로그인꧁ Marisella ꧂
Inhaling for patience, I grip the cold railing of the balcony. I’d hoped this would be a simple affair. Roll around, get paid, and bounce. I’ve planned only one tryst to make up for Mom’s bills for the month. Then I’ll use the borrowed time to hunt for job number three. I move to face him. My back hits his front. Has he always been that close? My heart thumps as his size registers against me. The back of my head is flush with the flexing pecs of his chest. The curve of my ass kisses his crotch, a pulsing bar of solid cock pressing between my cheeks. “Looks like you’re happy with the replacement,” I purr, trying to catch my breath. He is big. I haven’t been with any man, but I'm not exactly a virgin. I have an arsenal of silicone and plastic hidden in my closet, but the Russian’s size trumps them all. “I trust you’ve read and understood my tastes,” he bites out. “I have,” I lie over the rim of my glass. Sonya had developed an allergic reaction to a new skincare brand. Knowing my predicament, I’d been her first choice as a replacement to her client. But even she didn’t know him. She’d assured me nothing untoward was on his profile, at most a spank here and there. I can handle a spank. My skin tingles with anticipation. What is wrong with me? “How much to let me do anything to you?” He drags a knuckle down my spine, pausing at the dip of my waist. Heat sizzles in its wake. I struggle to concentrate. “A-anything?” “Two thousand.” He offers. He reeks of money. And I need a lot of it. But I can’t just accept anything. “Some things aren’t on the table,” I manage. His words tickle my ear. “Everything is on my table, woman.” So arrogant. I am hyper-aware of his presence, his body like a furnace against mine, amplifying every sensation. “I won’t do anal, or excessive pain.” “But you’re open to moderate pain, no?” I swallow. That wicked-looking gun flashes in my mind. Of course, a man like this would enjoy inflicting pain in every area of his life. “Five thousand,” he growls in the silence. My jaw slackens. That’s six thousand in one night! But if he’s willing to part with that much, he can afford more. Throat burning, I mutter, “Ten.” “I won’t pay ten for ‘moderate pain,’” his voice has hardened, his knuckle chasing a new, harsher trail up my back. I take another deep sip of my wine. “Words are subjective. How do I know our definitions of moderate don’t differ?” “Deal.” Before I can register his response, his hand drops to my ass. He palms it with a rough grip as though he’s been on a tightrope, waiting for centuries. A gasp escapes me. A fire that’s been simmering roars throughout my body. He grabs the hem of my dress, snatching it upward. Cool air hits my skin. A second hand grips me around my stomach, pressing me to him. He grinds his crotch against my naked body, fist gripping a handful of my hair. My head tilts back. His harsh whisper sears my neck, “I haven’t even seen your face, yet I’m touching you like I have no other.” That accent. My eyes roll back at his desperate kneading of my flesh. He grows impossibly harder, bigger, until I’m genuinely worried for myself. He snatches the glass out of my hands, leaving me to set it on the counter. I mourn the loss of his warmth. Spinning around to watch him, I muffle a moan. A thin, black shirt covers his broad back. Strong, wide shoulders taper into a slim waist just begging to be clutched by my nails. Black tailored pants hang off that waist, covering a firm ass. Legs for days taper into shiny leather shoes. His body? Imposing. Lethal. Movements? Dangerous. Any regret I’d felt about being hired for intimacy evaporates. I have no issue having this sensual, hardened man as my first and only client. But still, I dare to imagine he is my crush—my stepbrother. The Russian accent. The thick shoulder-length hair. The overbearing attitude and punishing grip. My eyes slide shut, and for a terrifying second, the man behind me vanishes. In his place is Alexei. I can almost feel the way he used to look at me, with that strange mix of protection and cold indifference. My stomach twists again with a familiar, sickening shame. I'm standing in a penthouse, selling myself to a stranger, and I’m using my stepbrother as a fantasy to get through it. I’m a special kind of broken. My lips tighten around a wince. I shouldn’t want him… not like this. But I can’t help it. And what are the odds I’ve ended up delivered to a Russian hunk, despite my unhealthy obsession with my estranged stepbrother?꧁ Marisella ꧂I walk into the house I grew up in with trepidation.Silence greets me, a heavy premonition in the air.Weeks ago, an intruder had gained access through the kitchen window. I have a key, and I used the door, but I feel just like an intruder.My shower is short and purposeful. I dress up in running shoes, jogging pants, and a jacket.Before hailing an Uber, I jog to the end of the street to clear my head, and while in the car, I feel somewhat more in control.I just received the biggest news of my life, and I’m holding back every damaging thought sticking fingers in my brain.I want to see my friend, apologize and explain the situation to her, and get advice.I miss her, and frankly, her blunt attitude would help me so much.At her apartment building, I run up the stairs with my heart nearly bursting.Finally, someone I can talk to without falling into a life-altering trap. Someone I’m not afraid to show all my colors without flinching under bone-crushing shame.Her door
