Sleep has once again alluded me. My mind won’t stop thinking about leaving the walls. With each birthday I have felt more and more drawn to the lush greenery just on the other side of our protective barrier. I have ached for the freedom to explore. Just knowing there is a big world out there that I am not allowed to see is torture.
The sounds from the street below begin to get louder so I glance at the clock to see if it’s time to start yet another mundane day.
Sure enough it’s 6:44 and my alarm is seconds from going off.
I groan as I turn over and position my hand over the off button. When the blasted machine erupts my hand drops like a weight and Nathan groans like I did moments ago.
“Morning,” I mumble and he rolls over to wrap his arms around my naked body.
“Morning,” he replies groggily and I grin despite the mood I’m in.
At least Nathan get it. He understands my dislike for the city and the routine we call life, but most importantly he agrees. Ever since we were kids going to school he has had my back and agreed with my philosophies. When I argued with the teacher about getting to leave city limits he backed me up. When everyone else said this is the best place in the world for us and we should be thankful to the beasts that protect us he sided with me against them. He knows that I want more. He knows that the world beyond these walls calls to me. He knows I yearn to see the wild lurking right outside our pristine world.
“Are we staying in bed again today,” Nathan asks before nibbling at my earlobe and I giggle before wiggling away.
“I wish, but we both have to work,” I reply as my feet hit the floor.
He grumbles under his breath about not moving from his spot but I hear the bed move as he shifts his weight to follow me.
Every Monday is the same for me. I take a shower while Nathan makes us breakfast. We walk to work past all the other people doing the same thing and we survive. We stay hidden away from the animals that want to suck us dry.
We live in a city that has only a few rules, but there is one big one, never leave. Because if you do leave the protection of the city the blood drinkers will get you. The beasts have agreed to protect the city, but any human that volunteerly leaves is assumed to be suicidal. They don't offer their protection to individuals... not since the city was built anyway.
“See you at home, Hon,” Nathan says before he kisses my lips quickly.
I smile and nod before continuing on the path behind the other people heading to work. As I approach the street that I turn on I let my eyes wonder toward the gate like I do every morning and I pause when I see one of the beasts standing next to our city official. I quickly realize he must be here for the numbers and keep moving.
Every six months they stop to ask about our population. They never come far in, normally a few feet, and they never stay longer than a few minutes. They never have clothes on and their skin is typically dirty. They seem to dislike civilization, but checking the population is too important to stay away.
I shiver as I remember the last time we stopped regulating the birthrate in the city.
The Bloodsuckers are attracted to the scent of blood. The higher the concentration of blood the more they try to get to it.
When I was around five years old, there was a breach. The leaders shut the city down fast, starting with the kids, but it was still a massacre. Nathan’s parents and my parents died that day, along with seventy others, before the beasts could drive them from the city. I still remember the Bloodsucker's chalky white skin and red eyes. I remember hearing their screeches and hisses as they hunted down people. So now we make sure to keep the population between 10,000 and 20,000.
The farther into the city’s center you live, the better, but only the higher class live there. Unfortunately for my family, we aren’t high profile. We were and always will be workers.
"Taylor, you're late again," Ruth practically sings as I walk in.
I roll my eyes and look at the clock. It's exactly 8:01. The stop I took to look at the beast cost me the few seconds I needed to get here right at 8:00.
"That's an hour off your pay," she says, and I nod before walking past her.
She thrives off of backtalk, and I will not feed her need for power. She will never achieve more than she has right now. Docking my pay gives her small life the thrill it needs to be satisfied.
"Morning, Taylor," Diane says as I pass her station, and I smile before falling into my chair.
I look at my sewing machine and sigh. Yesterday I was a few off my quota, so my pay was affected, and now I have lost another full hour. I really need to work fast today. I can't let my mind wander. I have to focus on the material in my hands and not the trees outside.
I sigh as I get to work
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"Have a good day," Nathan calls out as I close the door.
"Not really. It was just another day," I reply loudly and I hear him chuckle.
"Something smells delicious," I say as I walk into the kitchen, and he turns around to examine my face.
"You forgot, didn't you," he says, and I freeze.
Guesses on what today might be zoom through my head.
