"I'll use the toilet."
After waiting for a minute, I slowly opened my eyes. I got up from the sofa and approached Ivan, assisting him as he got out of bed and guiding him to the toilet.I waited for him outside because it seemed like he was still uncomfortable with my presence."Are you finished?" I asked from outside."Yeah," he replied, prompting me to open the door.Once he was back in bed, I returned to the sofa, lying down. As I glanced in his direction, our eyes met once more. He was gazing at me."How did we end up getting married?" he inquired. He seemed quite puzzled, as he had been asking this question repeatedly since waking up.I believed it was better for him to hear the truth from me rather than from Maureen. During their relationship, I had witnessed her rude behavior and often overheard her questioning why I would live with Ivan's family, wondering if I had no other relatives. She mentioned that she was uncomfortable with my presence and didn't trust me.Well, the feeling is mutual because I don't trust her either. She seemed like a mean girl pretending to be an angel. But Ivan loves her, so he couldn't see that."You came home that night drunk. Instead of leaving you to sleep on the cold floor, I took you to your room.""Did you take advantage of my drunkenness?" he asked with judgment in his tone.I took a deep breath. "I don't know if I took advantage of the situation. All I know is that you were the one who kissed me first... When we woke up the next morning, your parents immediately instructed us to marry."Ivan let out a heavy sigh. I was expecting hurtful things he might say, but he remained silent and closed his eyes.I thought he had fallen asleep because he stayed that way for a few minutes, but then he opened his eyes again."I love Maureen. I know it's unfair to you, but that's just how I feel.""I know."I smiled with a tinge of sadness and thought to myself, Don't worry, because, after a month, when your body fully recovers, I will leave so that you can freely love each other.The next morning, Ivan remained silent. Even during breakfast, he barely spoke, and his responses to his parents were concise and could be counted on my hands. It appeared as if he had a heavy burden or problem on his mind.After giving Ivan his medicine, I bid farewell to my mother-in-law, saying, "I'm leaving now, Mom."Turning to Ivan, I asked, "Ivan, I'm leaving. Is there a specific food you'd like to eat this afternoon? I'll cook something for you.""I want Maureen's kare-kare," he replied, casting a somber atmosphere over the room.Ivan's father gently reprimanded him, mumbling, "Ivan."I couldn't help but express a bitter smile. As tears welled up in my eyes, I turned away, choosing to remain silent. I walked straight to the waiting car, my emotions weighing heavily on my heart.Tears streamed down my face, and I paid no attention to the thoughts of the driver taking me home. The pain was just too much to bear. There was a time when my husband was distant, making me feel like I had no place in his life. Now, he's clearly showing that Maureen still holds a higher place in his heart, even though I'm his wife.As I prepared my breakfast and took a sip of my coffee, my mother-in-law arrived."Dear, I'm sorry." I hugged her tightly, releasing all the pain I was holding inside through my tears. I confided all my grievances in her."I don't believe my dream of being loved by my husband will ever come true.""Don't give up just yet. Don't lose heart, dear. No other woman deserves my son except you."I knew she was saying this just to lift my spirits.She's Ivan's mother, but she has no control over her son's feelings and couldn't compel him to love me. Ivan would simply blame us for ruining his life and argue that one year of suffering with me was more than enough."I will still be Ivan's wife, but only for one more month. Once he recovers, I will leave him willingly."My mother-in-law sobbed. She said a lot to bolster my resolve and urged me not to give up on her son, but I had already made my decision, and it was final.After hearing Maureen's and Ivan's conversation last night, I realized that my dream of being loved by Ivan is now a distant prospect, replacing Maureen in his heart. That won't happen anymore. So, I'm letting go of the hope I've clung to since we got married.My mother-in-law promptly returned to the hospital. I took a quick shower before lying down on the bed.I messaged my boss to inform him about extending my vacation. However, I omitted the part about the possibility of not returning, as I intend to leave after a month. If Ivan's recovery had progressed more quickly, I might have left sooner.I set my phone aside and tried to get some rest, even if it was just for a few hours. Just as I felt sleep beginning to envelop me, a call came in."How's your husband, who is still pining for his ex?" my friend asked in a teasing manner, causing me to roll my eyes."There he goes. He's got amnesia, but he still holds a torch for his ex," I replied.Rachelle laughed, earning yet another eye roll from me."Your life is quite a rollercoaster, girl.""I'm aware, no need to remind me," I replied with a sigh."Did I interrupt you? I hope not. I just wanted to tell you that my fiancé bought an island.""Wow! You're truly living the high life."She laughed again. "Not exactly. I thought of letting you know if you ever needed a place to go and find work. I understand that your marriage might not last long.""Thanks, Rachelle.""Alright, I'll be waiting for your call. And please, as long as you still have some love left for yourself, consider leaving your husband."I was lazily sitting in the office when my friends arrived."If you want to know what she's up to, ask her, or better yet, investigate.""I'm not interested.""Don't deny it, Ivan. You can't hide anything from us. We can see that you're starting to care about your wife.""Your cellphone was also turned off. Was it because you're avoiding Maureen?""Well, good job!"***I got home at six in the evening, but Myla hadn't returned yet. Seated on the sofa, I silently surveyed the entire house. The pervasive quietness left me with a sense of solitude. Could this be the reason she doesn't stay here for long? She left early and was still away at this hour.I stood up, intending to go upstairs when the door opened. She was surprised to see me and mustered a forced smile."Good evening." Without asking if I had eaten, she ascended the stairs.Tsk!Feeling hungry, I decided to have dinner somewhere else. The next day, she arrived home even later."What time is it?" I asked irritably. It was alre