꧁ Marisella ꧂My eyes peel open, senses returning like memory foam. A color here, texture there. My general position registers on a deep breath, my throat tight on a gulp.Then I remember.Mum. The infection… Alexei.I turn side to side to see I’m alone in the room, on a hospital bed.I’d fainted from exhaustion, and now my mother was alone with Alexei. I can’t let her talk to him.My legs are heavy as lead as I swing them to the floor. And then I sit there, weight braced on my arms as the exhaustion clears like a storm.What had she said? Something about dying.Something about adoption.I freeze.That familiar ache and disbelief rush back into my body with a vengeance.I’m adopted. My mother… is not my real mother.And she’d decided to tell me now.Because she thinks she’s dying, and she wants to give me a chance to…No.That’s not it.A sick suspicion churns my gut.She wouldn’t lie about such a thing. But the circumstances around her confession feel doctored.I brush my palm over m
꧁ Marisella ꧂In person, Elizaveta sucks the air in the hallway and spins it into an icy typhoon around herself.She’s tall. Equal in height to Alexei’s six-something, though she’s wearing heels. Even then, it’s impressive.After a single sweep of her dismissive gaze over me, she scans the hospital hallway with distaste and then turns to Alexei.“Why are we outside?”The spell breaks.I face Alexei too.Without looking at his fiancée, he gestures to her. “Marisella, this is Elizaveta Vasilieva, my fiancée. Elizaveta, this is my sister.”“Stepsister.”Elizaveta’s correction slams into me with the force of a brick.But I don’t have the time or luxury to be shocked or offended. To be anything. My mother is fighting for her life, and I have a plan that requires a straight head.So I smile, even though my joints ache and my head hurts.“It’s so nice to finally meet you. I was wondering when we’d get to meet.” I can’t bring myself to offer a hug or handshake. “I didn’t imagine it would be
꧁ Marisella ꧂Long after Mum and I finish talking, I stare up at the cold, sky-blue ceiling.Even as my awareness dims and sleep hazes my senses, I muse over everything Mum had told me. Everything I’ve learned in the past few weeks.His return. Her recovery. His engagement.The sins of one father come to drag us all to hell.The chair is stiff behind me, and only beeps punctuate the air.He took everything from her. It wouldn’t be fair to let him win. Even in death.The sheer vastness of my mother’s inheritance is baffling. My childhood had been comfortable but tight. That prickly awareness of something wrong with your parent’s relationship prevalent in every moment.Dad’s prolonged absences, the money trouble always on the horizon. Mum’s hard work to keep us firmly middle-class.The face of the sickly boy who’d come to live with us.A sigh.Now Alexei is walking into a cage of a marriage, and Konstantin is probably developing Mum’s land.I can’t let that happen.My muddled mind clear
꧁ Marisella ꧂“Please calm down, Mum, please. How do you—”The hospital room door swings open, and a nurse sweeps in.“What is going on?”Mum and I turn at the sudden interruption, the nurse’s stern face taking us in.I stand up, still holding Mum’s hand. “I, uh… she just got excited. Mum, are you okay?”Mum’s chest rises and falls under her still-shaking palm, but she gives a nod. She breathes through her mouth, her face still etched with a mix of terror and confusion.“Your heart rate is too high. I’ll administer a drug to help you calm down—”“No!” Mum interrupts. “I’m fine. Or I will be. Just let me talk to my daughter first. Please.”The nurse looks at both of us again. “Don’t cause her any more shocks. She’s still under close monitoring.”At my nod, the nurse turns and leaves.The door hasn’t even closed completely when Mum grabs my hand again.Her chin is set, her grip almost too strong. “There’s something I need to tell you.”No kidding. Everyone seems to have secrets that I o
꧁ Marisella ꧂My hands are steady around my phone, but my heartbeat is erratic.I rewind the video and look at Elizaveta Vasilieva once more. Posh. An undeniable beauty with porcelain skin.They look perfect together.I lock my phone and place it gently on the sofa beside me.How long was he planning to hide this for?Why am I finding out on the internet?He’d said our protection had required a different kind of payment, but I hadn’t imagined anything like this.I ease the grip of my fingers around my drawn-up knees. Staring straight ahead, I try to make sense of my position.Alexei had taken such a big step without confiding in me. While I sat here imagining a future with him in it, he’d secured one without me in his.As long as I let him be a savior, I wouldn’t get to hold any power of my own.I’ve been locked up and steered this way and that. The least he can do is let me in on plans that will ultimately affect me.He owes me at least that. Or does he?The storm lets up, the trees







