80TH HEARTBEAT

JORDI ADKINS

The bathroom floor became my ground for solace once again. I thought I have already moved past this era of my life but this day proved I haven’t and I don’t think I will. High school is without a doubt, an extra messy era in everyone’s life. On one end, it could be the happiest years of your life and could be filled with wild and ecstatic adventures. But for most people, it could be the shittiest rollercoaster of a lifetime. One day, you could be giggling and erupting with love bubbles of rainbows and butterflies and then when you wake up the next day, you are shedding tears and wishing the world was a better place. This day was just another one of those shitty days that I have to live through. I feel really cheated by the universe.

The cold water trickling from the shower wasn’t enough to equalize whatever anguish I was feeling on the inside and surely, it wasn’t enough to alleviate it. And as I emerged from the shower forty-five minutes later, I was still panicking abou