And the second one. I know, I ended on a cliffnote, but I wrote this as one chapter and suddenly realized I had written over 4000 words. So I split it up in two. Next one will be Ford's pov. Hope you enjoy!
Ford’s pov“I shall not bore you with the details of my day, -“ I tried to say before Nivia interjected.“It’s not boring to me; tell me.”I sighed, not really eager to discuss my day. It had been tiresome to deal with these alpha pups, who had no real knowledge of how to run a pack or settle disputes.They had seen an opportunity for a land grab, and if I had not been here to stop them, they would most likely have waged war on the Wind Wilder pack and taken over. Causing much damage and many casualties.Like many young and eager alphas, they wanted more but had not considered the ramifications of their actions.If they were to take over the Wind Wilder pack, they would also have to deal with their debts. They wouldn’t just gain land and members; they’d gain all the trouble Fletcher had caused.“I have settled the disputes and will be heading back soon,” I replied.I had felt keen to hear my mate’s voice. While her many messages would normally bother me, they were a distraction from m
Nivia’s povI woke up half expecting Ford to be here. His scent surrounded me, and I purposefully slept on his side of the bed to feel close to him.I missed my mate.More than I ever would admit to him.He probably felt it, though, if he paid attention to my emotions through the bond, that is. I don’t want to make assumptions about how much or little my mate cares.As I got out of the giant bed and walked to the shower, I thought about all the times we had showered together, even before I got my mark.Cleanliness was a big thing for Ford, but the things we did in this shower were pretty dirty.Would Ford feel it if I touched myself?Would it make him mad or happy?Either one would be kind of fun, but I didn’t want to distract him at work too much. Maybe I’d try to perform my experiment when he’s on the flight back.He might not admit it, but Ford really didn’t want to go back there. I don’t have to be able to feel his emotions to know that.From everything Fletcher told me to the way
Ford’s povNivia did not get a chance to train with me, unfortunately. Or perhaps it was for the best, considering what occurred last time.I did not want my mate to get hurt another time.‘She wouldn’t get hurt; your ego would.’ Callum felt so sure our mate could best us.Alas, I was called away to attend to business elsewhere.Elsewhere just happened to be the one place I vowed never to return to.England and, more specifically, my old pack.The interim alpha swore he needed my assistance in person. Apparently news of Fletcher’s death had reached the ears of nearby packs looking to take over the Wild Winder pack.They needed the presence of an alpha to scare everyone off.And while it did not bother me if some of the pack perished in an attack, there were also innocent members who did not deserve to die or end up with an alpha who might be even worse than Fletcher.There were many reasons to say no, but none I could admit to out loud.So off I went.‘You skipped a few steps…’ Callum
Nivia's povAfter Ford left to train, I planned different ways of telling Ford about waiting to have kids. I could explain how I was only eighteen. Or that I wanted to have some more time with just him.Or maybe it would be nicer if Ada and Percy were a bit older.I knew telling him I was worried about how he'd be with our kid would make him really mad, so I needed to make sure I used a lot of "I feel like" or "I think" phrases. Instead of saying, "I'm scared you'll be a bad dad to our baby."Or tell him I don't agree with the way he's raising the kids he already has.When I did fall asleep, I woke up a few hours later to Ford hugging me tightly deep at night.He’s so sweet in bed. So gentle with me. He kissed my back, “go sleep, darling.”And I went back to sleep being held by my mate.I actually woke up before Ford, and I turned to face him to watch him sleep. I hadn’t done that before because, well, it wasn’t until now that I felt the need to. Maybe because I finally accepted that I
