23RD HEARTBEAT

XAVIER ROCKWELL

It’s already past ten-thirty in the evening and I know I should already be asleep by now. I usually don’t get a good night’s rest whenever I’m at home mostly because of all the shitty stuff that’s going around this shitty place. Whenever I’m trying to get some really good sleep, it’s either Hector and my mom are playing loud music or watching TV with loudest volume possible. Sometimes, when they’re not fucking each other’s brains out, they’re fighting and screaming at each other. Now’s probably the time or perhaps to be quite exact, it’s the only time for me to have the rest that I wanted. Not only that Hector’s not here, my mom’s also soundly asleep on the lower bunk.

Seconds and minutes have passed and I just can’t put myself to sleep even when I’ve closed my eyes for a while. I don’t even know if I should count a hundred sheep just to get myself to sleep. However, I just keep on seeing Jordi and I’m certainly aware of the fact that I haven’t stopped thinking about