Chapter 4: I wish I could Erase everything

Daisy ran into her room and shut the door behind her, leaning her back against it before sitting down with her head between her legs.

“Brody …I hate you. I wish …. I had never met you.” her voice cracked, her chest clenched as her heart was torn in to pieces.

“It hurts so much …It fucking hurt. why me? Just why”

But no one could answer her questions, because in this house she’d been alone, her mother watching every step she made. She’d only depended on Brody and now he’d turned against her.

She needed to hit something to lessen the pain.

All the tears she'd been holding back came down at once. Here, no one would judge her. No one would know her secret.

What was she going to do now?

How would she get rid of all these feelings in her heart?

How would she hide the evidence of their forbidden affair?

At once, her hand went to her stomach as she cupped it gently, feeling the warmth on her skin. She hadn't known she was pregnant until she started feeling sick.

When she went to the hospital, the doctor informed her that she was three weeks pregnant… pregnant with his baby.

“Baby, what would you do in my place? Should I tell your dad about you?”

What was the point when he barely talked to her? When he had just discarded her as if she were nothing?

No… this baby would only be hers. No matter what, she was going to raise it on her own. But how was she going to explain this to her parents?

There was only one way out of this.

Disappearing…she would disappear to somewhere no one knows her.

She wouldn’t stand the shame she would undergo once she is discovered that she was pregnant out of wedlock.

Her mother would be devastated. Her step dad would hate her ..the only thing he guarded with his life was his reputation .

She wasn’t even his daughter. She had no right to complicate his life after the good things he’d done to her.

“Dad, one day , I’ll explain things to you . I hope you won’t judge me harshly.”

Gosh… this was becoming complicated. Had she known this was how things would end, she should never have opened her legs.

She sat there for what felt like an hour, just doing nothing because she had no energy left, when the man whom she loved and whom she was carrying his baby just walked in, accompanied by another woman.

“Daisy, can we talk?”

The voice sounded in her ears, clear and familiar.

She could hear his soft tapping on the door, as if he were hesitating.

But there was nothing more they could discuss. He'd made his choice, and no amount of explanation could erase everything he'd put her through.

But in order to clear things up, she had to talk to him.

Maybe he could give her an explanation for why he had done this.

“Alright…” Daisy said, trying hard to make sure he didn't hear her trembling voice.

She stood up, wiped her tears, and plastered a fake smile on her face.

Then she placed her hand on the doorknob and twisted it open. Still as handsome as ever, he stood there, staring at her as if trying to read her thoughts.

“Come in… just make it quick,” she said calmly. There was no need to drag out this reunion.

“How have you been?” Brody asked, looking at her, but she avoided his gaze.

“As you can see, I've been fine,” Daisy replied, sitting down on the couch, far away from him, as if he was there to bite her.

There was a deep silence in the room. Everything Daisy wanted to ask vanished from her mind.

“You don't look well. Have you been eating properly?” he asked, trying to start a conversation. She had never been this ready in her life to end a conversation with him.

Daisy bit her lip. She used to love it when he asked her these kinds of silly questions, but now they only irritated her.

“I think our time is limited. Your fiancée must be looking for you,” Daisy said softly, fiddling with her fingers. “We no longer have anything to do with each other, and I don't want you to feel obligated to explain anything to me.”

“I now understand that I was just your dirty little secret, and as soon as you got what you wanted, you ran.” For a split second, she looked him in the face.

“Do you know how hard it has been for me? I kept wondering what I did wrong for you to run out on me like that.”

“Brody… I called you. You didn't answer my calls. Wouldn't it have cost you anything to pick them up? I was worried that something might have happened to you.”

She paused briefly.

“But it turns out you were entertaining another woman after I warmed your bed. What do you take me for? Am I that disgusting?”

“I'm sorry…” Brody stretched out his hand to touch her wrist, but she moved away.

“Save it. An apology will not change things.”

“I was just confused. I didn't know whether what we did was right, Daisy. I decided to go away for a few days to clear my head, but then I couldn't return. I didn't know how to face you.”

“Are you serious? You told me that you wanted this.” She let out a bitter laugh. “Now it turns out that you weren't even sure. Why am I even wasting my time discussing this with you?”

“Daisy, please listen to me. What we did was a mistake,” he said, shifting his eyes away. “And I wish I could erase everything, but I can't. It had happened already, but we have to look at how this could affect us in the future.”

“Yeah… it was a mistake.” Daisy repeated the words, her voice lowering. “You've said what you wanted to say. Can you please leave my room? I don't want to see you.”

Tears burned the back of her eyes, but she wouldn't give him a reason to see her weakness. She'd given him her heart, her soul, and everything she had, and this was how he repaid her.

By telling her that the passionate night they'd shared was a mistake.

“I had forgotten that there was this marriage arrangement. A day after I left, my dad called to remind me about it,” he paused. “And I can't refuse to marry Vera because only this way will I inherit the company, and you know it.”

“Do you love her?” Daisy asked.

“I don't, but I'm ready to learn.” He replied without hesitation. “Daisy, I really hope that you'll forgive me. I honestly didn't mean for it to end this way.”

“Alright…” Daisy said. “Did you ever love me, even a little?”

She really wanted to know. At least then she would comfort herself with the thought that he'd once felt something for her.

There was a long moment of silence before he lifted his gaze to hers.

“Does it really matter?” a sigh left his lips,” But as a sister, you can always count on me, and there's no doubt about that.”

Daisy slowly shook her head.

He'd made the difficult decision for her. She had been struggling with it in her head. Now, she was ready to move away from this.

“Fine… I guess this is where our story ends,” Daisy said, turning her back on him.

“What do you mean?”

“I'm leaving the country, and I don't think I'll be back anytime soon,” she said. “It will be best for both of us.”