She let go of my shirt then hugged me. "Why didn't you tell me right away?" I couldn’t answer right away. I couldn’t tell her that Ahbaya’s thoughts were compromised because she was attacked. The poison lathered on the bear’s claws must’ve fucked her mind up. Telling Dane all of this would make me seem more pathetic and a pathologiical liar. Believing, hanging onto words, professing words of love through a hazy and unstable mentality. Well, what if it’s you? What can you say? What can I say? “She was drunk.” A part of me only hangs onto the lies I’ve built. The lies being the reason that I was still sane, giving me hope that maybe, she does love me. I was told to pick a poison, one that would hurt me less. Stupid of me to pick the one that would sting the most. The one that kills slowly. Hope. And I… “A lot of people say drunk people say and do dumbass things, Dane…” "But she still said it!" She screamed, voice so loud that the veins on her neck popped. "And don’t those fools a
DANEI was five when I first noticed that I was different. My mother said that I was born perfect just like any other parent, and before, I felt like all of that bullshit was true. I was stronger than most, faster than the other wolves. Some even asked my mother if I was a hybrid, if she slept someone with other than my father. She did not. I was simply born strong. I was one of the first non-hybrid to be promoted as gamma, then from a hunter, a warrior gamma I was to be promoted as a beta. There’s not much to know about me. Except for the fact I’ve been in love with my best friend for years. Why did I fall for someone like him? I don’t know. It just happened. It was me. There, I said it. And if I go ahead and confess, he’s going to hate me for it. Yael has this odd tendency of pushing away those who give an ounce of care for him. These days, my feelings for him have been eating its way at me, trying to find a way out to be released. I thought my feelings would be wiped away, but
“Dane.” The way he called my name made my hair stand on my body. It was like the first time we met. He was shy and sweet. “Do you remember when we finished training along with Alpha Devant? The two of us ran by the riverbank, both soaked in sweat. You laughed as you removed your clothes until you were only wearing your under armor. I couldn’t even look at you. I gave you my shirt and told you to get dressed, I didn’t want anyone else to see the thin fabric clinging onto your sweaty body. You said you stank, I said you were beautiful. Your arm was wrapped around me as you kissed me on my lips. It was a few hours till morning and the sky was covered in a million stars. You told me how I wished you loved me instead. And I wished for the same thing. You told me that every single star in the sky meant something, had its purpose. Stars were like people, you said. Every star was different and every one deserved to be beautiful, no matter where they came from, how old they were, or what oth
What was going on? Why was I in the dark again? Breathless. Fear engulfed me. Fear of not having power over the situation. Fear of a lack of assurance as to whether or not I would make it alive. Why couldn’t I run away from her? Scream for help? Someone…please…save me. “Yael — fuck! Calm down.” Her voice was an echo at first but it was familiar. I felt as if I was running to the source of this voice. I wanted to escape this world and enter hers because maybe she could wipe away the memories that have resurfaced. Little by little I could feel her soft yet calloused hands on me. Shaking and waking me up into reality. “Yael? YAEL?!” I fluttered my eyes open and saw a face near mine. It was indistinguishable due to the darkness filling the room. Fear had returned to my system. NO! She’s going to kill me — I knew it! FUCK! Had my dream crossed over to reality? Is it happening again? With shaky hands I pushed her away. I saw the faceless shadow fall to the side as I tried with much
Insanity exists in us all. It’s one of the phrases I’ve read from the books Martha gave me, so I could exist in this cutthroat Kingdom as an Omega who could at least read and write. I found it charming at first, the bloodlust smile of a hybrid. The kinky touch of a cheating beta, fucking an omega secretly inside the brothel, hidden inside the room, the sound of their skin slapping skin. The thin walls are not enough to hide their shame. I got used to it. Sin. But never in this light. I thought she and I were making progress. I thought I was treasured --- until the bubble I've created for myself was destroyed. It was during the full moon, the death anniversary of the first Queen, Alpha Oliva. Ahbaya had an idea, something she thought I would enjoy — whispering sinful words against my ear as her tongue licked and created tingles against my skin. My soul crashed out of my body, as if I was damsel pinned against the wall as she smiled at me.“Threesome, have you ever experienced it?”
The morning came sooner than I had hoped. My eyes lazily blinked at the morning sky as I continued to walk forward. Raspberry sounds came out of my lips before I shifted into my wolf, hoping I could make my escape while the Hybrids were still either asleep or too drunk to spot someone like me.What happened last night was something I will not forget. Usually when a client finished and had their lust satisfied they’ll leave. But that wasn’t what happened with Ahbaya, Blue and I. It was the first time it happened, Ahbaya came so hard she fell asleep immediately. Blue and I took her to my room, laid her on my bed, and we looked at each other not knowing what to do next. Do you say thank you after? Fuck if I know. And Blue, Blue was a mess. Not because he regretted the threesome. It was because of something else. It was because of Yohan. Turns out he wasn’t new to this kind of thing. He and Yohan used to have lots of threesomes with Ahbaya. They did it regularly before I came into the
After all the drama and a box of tissues I was finally able to calm down my best friend. Thank goodness too, I was about to lose my mind if I heard her say ‘God, I’m an idiot! I want to fucking die!’, shit. As I slowly consumed my now tasteless meal, Dane’s story and words remained in my mind. Sure, she had a point. Drunk people saying random things, it makes sense because it’s true. But it doesn’t go in the exact same way for me. Ahbaya wasn’t drunk the night she told me she loved me. She was high in poison, maybe even a step away from dying — still, she’s not drunk.Dane frowned after taking a bite from her burger. “It's getting cold, like my conscience.”I laughed at her wits though, ah, the irony. “As if you had one in the first place.” While the both of us enjoyed our meal, Dane and I shared a series of short conversations. Like how stupid it is to be a human. She wants to be a cactus and I, a small succulent on her back.“You’re losing your mind and I can’t blame you. Timothy
“Wow, this is delicious!” Ahbaya’s expression was unreadable because it contained nothing but a half smile and wide eyes. She came to my room just when I finished cooking my meal. It was rude so I asked her to join in. “Thanks.” “How old were you when you learned how to cook?” I shrugged. “I’ve been alone since my sister got married —” I frowned upon remembering those times, “ — so I’d say a few years ago.” “Amazing.” I scoffed. “It’s not.” “Seriously it is! You’re a good cook. If only I knew you were this good of a cook, I would’ve asked you to cook then fuck me a bit later,” she patted her flat stomach. “You know, after the food’s gone down.” A giggle escaped my mouth. “At least I’d be doing something for you that I actually enjoy.” I heard Ahbaya’s fork clink against her plate. I looked up and she was staring at me again, except this time, there was no smile on her face, but I could tell that she was amused. “What are you saying?” “I’m saying that I enjoy cooking.”