서재
검색
홈 / Romance / The Billionaire Married Me, Then Forgot How to Love Me / 053 This Isn’t About Me

공유

053 This Isn’t About Me

작가: Anney GW
last update 최신 업데이트: 2025-06-23 11:12:50

(Serena)

The visit with the baby brings feelings I’m not sure what to do with.

It wrecks me. Quietly. Invisibly.

But it also brings hope and a fierce need to protect new life, any new life.

He’s not James’ baby. I know that. I haven’t forgotten it for a second. He’s not my baby either.

But he still feels like part of the invisible forces trying to steer me to an unknown destination. This baby will remain a part of James. Not biologically, emotionally. James showed up when Savannah’s whole world caved in.

He knew what he was signing up for. He’d just been through the loss of our own pregnancy. Yet, he didn’t hesitate to take on Savannah and her whole world of trouble. More than that, he invited her and her trouble back into his life.

He called her when we lost our baby. To vent feelings to her that he couldn’t vent to me.

He has told me that Savannah being in his life as a friend, as someone he cares for a great deal is non-negotiable. If I want James to be my husband, I have to accep
이 책을 계속 무료로 읽어보세요.
QR 코드를 스캔하여 앱을 다운로드하세요
잠긴 챕터
이전 챕터 다음 챕터

최신 챕터

  • The Billionaire Married Me, Then Forgot How to Love Me   072 Okay, We have A Plan

    (Serena)It’s nearly midnight when I pull into the driveway.The mansion is lit like always, elegant, glowing, but something is different this time. She’s in there. James message me all the details as they happened.It’s hard to believe that she is actually living in my home. I mean, okay, this place could house a small nation and not encroach on our space, it’s so big.But Savannah is different. She could live in another state and still encroach on our space.Savannah. Sleeping in the guest wing with a private medical team stationed outside her suite like we’re prepping her for a royal tour instead of stabilizing a woman who just attacked her nurses.I kill the engine, sit for a moment.My hands are still warm from holding the baby at the hospital.He fell asleep while I was burping him, tiny, beautiful. So soft. So full of need. I pressed my lips to his little temple before I left. I couldn’t help it.But Savannah has been cooperative since she got here apparently.I have to wonder

  • The Billionaire Married Me, Then Forgot How to Love Me   071 Things Were Almost Okay

    (Serena)Then Wes leans back in his chair. “So hey, that new place last week. The food was awesome, wasn’t it?”“Awesome, yes. What did you have? I had the chicken salad, and it was really amazing. Haylee had steak and sweet potato fries.” I ask him.“I had the lamb shanks. Heaven…”Mother looks sharply at him.“Not as good as yours, Mom. Don’t worry.”“I wasn’t.” She replies with a sweet smile. But we never let that smile fool us. It means business.“Nothing beats this food. Ever,” James says.“Suck-hole,” Wes says to James with a grin. “Anyway, Big Sis, you and Haylee didn’t have to ditch me and Ronan before dinner the other night.”I grin. “Sisters before misters. Always.”“What happened to brothers before others?” Wes asks with a smile.“That comes second place.”James glances between us. “Is this… something I should be worried about?”“Only if you plan to break her heart again,” Wes says, smiling, but not joking.Mom brings out dessert, her stress-baking classic: chocolate puddin

  • The Billionaire Married Me, Then Forgot How to Love Me   070 Potatoes Don’t Care

    (Serena)He wasn’t here before me, but he is here now.The doorbell rings.“Just be nice, guys, please. He’s been trying really hard lately.”“Love shouldn’t have to try hard, Serena.”“Mom! Please. Give him a chance to breathe.”Mom opens the door before I can. She doesn’t even pretend to be impressed. “Well, well. Look what the cat dragged in.”He’s standing there, a bottle of wine in one hand and two bunches of flowers in the other. His smile is guarded. He knows this is enemy territory and still showed up anyway.“I said I’d be here,” he says. “Ladies, I brought you flowers.” He hands a bunch to my mother and one to me.“Lucky you finally turned up, Serena was beginning to look disappointed.”“I try not to make a habit of disappointing Serena twice in one week,” he replies with a small grin. Hoping to lighten the moment, no doubt.I give an awkward little laugh in support.“Mm. Maybe next time aim for ‘at all’ instead,’” she replies without missing a beat.He has the good sense to

