ALEXANDER’S POV
The magnificently carved doors swing open at the gentle push on its handle. The lightning from the room makes the gloom in my eyes fade off.
Gold. The new theme for the dining room. It looks like royalty, seeing the heavy gold curtains slightly spread apart, revealing the darkening sky and misty floating clouds; the chandelier hanging beautifully atop, the scented candles on every candle stand and the chairs emitting sparkles at the reflection of the light.
The huge table in the middle of the room seems smaller with all kinds of dishes and desserts laid on it. It has always been this way for as long as I can remember except for the change of colors every forth-night: purple, gold, silver, green, white and rarely, black. They seem like a pattern of circle, going round and changing with the use of servants and helps.
The sound of busy cutleries, delightful conversations and laughters fill my ears. I feel no bubble as I use to because nothing has been exciting for me this few days.
I try not to meet the gaze of my grandparents and my sisters as I walk boldly into the exquisitely furnished dining room,to my usual seat, opposite Grandfather's.
"Good evening, everyone." I nod my head to all before taking my seat.
"How are you, son?" Grandfather raises his head.
"Very well."
I return the smiles coming from Grandmother and my sisters with a curt grin. I have lost the appetite to see their faces after the meeting with my grandparents.
One of the kitchen help steps forward to serve my meal.
"What would you like, sir?" She inquires, her white shiny apron against her flowery dress.
I stare at her absentmindedly,
"Four drumsticks and sausages, first." I eat much until lately.
"That is quite a portion." Grandmother clears her throat, "Eat healthy, honey."
I nod my head, not giving any further instruction to the kitchen help.
Her look screams a polite 'Do I add more?'
"That's all." She places the plate before me, filling the glass with water.
Annabel breaks the short silence,
"Gran, I would like to take your car tomorrow."
"What is happening tomorrow?" Grandmother asks.
"A friend's anniversary. The SUV would suit my outfit." She winks.
"Why would you want to take Grandfather’s car? For show off?" Georgia narrows her eyes.
"Really? You're such a nosy ass!"
"You should consider taking Grandmother's sapphire ring too." She gives a sarcastic throw.
Annabel hiss in disgust.
"I would give you on one condition." Grandfather speaks after swallowing.
She is tearfully excited, waiting for the next words.
"You would not bash it. Not a blotch. Not a scratch."
"She can never!" Georgia exclaims.
"Oh! Shut your mouth," She turns to Grandfather, "I promise."
"Good." He says in between mouthful.
I eat at a slow pace, thinking about the children that will be at the table with us in less than a year. How cute yet, sickening.
A bunch of thoughts run through my head and I barely notice when my sisters exit the dining room.
"Alexander," Grandfather clinked his glass with a fork. I turn to him slowly, "You seem lost in thoughts."
"I'm alright." I pick at the end of the sausage.
"Talk to us, if there is anything at all." He clears his throat.
"Hmm…" I smile, chewing on the sausage.
"Honey, I have news for you." Grandmother voice lowers, "Good news, regardless."
"Okay?" I look at her.
She signals the stationed helps, "You may leave."
They bow and walk out, their feet hardly making a sound against the floor.
After the sound of the shut doors, she proceeds:
"I'm sure you must have been worried about the surrogacy. There is no need to be. The surrogate is doing just fine. The fetus is growing well. She has undergone her check-up for the week."
Grandfather added happily, "There is progress."
"And the nurses are doing a great job." Her lips widen with a smile.
She continues, "The first installment has been paid. I made sure she is comfortable. She was taken to the mall to get everything she needed for herself and her family. This is the inception and I'm happy about it already."
I can not help but let out a chuckle and a sigh until I laugh out loud like a maniac.
"What's the matter?" Grandmother's countenance switches.
More chuckles, more sighs. Both of them stare at me in surprise. I can not hide my bemusement.
"Whatever this is, must be a joke, right?" I ask, waving my fork in the air.
"I am beginning to understand that the surrogacy is for your own interest and not mine! You pull the stunt, you pay for it, you do what you do. I do not even know the female who has my sperm in her."
"Be calm at once!" Grandmother's brows crease, "This decision is for your good. And we are incognito in this case and so she is. You don't have to know her, she doesn't have to know us. I am handling it just fine."
"If you are in my position, you would know how bad this is." I dab the edge of my mouth and dump the napkin on the table.
I shake my head wondering if this will come to an end.
"Have a nice evening." I gently stand up, shifting the chair backwards to make a screeching sound.
Grandmother gave a tired sigh, “Alexander. Do not leave.”
“And that is an order, young man.” Grandfather adds, his eyes peering into mine.
I stop in my tracks and stare at the both of them in unbelief.
“It was enough that you went on without my consent to get my sperm and to get me a surrogate. Making me a father against my own will. I am not in the space to jubilate with you for anything. It is your wish not mine so, enjoy the process. Except, perhaps, you would want to show me this woman.” I swallow hard and walk out of the dining hall, half hoping the anger I feel doesn’t follow me to my room.
