Prologue

Prologue

"Hi Loise!" Carla greeted me. I smiled at her and greeted her too. Of all the employees here, she's the only one who's nice to me. The other women here can only see me with very high eyebrows. I didn't do something wrong, but I guess no matter how good you are people will always have something to say about you.

I just continued my walk to my cubicle. I need money more, than asking them about their problem about me. I don't have an energy to have a confrontation with them, If they're mad at me so be it. As long as I knew myself I didn't do something wrong to them.

I was so oblivious of my work that I didn't know It was already morning, my shift was only until 6am. After fixing my things I already left the building. I walked 5 minutes to get on the jeep. I remember the first time I commuted, I don’t know how. I don't even know what happened. I almost got lost because the jeep I rode was wrong but thankfully someone helped me so I was able to go home. Desperate to survive in this world, I learned to observed my surroundings and the people around me and learned to adjust.

Fortunately, I got on board right away, I haven't filled up yet because it's too early. Seeing the corner with us I quickly went up and down. I first bought a bread at the bakery on the corner before walking home. After years of living in this kind of place, I have also become accustomed to the quiet of the whole place.

I smiled after seeing the cute little girl outside hugging her teddy bear while definitely waiting for someone. She's still wearing her pajamas and her hair is still messy, obviously she just woke up but is already outside the door. She's yawning and still sleepy. Her face lit up when she saw me walking towards her. She instantly ran towards me.

Aw my cute little happy pill.

Just seeing her face makes me happy. She makes me relax.

"Good morning baby ..." I kissed her forehead. She's hugging my knees and looking at me. Her eyes always reminds me of him. She definitely had all his facial features. Unfair how she only got my fair skin. Nevertheless I still love this beautiful gift I ever had.

"Good morning mommy ..." She was still sleepy so I picked her up and kissed her on the cheek. She leaned her fat cheek on my shoulder. She's facing my neck.

"How was your sleep? Did you miss mommy?" I asked her. I sat in the chair in the living room and hugged him. She put her little arms around my neck and embraced me tighter. I smiled of her small gestures. I brushed her hair with my fingers while gently rubbing her back.

"I dreamed about daddy ..." She said softly which stopped me. "I never mentioned him to her but I guess there's something that we can't control. I never mentioned him because I knew we're better without him. And Lauren never ask me, but I knew deep inside she also wants to meet his Dad. But I just can't, I knew what he's capable of. He'll move heaven and earth and be the evil itself.