LOGINLAURA
Grace's funeral was today. As promised, Xavier sent a car for me; a Mercedes car with tinted windows. The drive down to the venue was quiet and I sat in the back seat wearing the only black dress I owned. Compared to the shiny black leather seats in the car, it felt like I was wearing rags.
The funeral was holding at a church cathedral on the north side. I haven't been to this part of Chicago before. This was the wealthy, expensive division and my mouth fell open as I regarded the skyscrapers and the beautiful horticulture lining the streets. This was where people like Xavier lives.
We pulled up to the cathedral and I was surprised to see the crowd milling about the entrance. I thought it crazy that this amount of people showed up for her funeral but not one of them visited while she was in the clinic. Hundreds of people in designer black clothes stood around talking in small groups. I recognized some of them from television. There was a senator, and a popular news anchor, I also saw the CEO of a renowned tech company. I felt small in my petty dress, I didn't know belong to this lifestyle.
The driver opened the door for me and I came out slowly, a few people looked my way, then removed their gaze.
I walked towards the cathedral entrance and that was when I saw Xavier.
His intimidating form stood at the top of the stairs and he was surrounded by cruel looking men in black suits. They should be his bodyguards. The longer I stared at him, the more I drooled. His black suit fit him perfectly. His black hair was styled away from his face bringing out his sculpted angles. Even from this distance, I could see how handsome he was. Butterflies fluttered in my tommy.
The men standing around him had this dangerous aura. They all had scars on their faces and I recalled what my adoptive father used to warm me about when I was growing up. These were the mafia.
Xavier and I locked gazes. He didn't smile ate or nod at me, he just looked at me for a moment before he turned to the man with the scar.
"Laura!"
I turned around to see my adoptive sister, Jennifer with my adoptive father, Alex. She looked stunning in a designer black dress that brought out her hazel eyes. Her makeup was flawless. She always knew how to make an entrance.
"Jennifer," I said. "Dad."
Alex nodded at me but he didn't speak. He barely spoke to me unless it was important. Meanwhile Jennifer had a lot to say. "What are you doing here, you peasant." Her voice was filled with disdain. "This is a private funeral."
"Grace Blackwell was my personal patient, I was invited by her family."
Jennifer laughed, but it was in pure mockery. "Of course, always the goody two shoes. Treating wealthy families for minimum wage." She tutted, as her gaze regarded me from my head down to my feet.
"Jennifer" Alex said quietly. "This is the wrong place to do this."
She scrunched her nose. "Why not here? I want to know what she is doing at the funeral of Chicago's wealthiest woman. Well, maybe you're here because you're her nurse and you want a generous tip."
I sighed. "Not everyone is like you, Jennifer. I'm not after anything."
"Sure you're not," she scoffed as she came closer, her voice threatening. "I saw the way you were looking at Xavier earlier on. Stay away from Xavier. Do you hear me?"
Before I could ask what she meant by that, she spun on her heels and sashayed away, her father trailing her at the back. I stood there feeling I'd been slapped.
The funeral service was long because everyone had a thing or two to say about Grace's accomplishments, her charity work, her kind heart and her love for her family. People cried and so did I, but for different reasons. I cried because Grace had been so nice to me when no one else was. She looked out for me and that is why she tried to give me a way out, even if it meant forcing her son into a marriage he didn't want.
After the service, everyone moved to the cemetery for the burial. I stayed in the back of the crowd. From the back, I could see Xavier standing in the front with a woman who looked like him. She was probably his sister. Beside him, stood a man who had his stature and build, probably his brother too.
When it was over, people started moving to their cars. I turned to leave but then someone touched my arm.
"Miss Grey." It was one of those mafia men who's good with Xavier earlier. "Mr. Blackwell wants to see you."
"Now?"
He nodded gravely.
I followed him to the back of the cathedral. We stopped at a heavy oaken door and he knocked.
"Come in," Xavier's gruff voice sounded from inside. The man opened the door and we stepped into a huge private study.
Xavier stood near a desk by the window, holding a thick leather portfolio.
"Leave us," he waved the man away. He closed the door behind me and I stood alone with him.
