The Billionaire Married Me, Then Forgot How to Love Me のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 1 - チャプター 10

(Serena)I step out from behind the velvet curtain, and there he is.James Hale. My billionaire husband.My heart skips the way it always does when I see him waiting like this—cool, confident, owning the entire boutique without even trying. He’s sitting back in the plush private lounge like it was built for him.His dark eyes lock on me, and the corner of his mouth lifts.That look. The one that always makes me feel like I’m the only woman in the world.I smile, even though I feel... tight inside. Tense.Because I haven’t told him.I haven’t said the words: I’m pregnant again.After the miscarriage a few months ago, we both shut down.I can’t help touching my hand to my stomach.Still flat. Still nothing to see. But I know there is a baby growing inside of me.I told myself I’d wait until I was further along before I said anything this time.To wait a little longer before I get his hopes up. Before I get my hopes up…“You’re going to ruin lives in this red dress,” James says, stand

(Serena)“James, you never told me Savannah was back! What a wonderful surprise. Oh, she’s just so stunning, isn’t she? Pregnancy really suits her!” Margot gushes.James tenses beside me. “I thought you’d already know.”“Never mind. I must go say hello. And don’t worry, Serena dear, once I get the secret to stay pregnant from her, I’ll let you know.” With that remark, she’s gone to greet Savannah, leaving me feeling like being punched in the gut. That’s what she said to her daughter-in-law who lost a baby not 6 months ago.My eyes sting with tears. How can any person be so cruel?James squeezes my hand. “I’m sorry. She shouldn’t have said that.”Don’t apologize for her, defend me.“Serena! James! Surprise!” Savannah’s smile is deadly as she waves. “I was feeling lonely, so I thought I’d take you up on your invitation after all, James.”“I never heard him ask you…” I say.“Oh, not today. He asked me last week when we had lunch.”So they have been talking since last week.***I’m try

(Serena)I step back. Our special place. How stupid was I? He’d been there already, with her. She’s even hijacked our honeymoon. How am I supposed to not be upset about that?He took me somewhere he’d already been. Somewhere he’d already made memories with her. Somewhere that was supposed to be special to us and turned out to be…Leftovers.“Are you guys okay? Serena, you’re awfully quiet…” Savannah asks so innocently. “Is it something I said? Oh, stupid me, I shouldn’t have mentioned our first time, should I? Sorry Serena. But it’s just a silly memory, we were in college. It’s a lifetime ago…”“Can you just stop!” I shouldn’t raise my voice but I can’t help it. James looks surprised. “Serena… you can’t be angry at Savannah. She didn’t know I’d taken you there for our honeymoon.”“I’m the one that should’ve known you’d been there already,” I say to him.She looks surprised and she sets the picture against the wall. “Your honeymoon!? James, how could you? Oh, wow. No wonder you’

(James)The hospital waiting room gave me time to think about Serena and starting a family. I want kids with Serena. I only ever feel this way about her. I want to have little me and Serenas running around.But isn't it just selfish to let Serena get pregnant again so soon and risk another loss close after the first loss?Serena needs me to look out for her right now.I did agree to keep trying with her. We haven’t been using protection. I thought we were ready, and that being pregnant again would help mend things. But seeing how threatened Serena is by Savannah. How emotional she’s been…Maybe we aren’t ready yet. But if she were to get pregnant soon and then suffer another loss, well, I’m not sure she would mentally handle that.I do love Serena. More than anything. I do understand how Savannah being here feels threatening to her. But Savannah doesn’t mean any harm. She’s trying to get her life straight, and she’s scared.Of course she is going to cling to me. We shared so much

(Serena)“Your mother told me,” I say, keeping my voice steady. “The monogrammed set she gave us. It was never for us, it was commissioned months before… for you and Savannah.”It still makes my stomach turn saying it out loud. Remembering that look on her face.He stares at me like I have two heads. Like the words don’t make sense coming from my mouth. Like I’m crazy. But I know what I heard. I know what she meant.“All of it. The reception. The cake. The gift registry. Margot said I should be grateful it wasn’t wasted. That she never had time to rebook it all. She needed to act fast to show the media solidarity. That it was lucky we have the same initials.”James stops pacing and his eyes meet mine. I see a realisation in there. “Oh God… she literally just said the same to me at the hospital about not having to change the monograms. I thought she was joking.”“Did you know she did this, James? I swear if you lie to me this time…”Please. Just tell me the truth. Stop making me guess.