occurred last time.I did not want my mate to get hurt another time.‘She wouldn’t get hurt; your ego would.’ Callum felt so sure our mate could best us.Alas, I was called away to attend to business elsewhere.Elsewhere just happened to be the one place I vowed never to return to.England and, more specifically, my old pack.The interim alpha swore he needed my assistance in person. Apparently news of Fletcher’s death had reached the ears of nearby packs looking to take over the Wild Winder pack.They needed the presence of an alpha to scare everyone off.And while it did not bother me if some of the pack perished in an attack, there were also innocent members who did not deserve to die or end up with an alpha who might be even worse than Fletcher.There were many reasons to say no, but none I could admit to out loud.So off I went.‘You skipped a few steps…’ Callum
Nivia's povAfter Ford left to train, I planned different ways of telling Ford about waiting to have kids. I could explain how I was only eighteen. Or that I wanted to have some more time with just him.Or maybe it would be nicer if Ada and Percy were a bit older.I knew telling him I was worried about how he'd be with our kid would make him really mad, so I needed to make sure I used a lot of "I feel like" or "I think" phrases. Instead of saying, "I'm scared you'll be a bad dad to our baby."Or tell him I don't agree with the way he's raising the kids he already has.When I did fall asleep, I woke up a few hours later to Ford hugging me tightly deep at night.He’s so sweet in bed. So gentle with me. He kissed my back, “go sleep, darling.”And I went back to sleep being held by my mate.I actually woke up before Ford, and I turned to face him to watch him sleep. I hadn’t done that before because, well, it wasn’t until now that I felt the need to. Maybe because I finally accepted that I
Nivia’s povI wish Ford could just allow himself to have fun. To be silly.Or at least allow me to be silly.Like Grandma Leia and Grandpa Ash. She’s nuts. I mean, in the best way. She’s funny, loud and weird. She has her crazy hair and her tattoos; she swears a lot and is loud and wild.Grandpa Ash is calm and serious, yet he never judges Leia for the way she is. He loves that side of her. You can see the admiration in my grandpa’s eyes every time my grandma does something weird.I love that even now, in their late fifties, they sometimes still act like kids. They’re still young at heart.After everything they’ve been through, their time apart, losing their daughters only to find them much later when they’re all grown up…Same for my other grandma, Eve. She’s so in love with her second chance mate, and while they’re not as crazy or loud as Grandma Leia can be, she laughs and makes jokes. She has fun with her mate.And then my parents… They went through some shit too. Like a lot of shi
Ford’s povI allowed Nivia some leniency. While I normally would prefer to solely focus on work, like her, my mind has wandered off to last night a few times.I plan to spend every night enjoying my mate until she is with child. And even then I will most likely continue.‘So you don’t just want her around for your heir?’ Callum scoffed.While I had led Walter to believe this to be the case, my wolf should know better.I might not feel the same Nivia does; I have grown fond of her and our time spent together.And she has begun to prove her worth in more ways than one.Not only can she satisfy me like no other in the bedroom, but she has also helped take over my beta's tasks with an ease I did not expect of her.‘When you were her age, you were already running a pack and had received training from our former beta. Why would you assume she hadn’t received comparable or superior training to you?’ Callum asked.Her decorum in the beginning and me feeling slighted by her being appointed to w
Nivia’s pov Shit, shit, shit.... I’m falling so hard for my mate, and it’s fucking terrifying. Remember how I thought having sex with Ford might make me like him more...? Yeah, I was right. But it’s more than just the pleasure he gives me. Although he’s really good at that part. My goddess, he’s good. I don’t even care that he takes the lead; I know how important it is for him to be in control. Besides, I’m new to all this. So I don’t mind just letting go and following his lead. It’s nice to be surprised by whatever he decides next; each position feels better than the one before. But beyond the pleasure, there is something else that I didn’t count on. It’s the way he makes me feel. The way Ford looks at me makes me feel so sexy, so wanted. He doesn’t really say it, but I can see it in his eyes when he’s watching me. Normally there is judgment behind his eyes, but when we’re having sex, he’s not judging me. I’m free to make sounds, to curse, and to make faces without feeling jud
Ford’s povPerhaps the Moon Goddess was not mistaken after all.Nivia’s body felt delightful; I fit perfectly into it as she allowed me to fulfil my fantasies. My defiance did not bother her; they seemed to turn her on almost as much as they did me.I am not one to let my guard down; however, while we had sex, I did not feel that similar need for control.Simply put, I felt free to be myself.Nivia surrendered herself to me, accepting my mark, and although all my previous reasonings for needing my mark on her neck were still valid, there was another reason I had not thought of previously.My mark on my mate’s neck wasn’t simply necessary to the pack, to the council or my legacy. I coveted the opportunity to mark Nivia, to make her mine in every way.I felt the similar sense of urgency Nivia had displayed, and whilst hers was out of jealousy, mine was for another reason.Nivia had not minced words when it came to our relationship. She had made it abundantly clear that the option of reje
Nivia’s povAfter some bullshit chitchat with Mom, Dad, and Forrest, Dad went into super-dad mode.“So what the fuck is up with your face? Because your voice sounds cheery, but your eyes betray you. You’re fucking miserable.”I sighed, “I am not fucking miserable.”“Well, you’re not basking in the motherfucking flow of the mate bond either. You should be fucking all day and being all giddy.”I laughed, “seriously?”Dad shrugged while Mom covered her mouth to hide her laughter, “well, yeah. You’ve seen how mates are when they first meet. They’re all over each other, sucking face all day long, being fucking clingy. Some people just stay in their room for a whole week. And you two… Well, Niv, no offense, but you don’t even act like you like each other.”I sighed, Goddess, this man is exhausting! “We do like each other.”“Prove it.”I scoffed, “seriously? Prove it? How?”“I don’t fucking know, but well… fuck it…. Your mom is going to kill me for saying this, but I’ve already started this s
Nivia’s povMaybe it could work somehow?I’d be Ford’s Luna, the type of Luna he wants, and after a while I’ll take over as Alpha for Mom and get to have my shot to be in charge.I just always thought it would be different, you know?We’d run our pack together. Like Mom and Dad and all that came before them.It’s… Ugh… I don’t know if I can be a Luna like Pearle was. I don’t know if I can be a traditional Luna, one who barely is allowed to have an opinion on pack members.I’m trying. I really am.Trying to find a way things could work, because for all his faults, I am falling hard for Ford.We walked the rest of the way in silence, and I hoped maybe we could salvage the rest of the evening. Maybe I could find a way for Ford to understand we weren’t trying to embarrass him but help him.Because it was clear he reacted so strongly because we hurt his pride.I wish I could understand why Ford behaved the way he did. I know his past has shaped him to be the man he is today.If Fletcher tre