Diana
I left the room with a mixture of anger and something else. The something else was from the time he came close to me. I felt something that I couldn’t explain. Oddly enough, I wanted to feel it again. It was a rush. Fear? Sweet fear? The feeling of hanging over a cliff, knowing that if you fall, there’s water to break it…or playing with a dangerous animal that is familiar to you, knowing that somehow, it can never harm you. It was nice. But I was still angry. He said I had somewhere to be. Yes. Free! That’s where I needed to be! I opened the nearest door and snuck inside, hoping Muzan wouldn’t see me and load me with some more of those jobs he does that just…never end. I entered the hall and planned to cry, but I couldn’t. It was really dusty, so I knew that if Muzan saw me here, he’d wonder why I wasn’t cleaning. And if he was a werewolf, he’d sniff me out with mid-level difficulty. So, why not just clean, I guess? I went back to the kitchen to retrieve a rag and came back to begin my work. The first thing I did was to open the windows. As I did, I saw something whoosh by. It was big, black, and intimidating. I instinctively poked my head out of the window and saw a black wolf disappear into the forest. I huffed. It was bigger than even my dad’s wolf. The biggest I had ever seen in real life. And the scent it left on its trail was unmistakable. Edric. Edric was an alpha werewolf. I mean, I knew he was a werewolf. But an Alpha? Where was his pack? I stared long into the forest, hoping he would surface, but I heard a howl that was loud and chilling, but far enough that I knew he wouldn’t be back anytime soon. I focused back on my cleaning, the anger of my predicament replacing the temporary awe. “Stupid table,” I huffed as I beat the antique table in the center of the room with my rag, coughing when a spray of dust puffed back at me. I beat it again, and again, cursing it with every beat. That was until I saw something that stopped me from beating it. I initially thought the table was just roughed up from being old, but it wasn’t. The rough edge the table had wasn’t because it was chewed on by Edric, as I would have imagined, or used to butcher innocent virgin girls. Nope. It was inscribed upon. I beat the table a little more, to reveal more of what I was seeing, and eventually, the table wasn’t so dusty anymore. After flapping the rag in the air to get rid of the dust residue, I began gently cleaning, and taking my take to rub across the surface, discovering that the wood was also glazed over. Besides that, the writing intrigued me. All of it, I couldn’t understand…which confused me more. Who would write something like this? Another language? Where then, did he get it from? Just as I tried looking deeper, the door creaked open, and I dropped the rag, stunned. “It’s just me,” Muzan waved and entered, swatting in futility, the dust that covered the room away from his face. “How are you not sneezing in this condition?” I shrugged. “It’s not that bad.” “Uhuh…” He stopped short to observe what I was cleaning, and from the look in his eyes, he knew more about this than I did. I was tempted to ask him, and I gave in to the temptation. He wasn’t as intimidating as Edric. “What language is this?” I started with, not trying to sound suspicious. “Aramaic,” he said simply. “Oh.” I didn’t know what that was. He must have seen my face, because he let out an exhale and buttressed. “Ancient language that originated from the ancient civilization of Syria.” “Oh…” I still didn’t know what he was talking about. “You didn’t do a lot of history,” he said, but it felt more like a question, so I shook my head. “Hmm…it shows.” He smirked a little. “Everything in this room is antique like that.” He walked up to the wall and used the rag that I had dropped to beat off the cobwebs from the walls, revealing a large painting, some of them having some of the symbols that the table inscription has. “Your master is an old soul, huh?” I huffed. Muzan turned, not to me, because he seemed to be lost in thought for a while, almost like he was trying to decide something. He ended up nodding. “Yes. I guess we could put it like that.” I huffed. This was a lot to take in. Edric didn’t look older than 35, so, it was a marvel how he must have been able to collect this much stuff. But then, family history and stuff like that died hard. “What happened to the rest of the pack?” I asked Muzan. He was thinking again…about what to say to me. “They’re…not here anymore.” I fought the urge to reply with something sarcastic. Of course, they weren’t here anymore. That’s why I was asking what happened to them. But he didn’t seem like he wasn’t a smart person, so I took his hesitance as a cue to not prod in that direction. “How many people has your master killed?” He gave me a look. Okay…not prodding in that direction either. After a while of beating off cobwebs, I was greeted by a hall of ancient artifacts. Muzan did more cleaning in a few minutes than I would have done for thirty minutes. It made me feel stupid for complaining about the amount of work I had to do. The beauty of the room was coming out even more. “Amazing, isn’t it?” I nodded. “Some 500 years ago, this was painted by someone who was loved by everyone. His art sold for thousands. That painter was disgraced out of his own home and forced to live a lonely life in the wilderness.” Muzan sighed. “Now, it’s here…gathering dust…” “Sad?” He let out a sigh and nodded. “Yes, Diana. Sad.”DianaMuzan watched me as I went through the art pieces with a blank gaze like there was something else on his mind.I kept looking at them and trying to put myself in the mind of this painter. A lot of them were about nature and animals in their natural habitat.It kind of reminded me about myself again, and how genuinely trapped I was.I realized that this painter was just like me. He yearned to be free.Yet, he was hated, just like Muzan said.Again, just like me.All I wanted was freedom. I was hated for yearning to have autonomy in my life…about my life.And the both of us were cast out.500 hundred years apart and the story was still the same.I felt like I needed to fulfill these paintings.Like I needed to be free.“What are you thinking about?” Muzan asked me after a long silence that stretched between us.“Nothing,” I said instinctively. After the pressure died down, I pressed. “I should be asking you the question. What are you thinking about?”“A lot,” he hummed.He was so