As I think he watches me closely, and I see the sadness build within his brown eyes with each passing second. I feel terrible, but my brain won't pinpoint the date. I have no idea what day it is. All I know is it is Monday.
"I'm sorry," I whisper, and he nods.
He gives me a sad grin as he places the spatula next to the stove and crosses his arms.
"It's our anniversary, Taylor. I wanted it to be special. I want to talk about our future and when we might submit the application to have a child. We have been living together for two years...I am ready for the next steps, are you," he asks me, and my ears begin to burn as the rest of my body panics.Our gazes hold, and my body begins to overheat. I don't want to lose Nathan, but once we become parents, this is our life. We won't have any adventures. We won't explore the forest together like we talked about as kids.
"Nathan, I...," I start, but he stops me by raising his hand.
"This is it, Taylor. I want a life with you. You can either agree, or we can move on. Which is it going to be," he asks, and my heart rips as my mouth flaps like a fish.
"I...I...What about leaving the walls," I whisper, and his eyes widen.
"Leave the walls? Taylor, even if we do, we have to come back. This is where humans live. This is where we are safe. We can grow and be with the ones we love here...Can you see the beauty out there and still come back? If we have our adventure and risk our lives so you can see what's out there, will you be able to settle down then," Nathan demands, and I swallow before nodding.
"Yes. That's all I want. I want to see it. After that, I will be able to live happily. I won't have these burning questions anymore...And I will get to tell our child about our adventure," I whisper, and he smiles.
"Okay. We will do it. Tomorrow at noon. That's the safest time. We already have the UV flashlights. We will stay out there for a few hours and then come back," Nathan says, and I smile as excitement replaces my fear.
I run and jump into his arms eagerly. He laughs before placing his warm lips on mine.
This is all I ever wanted—a life with Nathan and an adventure past the walls.
"Good night, sleep tight...," Nathan whisper sings, and the guard twitches. "Shhh," I hiss aggressively, and Nathan holds his hands up in surrender. He smiles at me, and I roll my eyes at his silly nature. I look back at the gate and watch the guard closely. He has been drifting in and out of sleep for the past five minutes, but he hasn't truly konked out enough for us to slip through the only gate not hooked up to the alarm system. A few more minutes pass, and my legs scream out in protest. We can't stay crouched here anymore. Someone is going to see us soon. It's now or never, and I refuse to let it be never. "Ready," I whisper as I look back at Nathan again. He nods, and we slowly creep forward. The guard doesn't move as we slip past him and lift the thick steel locking arm. Nathan pushes the door forward, and I squeeze past eagerly. He follows after a second, and the door clicks closed. "Did you place the stone," I ask, and Nathan nods. "Yeah. The arm won't
She carries me away from my savior swiftly and directly into a cave. I don't see much of the landscape around me before everything goes dark, but there isn't one tree in sight, just flat earth. I guess they are aware of the dangers from above, unlike we were. "Simple rules. You will never learn," she grumbles to herself as she walks in the dark. I tense up as I feel her annoyance being transferred through her grip. She is angry about my actions, just like he was. But we didn't ask for them to save us. We knew the rules...I knew them. Nathan wasn't saved, but he knew what could happen. They chose to save me. I didn't force them or even ask to be saved. They could have let me die with him. My heart wouldn't be shattered right now if they had. This crippling pain and grief wouldn't be twisting my stomach. "I knew what going outside meant. Your people didn't need to save me," I snap suddenly, and before I can react, she drops me on the floor. I cry out as my butt-bone rams the compac
"Human, come," Giulia says, and I follow behind her in silence. We haven't spoken since she left me in the room with the underground spring. I have been too upset to speak. Even when she handed me new clothes, I was silent. I didn't thank her for the clean clothes or even ask how they acquired them. I honestly don't care. I am too emotionally drained now.Being alone in that water only allowed me to think. I thought of nothing but Nathan and the leaders of our city. By the time I knew I had to get out of the water, my heart was in tatters. I follow behind her as she travels down the hall as best as I can, but the tunnel is dark. I am constantly tripping and bumping into her back to catch myself. She doesn't utter a word when I bump into her, and I don't, either. After about five minutes of blind torture, I walk straight into her side. For some reason, she stopped without even warning me. She quickly steadies me by placing her hand on my shoulder and turns me to face something. "Th