Nivia’s povI wish Ford could just allow himself to have fun. To be silly.Or at least allow me to be silly.Like Grandma Leia and Grandpa Ash. She’s nuts. I mean, in the best way. She’s funny, loud and weird. She has her crazy hair and her tattoos; she swears a lot and is loud and wild.Grandpa Ash is calm and serious, yet he never judges Leia for the way she is. He loves that side of her. You can see the admiration in my grandpa’s eyes every time my grandma does something weird.I love that even now, in their late fifties, they sometimes still act like kids. They’re still young at heart.After everything they’ve been through, their time apart, losing their daughters only to find them much later when they’re all grown up…Same for my other grandma, Eve. She’s so in love with her second chance mate, and while they’re not as crazy or loud as Grandma Leia can be, she laughs and makes jokes. She has fun with her mate.And then my parents… They went through some shit too. Like a lot of shi
Ford’s povI allowed Nivia some leniency. While I normally would prefer to solely focus on work, like her, my mind has wandered off to last night a few times.I plan to spend every night enjoying my mate until she is with child. And even then I will most likely continue.‘So you don’t just want her around for your heir?’ Callum scoffed.While I had led Walter to believe this to be the case, my wolf should know better.I might not feel the same Nivia does; I have grown fond of her and our time spent together.And she has begun to prove her worth in more ways than one.Not only can she satisfy me like no other in the bedroom, but she has also helped take over my beta's tasks with an ease I did not expect of her.‘When you were her age, you were already running a pack and had received training from our former beta. Why would you assume she hadn’t received comparable or superior training to you?’ Callum asked.Her decorum in the beginning and me feeling slighted by her being appointed to w
Nivia’s pov Shit, shit, shit.... I’m falling so hard for my mate, and it’s fucking terrifying. Remember how I thought having sex with Ford might make me like him more...? Yeah, I was right. But it’s more than just the pleasure he gives me. Although he’s really good at that part. My goddess, he’s good. I don’t even care that he takes the lead; I know how important it is for him to be in control. Besides, I’m new to all this. So I don’t mind just letting go and following his lead. It’s nice to be surprised by whatever he decides next; each position feels better than the one before. But beyond the pleasure, there is something else that I didn’t count on. It’s the way he makes me feel. The way Ford looks at me makes me feel so sexy, so wanted. He doesn’t really say it, but I can see it in his eyes when he’s watching me. Normally there is judgment behind his eyes, but when we’re having sex, he’s not judging me. I’m free to make sounds, to curse, and to make faces without feeling jud
Ford’s povPerhaps the Moon Goddess was not mistaken after all.Nivia’s body felt delightful; I fit perfectly into it as she allowed me to fulfil my fantasies. My defiance did not bother her; they seemed to turn her on almost as much as they did me.I am not one to let my guard down; however, while we had sex, I did not feel that similar need for control.Simply put, I felt free to be myself.Nivia surrendered herself to me, accepting my mark, and although all my previous reasonings for needing my mark on her neck were still valid, there was another reason I had not thought of previously.My mark on my mate’s neck wasn’t simply necessary to the pack, to the council or my legacy. I coveted the opportunity to mark Nivia, to make her mine in every way.I felt the similar sense of urgency Nivia had displayed, and whilst hers was out of jealousy, mine was for another reason.Nivia had not minced words when it came to our relationship. She had made it abundantly clear that the option of reje
Nivia’s povAfter some bullshit chitchat with Mom, Dad, and Forrest, Dad went into super-dad mode.“So what the fuck is up with your face? Because your voice sounds cheery, but your eyes betray you. You’re fucking miserable.”I sighed, “I am not fucking miserable.”“Well, you’re not basking in the motherfucking flow of the mate bond either. You should be fucking all day and being all giddy.”I laughed, “seriously?”Dad shrugged while Mom covered her mouth to hide her laughter, “well, yeah. You’ve seen how mates are when they first meet. They’re all over each other, sucking face all day long, being fucking clingy. Some people just stay in their room for a whole week. And you two… Well, Niv, no offense, but you don’t even act like you like each other.”I sighed, Goddess, this man is exhausting! “We do like each other.”“Prove it.”I scoffed, “seriously? Prove it? How?”“I don’t fucking know, but well… fuck it…. Your mom is going to kill me for saying this, but I’ve already started this s