  • The Billionaire Married Me, Then Forgot How to Love Me   069 Something Doesn’t Add Up

    (Serena)James didn’t come home last night.I keep telling myself not to spiral. He texted. He said Savannah had a breakthrough. That she agreed to see the psychologist and they made progress.It should be a good thing, right?It means maybe she’s one step closer to bonding with her baby, to not dumping him entirely. It means James showed up, he stayed, he helped. Same as I did when I did her makeup and hair.Human kindness, right?Still, all I can think about is how it used to be.When he’d roll over and pull me closer before I even opened my eyes. Before she came back.Before everything became a test of how much space I’m willing to give the woman who’s slowly gutting my life.I push the thought away. Today isn’t about wallowing.It’s about control. It’s about dinner with my family.And I have a ton of stuff to do to get this formal dining room ready for my first solo dinner party in there. I have plenty to do without overthinking what James is doing and why.The formal dining roo

  • The Billionaire Married Me, Then Forgot How to Love Me   068 I’ve Made My Choice

    (James)Savannah is still sobbing so hard I can barely understand her.“I can’t do this,” she cries. “I can’t… I hate myself. I hate how I feel. It’s not normal. Why can’t I even look at him? What is wrong with me?”“Savannah, breathe. You’re not alone in this.”“I’m not a mother. I don’t deserve him. Maybe I shouldn’t even be here anymore.” Her voice breaks. “If they make me, I’m going to do something… They can’t make me see him.”The hair rises on the back of my neck. Does she mean to herself or the baby?The doctors are in and out. They’re worried. Talk of observation. Maybe even transfer to the psych ward. Savannah won’t stop apologizing, won’t stop blaming herself.“They all hate me,” she says, hollow. “They hate me because I can’t love this baby. Especially Serena.”“Don’t say that. Serena has been here helping you. She’s worried about you,” I say. “So am I.”“No one can fix this,” she says.“You’ll be okay. We’ll work through this, Savannah. I promise.” I take her in my arms an

  • The Billionaire Married Me, Then Forgot How to Love Me   067 The Call I Didn’t Want

    (Serena)My cell phone buzzes just as I sit down.Savannah.I stare at the screen. For a second, I think about letting it go to voicemail. I’ve been doing enough. More than enough.But then I think of the baby. And I answer.“Hello?”She doesn’t speak at first, just breathes. Then there’s a sharp, choked inhale.“Savannah?”Her voice is broken. “I shouldn’t have called. I’m sorry.”“What’s going on?”“I can’t do this,” she says. “I can’t be this… this thing everyone expects me to be. A mother. A good person. I’m not.”“Savannah, calm down. Take some breaths. Ring the buzzer for help.”“I don’t feel anything for that baby. And when I try… it makes me feel sick. What kind of person does that make me?”Her voice cracks. A sob sounds out.I close my eyes. “You’re not well. You need help.”“I hate myself. They tried. They took me to the ward, I panicked. I couldn’t even look. I can’t.”I just don’t know what else to say.She continues, “I feel like I’m going to scream or tear my skin off.

더보기

다른 추천

좋은 소설을 무료로 찾아 읽어보세요
GoodNovel 앱에서 수많은 인기 소설을 무료로 즐기세요! 마음에 드는 책을 다운로드하고, 언제 어디서나 편하게 읽을 수 있습니다
앱에서 책을 무료로 읽어보세요
앱에서 읽으려면 QR 코드를 스캔하세요.
DMCA.com Protection Status