DianaI didn’t want to scream.That would alert him. If he came to find me about to run away, he would do some really bad things to me. I hadn’t known him for more than three days, but at the same time, he did seem worse than my father.He hadn’t hit me yet, but I knew for a fact that I was running out of grace.Honestly, I didn’t want to take a hit from him.Hence, through the grueling pain, I just sat still, shivering, crying, and turning.There were insects in the damn hole, and the place smelled of damp earth and rotting meat.I would soon be the rotting meat here.I don’t know how long I was there before I finally succumbed to fatigue.His voice woke me up, and opening my eyes, the light from the sun hit me hard.“How did you enjoy your bed?” he jibed.I hated him.“I’m sorry,” I said, instead of the mouthful of insults I could have hurled at him. Because in reality, I actually wanted to get out of this dark, creepy hole, where only one ray of sun hit, depending on the time of th
DianaAs soon as he dropped me, Muzan rushed to my aid.I dropped to the floor despite Edric placing me on my feet, exhausted from the crying, begging, and in pain from the injury to my ribs.“Well, at least, you won’t be able to run for a while,” he chuckled as he lifted me bridal style and carried me…not to my room.“You can’t be so sure,” I managed to joke, even after everything that I had been through. I looked over at Edric, I don’t know why.Maybe to hate him even more. To keep his face in my head, so that anytime I needed to get angry, I would remember him as the man who left me in a hole to rot.When we entered what looked like a hall, he placed me on a slim bed and went out of the room.There, I have never been more relieved.So relieved, in fact, that I passed out cold.I didn’t wait for him to come back to administer treatment or give me any further information. I just went to sleep.My throat was raw, and my wounds, though aching, were starting to enter that state where th
EdricWas I a little too harsh on her?Muzan’s reaction to me said everything I needed to know. He was my butler and did everything I told him to do, but that didn’t mean he couldn’t be angry at me when I did something he didn’t like.And he was…pissed.He didn’t serve me breakfast in the morning, and when I came to the kitchen to ask, he simply showed me the pot.Also, he had been away from the house for a while.He didn’t run away or anything.Where would he run to? Here was his home.When he came back, he looked like he wanted to slap me all shades of silly. If he could, he actually would have.“It’s called tough love, Muzan,” I echoed after him as he brushed past me on his way into the house.“It’s not tough love if she actually dies,” he shot back almost immediately, “or worse still…if she suffers an injury we can’t treat. How would that make you feel?”“What? After she suffers from the consequences of her own actions?” I countered. “She fell into that hole, Muzan. I didn’t push
DianaI have broken a rib before. Shocker? I was a rough kid with a rough backgrounds. I had to, once or twice…every week, run from the law, and in doing so, whether I got caught or not, sustained a few injuries.One of them was breaking my ribs.Now, all that is to say, I have never healed so fast.In less than a week, I was ready to go.Werewolves are known for having an extraordinary healing factor. For something like a broken rib, it would take the most advanced wolf I know about a week or two to recover fully.For me, and people that haven’t gotten their wolves, the healing factor was similar to being bare humans. A month, maybe more.There was definitely something in those balms that he applied on me and the spicy liquid he gave me to drink. Every single bruise around my body was gone.There wasn’t even scarring.In four days.It didn’t make sense, but I liked it. The pain was unbearable when he applied it, but the results were worth it.Like he said, maybe it would have worked
DianaI knew my mother’s face from the portraits my father kept of her at home, but here, she was much younger.Maybe just as young as I am now, and she was smiling.I don’t know how her picture got here, or who painted it, but it sure as hell gave me the chills to find it here.It was also in the best condition out of all the paintings here, which meant it was relatively recent. I couldn’t even begin to fathom.I didn’t know where to draw theories from, how to even begin asking questions…if I was going to even ask.I just stood there, staring in awe, as the massive smiling face, almost double normal human proportions stared back at me.Every little detail on her face was emphasized by the brush, and every color was represented accurately. Almost like she was right there…with me…in the room.Oddly enough, it didn’t creep me out. I just felt the chills of being around my mother. On her face was an emotion I had never seen. My father’s portraits of her were always still. Like the painte
EdricThe knock on the door interrupted my thoughts, but it was welcome. I needed to get out of my head every now and again.There’s only one person that would knock on the door.“Come in.”The door opened slightly, and she peeked through. “Can I come in?” she asked innocently.I tsked, “But I just said…” I held my tongue. “Yes. Come in.” I repeated, already annoyed, and we hadn’t even started conversing yet.“How are your wounds?” I asked. “They aren’t there anymore.” She replied, touching her side. “Even though it still sometimes feels like they are.”“Phantom pain.” I stood up and walked over to the window, feeling the need for some fresh air and sun. I remember my newfound romance with that bastard.“What is that?” she asked innocently.“It’s when you experience a pain that your brain knows should be there, but somehow isn’t…hence the name ‘phantom’.”She nodded, but I could tell she didn’t fully understand the concept. I didn’t know how else to explain to her, so I just changed