"Sit." Xavier commanded. I sat quickly. I was terrified of him. He remained standing and when he looked down at me, I felt small.
"We need to discuss the terms of our arrangement." He opened the portfolio and pulled out a stack of papers. He handed them over to me. "Read them very carefully."
My hands shook as I took the papers. I could barely understand the legal language. Then I saw the digits and my mouth fell open. I was entitled to fifty thousand dollars a month for allowance. I was to move into the mansion at Lincoln park, I was entitled to two cars. And then five million dollars to start up my private medical clinic. I looked up at him, dumbfounded.
"The marriage will last two years." Xavier said. "We'll live separately. You'll have your own residence while I'll have mine. After two years, we'll divorce quietly. You'll receive a settlement of ten million dollars."
"If there is any case of infidelity from either parties the marriage will be terminated. The unfaithful party receives nothing."
My hands were shaking so badly I almost dropped the papers. He noticed and his expression hardened.
"I know why you befriended my mother. This is what you wanted all along, that when she dies, she'll leave you something in her will."
I glared at him. "That is not true.'
"No? Then why are your hands shaking? You are looking at money you've never seen in your life. You're practically salivating."
"I'm shaking because I'm scared" I snapped, my fists clenching in anger. "Some psycho has been stalking me for six months and the police has refused to do nothing about it. I'm about to marry a man who hates my guts. Your mother was the only one that was kind to me in years but now she's dead. I've never felt so alone or confused."
I stood up. The papers fell from my hands onto the floor. "Keep your money. Keep your contract. I don't want any of it."
I turned toward the door. Xavier's voice stopped me.
"Wait."
His phone buzzed. He pulled it out and looked at the screen. His jaw tightened. When he looked up at me, something had changed in his eyes.
"There's something else you should know," he said. "Your adoptive father, Alex Anderson, owes my family three million dollars. He offered your sister Jennifer as payment. A marriage arrangement my father made before he died."
The room tilted. I grabbed the back of the chair to steady myself.
"What?"
Xavier's dark eyes bored into mine. "You're not the only one trapped in this game, Laura."
LAURA I knew I should send Xavier away.Should protect myself by maintaining safe distance after our fight, after everything he had done and how hurt he made me feel. Should build my walls so high that he couldn’t hurt me again. But I was so tired. I was so tired and so sad. And the truth was I didn’t want to be alone.When Xavier climbed into bed behind me and pulled me against his chest, I let him. Even as tears continued to slide down my face, part of me wanted to push him away. I just couldn’t.Eventually, exhaustion won and I drifted off, still wrapped in his arms.When morning came—or what passed for morning since we’d barely slept—neither of us moved.The sun was just starting to filter through the curtains, painting the room in shades of grey and gold. I could tell Xavier was awake from the change in his breathing, but I didn’t want to acknowledge it yet. I didn’t want to ruin this quiet peace we found in the night.Finally, he spoke, his voice rough and raw in a way I’d ne
XAVIER Dawn still hadn’t broken.It felt like the night was going round in circles with no end. I tried to sleep, to forget about everything that had happened but it kept replaying in my mind like some broken record.The hurt in Laura’s eyes, the complete, aching hurt and disappointment she felt just because I couldn’t put my pride aside.And if someone were to ask me why, I wouldn’t know what to tell them. I couldn’t keep using the excuse of just not knowing how to, could I?I could tell what she wanted when she kept bringing up the same thing to me. She wanted me to try. To just fucking try because it wasn’t about me anymore.But why the hell was I finding it so hard?Had living in my father’s shadow messed me up that badly?Just then, my phone buzzed on the nightstand.I reached for it almost instantly, some stupid part of me hoping it was Laura. Maybe texting me because she couldn’t sleep either. Maybe ready to talk again.But it was Vanessa.‘Productive session today. Looking f
