— This was my father's fault. He knew she couldn't have another child, but he didn't take enough precautions to prevent it, or I can't even guarantee he didn't do it on purpose. As much as I am right, he blames me fiercely.
I finally understood why he's been avoiding me since all this happened. Was he afraid of what could happen to me? Afraid that I might get pregnant by him, that I might go through the same thing his mother went through.— I hoped not to be a monster, but about 5 and a half years ago, that's when I started changing. Usually, when a pure-blood is born, you feel the change between 16 and 17 years old. So, I thought I was free from the curse because when I turned 18, I didn't feel any change in me. However, it was when I was 19 that everything changed.He drank another glass of sake all at once, it seemed he would get drunk before he could tell me everything. I, on the other hand, had stopped drinking, or I would soon be completely drunk there. I didn't want to fall asleep there before I knew the outcome.— Were we together for two years?We had been dating since high school, and our relationship was lasting. We were everything to each other. While our friends came and went with other people, we were preparing for a future together.— Yes, in the first year, I could hide it. After all, it takes time to transform. But my father didn't take long to notice. My body had changed: my size, my behavior, especially around you. He noticed that I had become more jealous and possessive of you. I apologize for that.Our eyes met. He was a jealous man, but he had never been rude or crossed the line with me. So, there was nothing to apologize for.— I didn't want to let you go. I could control myself, or at least I thought I could. However, every time we were together, I felt an insane desire to have you. I couldn't satisfy that desire anymore in my human form. Until one day it happened. While you had your back to me, moving in a way you didn't want to stop, my body heated up too much. My heartbeat went out of control.He stopped suddenly, took a sip of his drink, I knew he wanted to clarify things for me, keep me informed about that time when everything became so confusing for me. Things like the cold January baths.—I managed to control the transformation, but I couldn't control that strange and primal instinct to enter you forcefully.I widened my eyes, letting my mouth open slightly. God, I remembered that day. It was our day to celebrate my admission to my dream fashion school. After two years of struggling to leave medicine, as my parents had made sure to ruin any attempt to get into any fashion school, the best and most prestigious in the city accepted me with a 70% scholarship since I hadn't applied before classes started.— I don't know if I did it on purpose, but of course, I did. I couldn't contain it. That's why I wanted to distance myself from you. Still, I tried to continue our relationship.— It was the day you held me and thrust forcefully, almost making me cry!He lifted his face, looking at the ceiling. His sigh caught my attention. His slightly parted lips made me want to kiss him, but I couldn't. Not after what he had done.— When you started to pull away and act strangely, I thought it was because you were with someone else, but I didn't know how to break up with me.I looked at him, I could see his face tilting to the side. He looked at me, staring intensely. His eyes slid to my mouth. I could see the smile, I knew he would find it amusing. But what could I think? I definitely couldn't imagine he was a wolf.— Do you want to know when was the first time I transformed?I nodded affirmatively. It seemed like he had read my curious mind. He took another glass of sake before continuing. I was starting to wonder if he wasn't going to get drunk.— In the early hours, like that day, your scent is insane, it really drives me crazy, I ran kilometers away from you, still, I felt, fighting against that was really hard. I managed to avoid the transformation for a while, but the more I pulled away, the worse I got, I couldn't avoid it anymore. Sometimes I think I almost went after you.What would have happened if he had come after me? Would he have hurt me? No, but I didn't know if I would have reacted as well as the first time I saw him. I sighed. I really didn't know what I would do.— You must have heard in books and movies that wolves transform only on full moon nights, right? That's not a myth. This rule applies to everyone except me.Logan turned the chair, facing me. He leaned on the chair, elbows on the table, staring at me intently. I hadn't noticed this until now. The full moon had passed a few days ago, so that day, a month ago, wasn't a full moon.— I can transform whenever I want. This has its pros and cons. The pros are that I don't need the full moon to transform. I have some control over my monstrous side, and I still have consciousness. I can discern right from wrong. Now, the cons: anger can transform me at any time. I'm not the calmest person in the world, and you affect both my sides, the human and the wolf. Believe me, these personalities are different.—Oh, too bad for me.I let out, seeing an unfriendly look from him, I wanted to smile, but nothing came out but my irregular breath. I should seek help, but what could I do if I loved him anyway?— Olivia...Before he could continue, I stood up. I didn't want to hear that talk again, that ending what we had would be best for both of us. Because I was just as involved now as before. Now I knew the truth. I couldn't let the man I loved run away out of fear. I approached him, not seeing a negative reaction. Swung my leg over him, and Logan backed away to give space on his lap.