The Oracle...man, our teachers loved talking about that beast. The connection she supposedly has with their creator lets her do impossible things. Like foreseeing the future and causing enemies pain. She is supposed to be as old as the world, which isn't surprising since the Lycans are immortal. Nathan used to joke around and say the beasts like being heroes and that's why the Oracle hasn't gotten rid of the bloodsuckers herself. Oh, Nathan. What am I going to do without you? You kept me grounded in the world. You were the person I knew I could depend on after we lost our parents. You were my safe place. I am alone now, all alone in an underground Beast den. My chest begins to burn, and my eyes sting, but I fight back the emotions that threaten to unleash again. I have cried so much that I am exhausted, but I can't sleep. I know it is almost morning, but I still can't close my eyes. "Human," Giulia says softly, and I look over at her. She has been studying me the past few hours we
I shift uncomfortably as I get hotter and hotter. I feel like I am lying in a furnace. I am sweaty, and my pajamas are sticking to my drenched skin. We never let the house get this warm. Something must be wrong. "Nate, something is wrong with the air coolant. It's hot," I mutter as I roll over. When I open my eyes to see if Nathan heard me, I don't see my familiar bedroom or my awesome boyfriend. I see dirt and smoldering cinders where a fire was. "Get up," someone says frantically, and I lift my head to see the wild female I forgot about from last night. "You will burn yourself. Get up," she practically yells as my brain still can't catch up, and suddenly, I am in the air. Thick muscular arms are wrapped around my torso so tightly that I feel like I might snap. The grip doesn't last long because, within half a second, I am standing on the other side of the room with a massive naked sexy God in front of me. He doesn't even speak to me before lifting my arms and
My day has been so boring. Alessia and I spoke a bit, but for the most part, she has been interacting with other Lycans who come into the room. None of them paid me any attention, so I just watched them communicate while remaining silent. I figure there is a reason they aren't acknowledging me, and I don't want to make anyone upset.The Alpha hasn't come by, which is bothering me. Every time I hear someone come in, I look over in hopes that it is him, but it never is. I don't know why I want to see him again so badly. He hasn't been nice to me once since carrying me to this underground prison. Maybe I am just curious about the Lycan leader. When I am not searching for the Alpha, I daydream about Nathan and what I could have done differently to save him. But even in most of my fantasies, I fail to save him from his fate. There was just nothing I could do. I am only human, and the bloodsuckers are stronger than me.Leaving the walls was a terrible idea. I don't know why I had to see
On the way back, his strides are slower, and I know he is purposely walking beside me to protect me. He seems more nervous than he is letting on.His eyes keep looking at the sun, scanning our surroundings, and judging my pace. I feel anxious every time I sense his eyes on my legs. It's as if my pace is insulting him. I don't want him to be angry at me, so I swallow and pick up my pace. "I am sorry I walk slow," I whisper, and he grunts a little. "All humans are slow. I am only worried about your pace currently because the sun sets soon," he replies after a moment, and I take a risk by looking up at him. He meets my curious gaze, and I quickly look back down. I don't want to offend him or ogle him like I did earlier. He saved my life. I need to respect him. He has given me a clear timeline of when I will be going home. He hasn't been the most hospitable, but he is a beast, or I guess Lycan. "Why do they teach us to call you beasts? I mean, it's clear that offends you. Have
The noises coming from the halls are loud and have been that way for a while. I haven't seen much furniture in any of the rooms I have been taken to, but the Lycans are definitely packing. "We are almost ready," Giulia says as she finally returns. When I got back to Alessia last night, Giulia was gone. Alessia told me Alpha sent her and a few others out to ensure those eleven were the only thirsty ones in the area. The rest of the night had been quiet, and I had fallen asleep against Alessia's leg. She had sung a beautiful Italian song, and I had drifted off. "What about the Oracle? I thought she was going to be here this morning," I ask as I dust off my bottom. Giulia nods as Alessia grabs the only things in the room and puts them in a bag. "She is. She is going to meet us there. She will most likely beat us, in fact, since we will be carrying so much," Giulia says, and my curiosity spikes. I bite my lip, and she tilts her head before smirking. "What else wou