The sunset was filtering in through the windows by the time I got out of bed. The house was quiet, and there was no indication of Austin. With a large sigh, I walked into my now unfamiliar bathroom and just lay in the hot water, my hair falling on the side slab, my body relaxing in the water.I knew what I should do, but it was a little too hard. Giving up something I had believed I had been fighting for so long was more than a little painful. I stepped out when the water got too cold, and dried up immediately. I checked for clothes, but I didn't exactly feel like wearing anything, so I just donned the dark purple hoodie from Austin. His smell hit me like a sudden wave and I had to stop my self from clinging all over again.There was no one at home, and I just sat around doing nothing. A small knock interrupted my trance and I immediately went to check who it was. I did hope it was Austin, but I knew it wasn't him.Eric stood by the door with a small smile, and I smiled back, still s
He walked to me and handed me a cup. "I wanted to get drunk."I swallowed. "I'll take you to bed, then.""Don't you want to join me instead?" he asked, raising the cup slightly upwards.I shook my head. "I am okay."He nodded and dropped the cup, then picked his own and the bottle and walked his way to the sitting room. I stayed back for a while before I followed, and he sat on the couch.He drank slowly, his eyes focused on nothing in particular, and I could almost feel the way he was going back to the Austin from back then, way before he learned to allow others see his wounds so they could cater for them. His eyes were cold as he drank the first cup, and after that, he just kept it and stared off."You said you wanted to get drunk."He shook his head. "I don't feel like it anymore."He pushed himself on the couch and strightened into a lying position, then stretched his body. As if on cue, I moved forward, helping guide his head to my lap.He gave a small satisfactory sigh as I let
Catherine turned to me, her eyes wide as saucers. I was surprised by myself too. But maybe this is what it was all supposed to boil down to. Me giving up because I have felt like I tried enough. Me giving up because I know it's a dead end. Sometimes, the insecurity leaves, but then it's back with full force, because I dont get to hear the things I want to hear. Because I don't get to feel the things I want to feel. So this is probably me being a puny little wolf, running away from the only thing my heart has ever craved."What's that? My rightful place?" She asked, coming to stand in front of me.I shrugged. "I forgive you for everything. I mean, whatever you did with Lily, allowing yourself be manipulated like that. And now that I know you are not really at fault, I want to move away fron your path."She let her eyes sweep over me. "Are you saying this because you got tired of him?""Austin is not a man you can get tired of. You know that. The same way you can't force him to be with
Beta Liam walked behind me till we got to the house, then waited for me outside as I ran inside, checking my room. The paper was in the first drawer and I grabbed it and immediately ran back."Can we go?"He nodded. "I hope Alpha does not have my head."I have a small chuckle and we made our way to the pack house. It was a secluded area in the pack house and just outside the pack house sat Simon.He didn't look up at me or say a word, and I didn't bother with him either. He was probably too ashamed that all he got in exchnage for such a despicable act was a promise he knew could not be fulfilled, and he sold his morals to actually do it.Beta Liam took me to the large meeting room. It was silent, and the elders were laid back on their seats, pretty much like Alpha Austin. He was typing on his phone, while Lily sat alone on the other side of the table.No words were exchanged, but you could cut through the tension in the room with a scissors."Austin." I said once I came in.He turned
My eyes almost popped out of their sockets as Simon said it."What?" Even Austin sounded confused as he turned to me."She always knew the alpha would not harbor feelings for an ordinary omega. She was just a lucky woman who had become so involved with the alpha that when things went haywire with his mate, he chose her to run to. She knew that much." Simon said, pointing an accusing finger at me. In his eyes was a hollow depravement. He looked like he'd finally lost his soul and wasn't afraid to do just anything."Simon, what are you saying?" I asked, my body going numb."The truth. That's what you asked for, right? Then that's what you are going to hear."Austin walked to me and pulled me into him, turning my face away. "I have had enough.""No. No, you haven't. This Omega..she even killed her own mate! She killed her mate so that she could be with the alpha. She sums up various schemes to look vulnerable, including drowning herself on a path that only the alpha knew so that he would
Hie eyes went from surprised to disappointed to angry, then a sudden lack of emotions at all. We stayed there in the car, the dark clouds of rain looming over us, my thoughts conflicted."Hazel..." He said.His voice almost made me run back to him with my heart on my sleeve again, my body like an offering, my love like a sacrifice. But I needed to control. I needed to stop myself."Am I...just something you can give up on? Is that all I am to you?" He turned fully to me, his eyes wide with a slight sheen to them, and I could see his hands tremble slightly as he left the steering wheel. "No. That can't be...but...but you are...""But I am what, Hazel? What am I? If you are...just able to decide to let me go...is it that easy? Everything we have ever shared...Hell, the kisses, Hazel. Did you not feel me on your lips when you made that decision?"My eyes filled. I did. I felt him several times, all over me. I felt him every single place in me, most especially my heart but..."She is yo
I closed my eyes tight against the rain, my chest filling up with his closeness and the cold."Please?" he said again, his fingers slowly moving against my face, his breath ragged in my ear. "I..." I start to say. "I already talked to Catherine. I already told her to take her place back. I already admitted that your side just might not be the place I was born for, it might not be where I belong. She might...come back anytime. She might be here...and I have no right to ask you to reject her. I am not that heartless."I felt his grip on my face loosen a little, but then he was covering the last of the space I had unconsciously put between us, his hand slowly putting my hair behind my ears."How do I change your mind? Tell me everything you need to have and I will give it to you. Tell me everything you need to hear and I'll say it. Tell me everything you need to feel...and I'll make you feel it. Anything for you to stick by my side and forget the world like we've been doing for at least
"Austin? Austin?" I called, shaking him. He was rigid, and cold. A little too cold. I stood, pulling him up with me and not having the leisure to choose rooms, pulled him into mine, and tucked him under the sheets.I needed to warm him up, but how? I ran down to the kitchen immediately and started to heat some water. I ran around the house, locking doors and closing windows, then turned on the heaters.Ibwent uo to my room and he had gotten pale, too pale. His lips were slightly parted, and they were a little chapped. I ran down again, getting the now hot water and a dried towel. I slowly dabbed at it, ignoring the heat against my finger as I worked to rid him of his shirt.I propped him up, then made him lean on me, almost like he was hugging me but now quite.I swallowed and pulled the shirt off of him, then threw it to the side. I dabbed his back slowly with the hot towel, then his stomach, his arms, then his face.His body sure was alluring and I had to catch myself slacking on t