— I said I wouldn't touch you. We agreed on that.— You agreed. I didn't say anything.— I thought you were angry with me.I sighed, unfortunately, the anger never lasted long. It was just a matter of seeing that smile, and I melted completely. Now everything was a mess. Something told me I shouldn't leave things confusing between us.— Do you know what I am, Liv?This question had more meanings than I could imagine. Logan was stuck in a state, I couldn't comprehend how he felt. Even if I wanted to, I couldn't understand.— A wolf?I replied uncertainly. I couldn't say for sure if he was just that. Because when I first saw him, he seemed more majestic and dangerous than a simple wolf.—I'm a monster, a killer, and I like it. It doesn't matter to me to kill whoever gets in my way to my goal. Everything is pleasurable for me. But when I look at you,I don't feel deserving of you.My heart was pounding in my chest. His eyes were now glowing red. Why did that color suit him so well? I felt when he stood up with me, put me on the table. His hands went to my face, holding it firmly.— I'm not the hero of this story, Olivia. I'm the villain. The guy who's going to ruin everything. I don't want you to be trapped with me when the consequences come.— I don't mind. I want to be with you.— Damn it, Olivia! I'm not the damn knight in shining armor. I'm the monster he hunts.He sighed in frustration. I wanted to be afraid of him, but I couldn't. He had been as kind to me that night as on our first time. I couldn't see him as a threat because he wasn't, I didn't care if he had killed or would kill again. That was sick, I knew that, but I knew Logan would never take the life of an innocent. If that's how he saw things, if he thought he was the villain and the killer, I would become even more attached to him, so that Logan could share his sins with me, I would support him in some way. If he saw himself as the villain of this story, then I would be his villain.— You have to understand, if they find out that you and I are together, you'll always be in danger with me. I can't let that happen. You'd be hunted because of me.— I don't want a prince, Logan. I want someone who's willing to destroy everything for me. That's why I've always preferred villains. I want to be by your side, one way or another.His eyes glowed scarlet, I felt my body heat up near him. He got even closer. I could already feel his breath touching my skin, I could feel the heat emanating intensely. But he suddenly pulled away, put his hands to his head, pulling his own hair, Logan was resisting again.—I promise I won't disappear again. I'll be back later. Now I can't give in to you or to this. I can't hurt you. Damn it, I love you.I held my breath, hearing that suddenly, I saw him take a step back, I reached out trying to reach him, but he was faster than I could react, when I realized it, he had already left the kitchen, when I finally got up, I could hear the door slam loudly, he was too fast for me.After Logan’s departure, I can think of everything he confided in me, clarified a lot for me, I finally understood everything, or rather, almost everything, because our relationship got complicated, because he decided to hide from his father and brother, of the others, knowing that he had turned away from me on account of being a wolf, relieved my conscience, as much as it seemed stupid, I was afraid he was involved with another. But I was nowhere near that, he had avoided me not to hurt me, not because I wasn’t attractive enough for him.It was because he was so attracted that he lost control and could not control the transition between man and wolf, it was the opposite of what I could imagine, but from what I could imagine, he tried to distance himself to avoid what happened that night. But all this confusion went much further than me, involved Logan in a profound way, traumas that marked him throughout his life, all stages of his life boiled down to that one day he would be a "mons
I opened my eyes, feeling my soft and fragile body. My heart seemed to have just finished a marathon; I was breathing heavily, as if I hadn't taken a single breath throughout that intense dream. I wiped the thin layer of sweat that trickled down my forehead. But I could feel sweat all over my body. This was supposed to be the most absurd dream I had ever experienced. I rolled over in bed, lying on my stomach. I didn't need to exert much effort to sense the dampness between my legs.Glanced at the clock, 4:23 in the morning. I could still recall the sensations in my body due to the events in the dream. It might have been due to the alcohol that this dream felt so disjointed. I sat up on the bed, my body feeling weak. With a little daze, I sensed my body shiver. I was about to get up and head to the bathroom when a sudden weakness caused me to fall to my knees.— Shit. I whispered, feeling an ache in my lower abdomen. The pain radiated to my uterus, a sensation unlike any other. A str