XAVIER I didn’t get home until 4am in the morning.Exhausted didn’t even begin to cut it. I was running on zero sleep, my patience stretched out to nothing, and my entire body felt like it weighed a thousand pounds.The warehouse situation had turned out to be a complex waste of time—one of my newer guys had gotten paranoid over absolutely nothing, going on about moving shadows and convinced we had intruders when it was just the building settling.Marcus should have handled the situation because he was mainly responsible for this sector, but he had other things on his hands to handle.He was keeping a close eye on Alexie and if I was being completely honest, that’s all I needed him to do.By the time I’d gotten there and personally verified that everything was fine—no threats, no break-ins, nothing worth the emergency call that had pulled me away from Laura—it was past 2am. I’d crashed at one of my safe houses nearby rather than making the long drive back to the penthouse. It had s
LAURA That evening, I heard Xavier’s key in the lock around 8:30 PM.I’d been sitting on the couch for the past hour pretending to read a book, the same page staring back at me because I couldn’t focus on a single word. Every sound in the penthouse made me jump, thinking it was him.And now he was finally here.Xavier walked in looking exhausted—his tie loosened, his slightly tussled from running his hands through them, dark circles under his eyes that told the day had been as brutal for him as it had been for me.He stopped in his tracks when he saw me on the couch, something flickering across his face. “You’re still up?” He asked, his voice dripping with concern.“Can we talk?” The words came out smaller than I intended, my voice betraying all the vulnerability I’d been trying to hide.Xavier studied me for a long moment, then nodded. He set his jacket and briefcase down and came to sit beside me on the couch, leaving just enough space between us that we weren’t touching.The di
LAURA I didn’t even give Xavier the chance to say another word. I was already out the door. I couldn’t stand being in that room for another second.Feeling like the complete idiot I probably looked like.Vanessa Whitmore was everything I wasn’t, and seeing that—live and direct—burned something inside me.She was polished, confident, fluent in business talk. Completely at ease in Xavier’s world, while I was just—I was just me.I could barely hold my own against her.Those lifeless blue eyes saw right through my façade, like she already knew I wasn’t worthy. That I didn’t stand a single chance against her. That I was nothing more than an imposter in a life that could never be mine.The way Vanessa looked at Xavier killed me even more—the familiarity in it. That stupid, syrupy tone she used with him. That devious smile of hers.For a split second, I felt like nothing—like an intruder in my own marriage. And I hated every single moment of it.I didn’t realize when I started running inst
XAVIER “Do you know how I felt ambushed by those reporters?” She asked and I could see her fingers trembling. “I stood in front of them and I told them I was lucky to be your wife,” she said quietly. “I defended you and our marriage without a single ounce of hesitation. Can you say the same for me?” My eyes widened at the question. “Can you honestly say that you’d defend me the same way?” Laura continued, her voice steady despite the tears now staining her cheeks. “Or am I still just the contract you had to sign to get what you wanted?” The question hung in the air between us, heavy and devastating. And I realized with growing horror that Laura didn’t actually know how I felt. We’d slept together, yes. I held her at night, whispered things in the dark that I could barely admit to myself. But I’d never actually said the words out loud. I never made it clear once that this stopped being about the contract a long time ago. That somewhere between her jumping out of a movi
LAURAI blinked slowly as I took in the view through the floor-to-ceiling window of the living room.It was early in the morning, the sun was just beginning to stretch across the sky, pale gold bleeding into blues. I wrapped my robe tighter around me and held onto the coffee I had made for myself.
LAURAI looked out of the window at the passing buildings as we drove at high speed. The car was relatively silent despite there being four people in it.The driver, Juniper at the front seat, and of course my lovely soon-to-be husband right next to me. The silence was suffocating.It wasn’t helpi
XAVIER“Where did Laura go?” I asked when I was done with my call. Juniper rolled her eyes and Lucas pointed towards the bathroom.“She didn’t seem okay, you might want to go check up on her.”I sighed, following his directions to the closest bathroom down the hallway. “Hey Laura, you in there? Lu
XavierThe conference room was on the thirty-second floor of the Blackwell Tower.I sat at the head of the table, fingers drumming against the polished table as my mother’s—no, my legal team shuffled through mountains of paperwork.“Mr. Blackwell, if you’ll just sign here,” Gerald Hutchins, the lea