ALEXANDER'S POVI toss restlessly on my bed. Sleep is now my enemy, afraid of enveloping my eyes even for a minute. I stretch to put on the lamp.Its soft glow encircles my bedroom, making the curtains look like the hanging skirts of ancient men. I move forward to shifting the thick curtains aside, leaving the curtain linens untouched.The faint rays of the full moon tears through them. My room feels dark and at the same time, lightened. I lay back, covered in moonlight and lamp light.For weeks, my mind feeds on unease. My pride has been injured. Everything tastes meaningless. I barely eat breakfast and dinner with my family.Few days ago, Grandmother's voice made me stop right in my track. I had no idea she was there. She probably waited in the dark, waiting patiently for me."Alex honey, why have you become so distant?"I bet she hadn't washed her mouth.I turn to find her face."Don't bother searching for me, speak.""Nothing. I need my space.""I'd assume you are working towards
EMMA’S POV"Is there a problem, Emma?" Nurse Stella raises her head from the computer, with that warm smile always stuck on her face.The urge to ask her becomes stronger, maybe it is because I find her endearing smile comforting.Torn between professionalism and my crazy inquisitive mind, in hesitation, I nod my head in the negative."Not at all." I give a curt smile."Alright. Give me few minutes and I'll print out something for you." She stands up from her chair and made for the door.As soon as the door closes, I check for any camera. I am not sure but I feel I am being watched. I almost reach for the computer in an attempt to search through the files for any name attached to mine—it could be the intended parents—and then, I hear footsteps.I withdraw my hands, acting as though I just cleaned a speck from the computer.Phew. I gasp, grateful I did not do more than that.Nurse Stella walks in gracefully to her seat."I'm back. I hope I'm punctual." She smiles."Of course." I retur
EMMA’S POV"Mum, how are you feeling?" I sit beside her on the plush couch, hanging her a bowl of chicken soup spiced with vegetables."I feel better," She says, letting out a small smile, "thank you, Emma." She scoops some soup into her mouth.I heave a sign of relief knowing that we no longer live in that tight house with a kitchenette. After the first installment, I paid for mum's complete health care, paid for the spacious house we now live in,—a three bedroom bungalow, furnished with nice couches, springy beds, ventilators and a large kitchen—started a personal saving plan, stocked the storage and refrigerator with food supplies.For a moment, I feel alive. Being able to take care of our needs is a relief but the price—surrogacy journey—is one I have to face alone. I haven't had the courage to tell my mother about this deal."Work is paying off well." Mum asks in between thick coughs.I scratch the sudden itch in my hair, "Yes. Plus savings. It was tough but we did it." I end wit
ALEXANDER’S POVMy phone rings continuously.Who the hell would call me by this time? I doubt if it is work calls because I made it an announcement: "No calls at 10 pm."I stretch my hands to the bedside drawer, the thick grey duvet falls off, exposing my hairy chest and briefs as I shuffle my fingers in search of my phone."Oh, Stephan." I grunt. Maybe he's around. I dial his number, hoping he does not take his call."Man, this is past 10 pm." I say as soon as I hear his voice over the phone."Yeah, I know. I'm at your place.""Are you mad at your bed? Do you ever sleep?" "I do. Not just as early as you do." He chuckles."Oh, heavens!""I'm downstairs. Either you meet me here or I come in there."I throw the phone alongside my body, yawning. I am extremely tired. Not because of today’s endless supervision. I am exhausted because of the situation I find myself in.I drift off to sleep only to hear series of banging on my door, each bang getting louder. Enraged, I get up from the bed,
ALEXANDER’S POVThe magnificently carved doors swing open at the gentle push on its handle. The lightning from the room makes the gloom in my eyes fade off.Gold. The new theme for the dining room. It looks like royalty, seeing the heavy gold curtains slightly spread apart, revealing the darkening sky and misty floating clouds; the chandelier hanging beautifully atop, the scented candles on every candle stand and the chairs emitting sparkles at the reflection of the light.The huge table in the middle of the room seems smaller with all kinds of dishes and desserts laid on it. It has always been this way for as long as I can remember except for the change of colors every forth-night: purple, gold, silver, green, white and rarely, black. They seem like a pattern of circle, going round and changing with the use of servants and helps.The sound of busy cutleries, delightful conversations and laughters fill my ears. I feel no bubble as I use to because nothing has been exciting for me this
EMMA’S POVReally. It would be nice to be in attendance. I can only grin at the handwritten note at the back of the flier.My eyebrows lift up in realization as I turn to the front page. My eyes widen at every detail, ideas lighting up in my mind.I could not help but pace up and down my room, thinking of taking up this chance. The money is huge even when paid in installments. This could mean a whole lot of change for mum's health and Hilda's fees.I take my phone and do a quick research. I breathe in, my face pressed to the wall. Thoughts of what Mother would say envelopes me but, this decision is for her wellbeing too.I jump on my bed with my hands reaching for my phone. I copy the email address and commence with the main application. My hands wobble as I type, wiping off and making corrections.Eventually my text reads,Willoughby Clinic, I am writing to express my heartfelt interest in becoming a gestational surrogate, providing the precious gift of parenthood to intended parent