— I don’t think that’s a good idea, Olivia.His fingers grazed the hem of my shirt, lifting it slightly and slipping inside. I sighed, pleasure coursing through me with his touch. I let out a groan as his fingers found my unprotected breast.He seized my breast, his thrusts becoming rougher. I craved it, needing to feel the forcefulness. I couldn't discern if it was his will or mine.Logan growled between clenched teeth, his excitement evident in his stare. He had lost control over his own body. His eyes, now red as blood, were locked onto me. Claws extended, scratching my sensitive skin. Muscles tautened, veins bulging beneath the white skin. His breath altered, and I groaned in pain as his body expanded. It caused mine to stretch along with his growth. He buried himself inside me, his face hidden in the curve of my neck.— Olivia, forgive me. I promised I wouldn't do it again, but here I am, struggling painfully against my own desires. I'll lose this fight any minute.— I accepted y
When I tried to look to see who it was, Logan held me tighter and growled loudly. I had a vague sense that I knew that voice from somewhere.— With so many hours for you to show up, it had to be now?Logan's voice sounded with different tones, and I could feel his anger. I had no idea who that man was or why he was there, but it was obvious that Logan knew him.— Olivia, it's sad to see that you've crossed a line you can't come back from.— There's no need for this. She's still human.— Still... When you turn her, I'll know. Maybe I'll rape her before killing her, after all, Striker's bitch is known for her nice ass.My body froze, and Logan squeezed me even tighter in his arms. However, his reaction was different from what I expected. He let out a sarcastic laugh, always someone who reacted instantly to bad comments.— You're stupid, hunter! Talking as if you'll leave here alive.Logan, with me still in his arms, ran towards the balcony. He left me behind the wall that hid the balcon
I looked at the blood staining Olivia's wall. I should never have killed her in front of her. Likewise, I sighed angrily, but what could I do? He aimed at her and shot without even thinking. I was more emotional than I should have been, I should have waited until she wasn't looking.“You think?”A voice sounded not so far away. I rubbed the palm of my hand over its snout. I knew they would capture her sooner or later, I knew, but I couldn't believe they attacked her first. Plus, I still couldn't believe I'd sent this bag of trash to see Olivia. They know how he treated women, he was a serial rapist who took advantage of his position as a hunter to rape and kill. Well, there's less trash in the world now.I was still irritated that we were interrupted when Olivia was about to ejaculate, and remembering that fact only made my body more sore.After cleaning up the mess I made, I picked up the limp body on the floor. Its blood was so smelly that it wasn't even good for food, I don't think
But what surprised me the most was that this rule started to apply right after my birth. I knew there was a big commotion at the time, but I could never find out what it was because everything was erased by the Ministry of Shadows and the most important names in the supernatural world. Well, I knew my father was involved in it, and I also knew he aspired to a position in the Ministry of Shadows, which would probably be his if he managed to kill me.Because of this, from the beginning, I decided that I couldn't put Olivia in danger. That's why I did everything I could to stay away from her, because that was the best thing for now. I needed to learn as much as I could in this way to learn to control it. While I did all that, I decided to destroy the Ministry of Shadows, not caring about killing anyone who got in my way.I didn't lie to Olivia about the reason for distancing myself. The problem was that our history went far beyond that. I didn't know what I was capable of. I was learning
The brown eyes shone so brightly, this woman was my doom and also my salvation, so I knew I would never do any harm to her, Liv smiled lightly, looking deep into my eyes, the fragmented of that dream echoed in my mind.— Are you all right?Her voice was soft, I could feel my insides twitching just waiting for the moment to come out, her fingers caressing my face, running down my neck and stopping over my chest, I couldn’t even control my beats, that dream, if it was a dream, made me question my own desires, why kill her?— Logan?— I’m fine, it was just a nightmare.Olivia sighed relieved, she lowered her face, leaning on my shoulder, could feel her calm breath touch the skin of my neck, making me shiver, the blood moon was one of my worries, even though she still took months, every day was closer, I was afraid of what would happen, because that coat of arms on the old door meant someone would die.— Olivia, you better go to bed.She settled even more in her lap, making my body warm,
I've already said I accept you. I approached her, adjusting my pants. I couldn't risk her safety so recklessly anymore. I tried to smile, but it was only a feeble attempt. I didn't want to lie to her or hide anything. If she wanted to be with me, she had to decide here and now to stay by my side forever.— Let's talk.Olivia sighed heavily. I knew she was used to this pace. We couldn't have the opportunity to be intimate like before. Things were complicated now. I didn't want to hurt her because I knew it could happen at any moment. She sat down beside me. I could see her face was slightly confused. I really didn't know what was going on in her mind, accepting everything so easily. She shouldn't do that.— Logan, I know what you're going to say, but I want this.— Liv, I have trouble controlling it. You being here makes it even harder for me. I have no control over my transformation. I could hurt you. You've seen it happen.— But I don't think you'll hurt me.Why was it so hard for her