Chapter 19

I don't know how to act, I'm so angry at this man, I hate him. I don't even want to look at his face. I look down into my lap, not looking him in the eye. I can't let myself feel anything, it only causes me sadness.

I then feel a warmness underneath my chin, realizing it's him, my father's hand as he pushes my chin up for me to look him in the eye. I shut my eyes, not wanting to see him. “Stella, I know you're angry and hurt, but please let me explain.”

I'm so confused, I don't know how to feel about any of this. I would like to be able to trust him, but I can't, he's no better than Zealand. I'm only going to be left disappointed. “Stella, open your eyes, so I can explain all of this.”

I then feel him grab a hold of my face, squeezing my cheeks. I squint in pain, trying so hard not to react to him. I can't take it any longer, I then open my eyes just so I can scream in his face “you left all of this happen to me now you want to talk fuck you.”

I then feel his hand slamming across my