Chapter 17

I know I need to figure something out. But I am lost for words, I lay in darkness. Not wanting to be weak, but knowing I have a choice to be strong. But it's not The Choice that I want to make. All my life, I was forced to do what everyone else has wanted me to do.

I'm not certain why I'm holding on to this world. Or what kind of purpose I may have. I should have died, anyone else would have. But not me, I keep fighting without having any reason to fight. I'm not sure what my purpose really is. But I have to have some purpose or why would I be here?

My wolf made me feel invincible, powerful. All the feelings that I have never felt in my life. I don't understand why I can't just accept who I am. But it's almost like if I accept it, I lose myself. I'm not sure if that is worth accepting.

I knew my life would be full of Pain, but this torture is almost impossible to bear. I know that I am alive. I can hear them talking, I can't make out the words, but I hear them. And the constant beepin