"You and your girlfriend always seem to be having disagreements."I glanced at my older sister, who had suddenly appeared behind me. I stood on the balcony, trying to regain composure after yet another argument with Maureen. It's always like this. It feels like just a week ago when we last fought.A sigh escaped me as I redirected my attention to the garden. I lifted the beer bottle in my hand to take a sip, deciding to remain silent. No words came to mind. What my sister said was true. It's always like this. Maureen's immaturity remains consistent; it feels as if she hasn't experienced any personal growth since we entered into a relationship years ago.Whenever we argue, I choose to ignore her because I don't want to say anything hurtful. Besides, the next day, she'll apologize to me.We're already adults, but it feels like she's still in high school, not maturing at all. But despite that, I love her. Everyone has flaws."Think about it while it's early. She's not the marrying type,
The following morning, I awoke alone in bed, unsure whether Heather had spent the night here. The neatly arranged side of my bed hinted that she might have chosen her daddy's villa instead. This is currently a concern for me. She has grown accustomed to constantly being with her father. What if Ivan needs to return to Manila for his job? My child would undoubtedly be saddened. Despite Ivan assuring that he'll stay here, I believe there will be a day when he must return for their company. "Good morning, how are you?" Lucinda inquired, having noticed my tears the previous night as she prepared breakfast. I responded with a subdued smile. "Ivan set up a tent last night. He and Heather slept in it," she informed me. That explains why my daughter didn't come up last night. I approached them at the back, the laughter of my husband and daughter filling the air as Ivan playfully tickled our child. Upon noticing my presence, they promptly got up, and Heather exclaimed, "Mommy!" "Hello, b
Ivan was still around. He had been here for several days, looking after Heather all day while I was at work. He took on the roles of both preparing breakfast and handling our dishwashing duties. "Mommy, your flowers are here!" Heather shouted excitedly from outside the house, eagerly awaiting the helicopter's landing. "Mommy!"I glanced out the window to see my daughter, a big smile lighting up her face. Ivan was by her side, both of them looking up at me. She dashed toward the helicopter as it landed. The bouquet was too large for her to manage. Ivan's assistant handed her a paper bag, likely containing a new toy or clothing item. Ivan carried the flowers and a couple of other paper bags. They were about to enter the house, heading up here to present me with the flowers. "Mommy!" I mustered a smile. "Your flowers have arrived!" For three consecutive days, a helicopter has been dropping off bouquets for me. Ivan was wasting money on this. "The flowers are beautiful, Mommy!" I
I left Ivan, and he made no effort to stop or chase after me. There was nothing he could do to change my decision. Given his past actions, did he truly believe I would entertain his proposal? It felt like I was permitting him to inflict more pain on me. He needed to understand that I was no longer the delicate wife who could empathize with him, even during moments of distress. I am no longer that person. I showered before joining Heather in bed, but despite a bit of alcohol, sleep eluded me. Frustrated, I rose to engage in some work. Reflecting on the situation, I shook my head in disbelief. Damn you, Ivan! All you ever did was play with my emotions. It would have been okay if there weren't a child involved. Even Heather, you're messing with her mind. *** I woke up to the realization that Heather was no longer beside me. Despite the throbbing pain in my head, I compelled myself to rise and tend to my child; it was already eight in the morning, and she might be hungry. After fre
Almira quickly recovered from her surprise. She returned a serious look to the man she was hiding from. Chelle, on the other hand, seemed as though she had seen a ghost while looking at Ivan's friend. I didn't know whether it was Angus, Caius, or Huxley. Ivan grabbed my attention, and I blinked in response. "What are you doing here?!" I exclaimed at him. What was his deal, suddenly showing up here? I wanted to slap some sense into him, but I refrained from revealing my bitterness, despite feeling a strong urge to vent in those moments. "You're drunk; go home," he replied calmly. His voice was gentle as if he were a patient spouse comforting an upset wife. I scowled. I didn't budge from my seat. Who was he to tell me what to do? The nerve of him! "Let's go," he invited, but I remained stubborn. I looked in another direction, arms crossed. He patiently looked at me. Why did he seem angry with me? What did I do wrong? And what was he doing here? He sighed. His face softened again