XAVIER ROCKWELLStriking a conversation with Jordi alone was insanely difficult even when the odds essentially paired me up with him. Not only that I’m feeling a sense of tension every time I’m looking at him but I also feel like he’s itching to slit my throat or probably disembowel me or maybe push me off a cliff. I most probably deserve all of that.I sat with him right after we got our little bag of flour and everything seemed awkward between us. He doesn’t even want to talk to me, let alone smile at me that I had to take a few seconds to muster enough courage.“Ahem...” I don’t have any sort of phlegm or lump in my throat but I purposely cleared my throat loud enough just to gain the confidence that I needed in order to begin this conversation. I already knew I had his attention since he’s been looking at me dead in the eye for quite some time.“What?” He spat.I couldn’t even look at him straight in the eye for a hot minute. Maybe because I was afraid that I might just make thing
JORDI ADKINSThings happened way too fast that I wasn’t given the chance to react or even budge. Xavier pinned me against the locker and the next thing I know; he was already kissing me. Xavier’s wet tongue skillfully slithered all the way inside my mouth. In the depths of my head, I was critically thinking of resisting him yet my body doesn’t seem like it wants to exhibit some sort of resistance. Am I starting to become a slave of this?To be perfectly honest, I haven’t kissed a lot of people before mostly because I haven’t met anyone who’s truly interested in me. As a matter of fact, Xavier was the only person that I’ve kissed so far and I will say, he’s got the skills. His mouth and tongue were aggressive and yet gentle at the very same time.He sucked my lower lip and I am just letting him devour me as if my mouth’s a sweet and slushy mango fruit. It seemed that I am losing oxygen and I don’t know why I’m starting to feel like I’m into it again. Apart from gasping for air, I feel
JORDI ADKINSAm I in a hazy fever dream or everything’s happening in reality? Is Xavier really apologizing for all of the shitty things that he’s done to me? Is he really regretting making my life a living hell? I have never thought of that kind of scenario, not in a million human years but here he is, sitting all calm and serious right in front me.“I’m going to start by saying I’m sorry. I really want to apologize for making your life a living hell.” The words echoed back and forth inside my head. Although I should feel good that he had decided to swallow whatever bull crap his having and finally stepped down from his asshole high horse, I’m still in great shock. I couldn’t bring myself to grasp the situation. I don’t know exactly if I’m more than willing to forget that I wanted to slit his throat, that I wanted to feed him to the lions, that I wanted to just pop him off to existence.“I don’t exactly know how could I make up to you but I’m really really sorry for every single horri
JORDI ADKINSOh boy, was it undoubtedly worthy saying yes to Xavier’s simple favor. He just wanted to talk and yes, the reason why I’m not initially willing to budge in was because I detested him that much. I didn’t realize that me waking up in bed with him fully naked would eventually change the course of our relationship. He just admitted to me that he liked kissing me and should I be flattered? Am I a good kisser even though I’m aware that he’s the only person I’ve kissed so far? Should I feel like I’m a special person for that?Xavier motherfucking Rockwell have had the biggest character curve ball in less than a month and I’m super gagged to the core. One day he was just beating the shit out of me and the next thing I know; he was begging for a kiss. Isn’t that wild? It is really wild and to think that what happened earlier was like some sort of a freaky Friday but it’s on Tuesday was unbelievable.It took me more than three hours before drowsiness visited me and that’s mostly be
JORDI ADKINSXavier’s smile was just bright as the sunshine. I wasn’t expecting that such serene curve hanging on his quite dashy face would make me go insane on the inside. His eyes seemed like they were glistening and his overall aura brought a different energy to the table.I have never seen him like this but yes, I secretly admired him and the seemingly drastic changes. I love that a simple conversation without any certain malice would bring out this bright and friendly looking Xavier.“Xavier!” Jane’s voice echoed subsequently pulling me back to reality.“Ahem... Yeah, that seat’s not taken.” I could feel my chest pumping faster like I’ve been running for quite a mile. I tried to be calm.“Thank you.” Xavier gently placed Billie right next to Jane’s very own bag of flour.“Awww, your baby looked cuuutee.” Jane squealed the instant she saw the face drawn on Billie. “Did you draw that Xavier?”“Yes, I did.”“Yes, he did.” Xavier and I both replied in unison.“Ooookay?” Jane gave us
JORDI ADKINSWhatever happened to the hate that I have amassed for Xavier was slowly being drained by his simple apology. And somehow the weirdest part of this plot twist was all me becoming weak on my knees around Xavier when I’m clearly aware that it’s not healthy. Whoever thinks that being all sort of forgiving towards the person who bullied them for quite a long time is an insane person. That’s exactly me, I am an insane person and honestly, I’m okay with it. This seemed to be leading to something that would change the course of my life and to be perfectly blunt with myself, I’m ready for an adventure.I just don’t have any idea if Jane and Nikki would really understand me. Maybe they’re okay with it, maybe they’re not okay with it. It’s really up in the air. If they’re both trying to be their own woke selves, then I’m horribly fucked.I may have my own reasons for accepting Xavier’s apology and I’m going to stick by that. The hate that I used to have for this ginger head was slow
JORDI ADKINSI was already under the impression that after a relatively long and giddy day, it’s finally time for me to retreat to bed and dream of Xavier Rockwell. Initially, that was my plan and I know it sounds stupid to admit that but Xavier really did make me feel blissful today. However, the man upstairs seemed to have decided to extend this day when my one and only crush, Zacheus Riley showed up.“It’s already ten-thirty. What are you doing here?” I immediately asked the guy the moment I went down to meet him. I couldn’t risk exchanging words with him from my window as if I’m Rapunzel. While Zacheus does look like a hot prince in this modern world, I definitely do not have a long ass blonde hair and I’m not a princess either.“Honestly, I-I don’t even know why I’m here.” He bantered and the strong smell of alcohol immediately invaded my nostrils.“You’re drunk.” I muttered and if I wasn’t very much sleepy, I’d probably had a heart attack knowing that my crush just showed up out
XAVIER ROCKWELL“I guess this is goodbye then.” Bursting with reluctance on the inside, I opened my mouth and spoke nervously breaking the reign of silence. Little did Jordi know, I’m on the verge of shutting down noting that this was the end of the walk.Things between me and Xavier just went from floating on cloud nine to an awkward state. I genuinely enjoyed walking Jordi home even though he almost got ran over by a school bus when I was chasing him. I don’t know if he could read me but I was kind of hoping this won’t be the end of our day. Unfortunately, Jordi does not look like he’s going to invite me inside their house and I do get why he does not want to. Perhaps to him, I’m probably still an asshole and I’m okay with it. I should really work hard on getting on his good graces.“Goodbye? What in the hell are you talking about, Xavier? We’re still going to see each other at school tomorrow.” Jordi chuckled which sounded adorable. I haven’t heard him release such a mirthful laugh