DianaYou know, when I lashed out, I half expected to be dead before I even got to my room.Claws on my back…then through my back, with probably something gory sticking out with his hands.This should have been the end for me, disrespecting him like that. Oddly enough, I made it to my room. I was still shaking.My breath was shaky and my head was spinning. And yet, I still wanted a mother.I didn’t know what to think. As soon as the door to my room shut, I pressed my weight against it, knowing that one of them would come and try to pacify me…likely Muzan.I didn’t need to be pacified right now. I needed to open my nose…maybe even my mouth and…breathe!I was short of breath, and yet, I still held what little air I had inside me, not wanting to let go. It seemed like that was the only thing I could have for free – the air in my lungs.And if Edric held my life in his hands, even that wasn’t free too.It sucked.It was life, but it sucked and I wanted to be done with it.“Diana…Diana, o
Diana I stood at the open door, the cool early morning air a sharp thud against my back. My heart hammered against my ribs, a frantic drumbeat urging me forward, out. The door he opened was never locked. Ever.But now, as he opened it, there was a deeper meaning to it. There was the intention behind it. This time, his opening the door meant something more serious than when I needed a short break.It meant a lot more than me running a few meters into the woods to chase after one of the pups in the wolf pack I had befriended.It promised freedom – an eternal repose to the conflict of being trapped in a place like this. It was the perfect escape, in the fact that it wasn’t an escape. I was being set free.I had cracked the code, right?Yet, my feet remained stubbornly rooted, as if invisible threads tethered me to the heavy stone of the mansion.My fingers twitched at my side, a restless energy I couldn't quite quell. Through the swirling fog that clung to the grounds like a shroud,
DianaI sat on the window ledge and used the morning breeze to cool my thoughts. The cold slab beneath me bit into my thighs and kept me painfully aware of what was going on.Of my reality.I couldn’t get it out of my head—his possessive, dominant kiss.He was rough and demanding, and it would have been nice if he had done it because he wanted to.No.He did it because he had to. Something about that didn’t sit right with me – it made me angry, even.I was saving my first kiss for bliss – for a moment of pure affection, one where I was truly liberated from all my oppression.And he stole that moment from me.He gave me one unforgettable but for the completely wrong reasons.Now, I would have the moment of my first kiss in the face of adversary, confusion…and hopelessness.“Fuck you, Edric,” I breathed, letting the exhale coarse through me and purge me of the angry thoughts. Like hell, it was going to work.I still couldn’t get over his lips…soft, yet used hard. His hands around my sho
DianaEdric opened the book and we peeled through the contents of the pages at the same time. But being a faster reader than I was, I was only able to scrape through words.While he, desperate for answers, turned the pages faster than my eyes could keep up with.At the end of it, though, he closed the book and looked up with a sigh of disdain.“What…what was it?” I asked, mental fingers crossed that it wasn’t anything overly disappointing.To give me an answer, he had to adjust his seat and take a deep breath.His answer was brief, but his explanation paved the way for what felt like a lifetime of thought and contemplation.Apparently, there was something that existed in the werewolf kingdom.Something usually scary, but now, exciting.The way alphas and lunas worked, was that there was an existing alpha for generations. Usually, the son of the alpha inherited that role.If the clan wasn’t satisfied, with the leadership of that alpha, they could nominate someone else to take over…or o
EdricWe left the hall of mirrors without finding the definitive answers, but we found something.I think that was the most important thing—that we kept moving forward, no matter what.Everything we did to get up to this point was simply searching, blindly looking for answers to questions we didn’t even know to ask.But here, we had a lead, and it lay in Diana’s hand.I couldn’t touch it, because it quite practically burned me.I looked down at my hands – the pain should have gone by now, and it was. But there were still the heat blisters. They were receding, though, a confirmation of my cursed immortality.I took a breath and looked straight ahead, trying my best not to look at the mirrors. Diana wasn’t aware of this, but anytime I looked at these mirrors, a splitting headache threatened to open my skull.I theorized that it was because they were things that I wasn’t supposed to remember, and Bane concurred.That didn’t stop me from coming here any time I was in the mood for a little
DianaI left his room after a while of what seemed to be meaningless ponders, the both of us too frustrated to even continue.What were we looking for?What did we hope to find?Perhaps that was what sealed our fate from the beginning.A problem shared is a problem solved, they say. So is knowing the problem. Knowing what needed to be solved.To find something, you must be able to identify it. We didn’t even know what we were looking for.Was it material? Was it abstract? Was it an emotion?Everything cluttered my lungs – the questions and lack of answers thereof. I needed air, and so, I sought that instead, edging over to the windowsill in the main hallway, overlooking the garden below.There was a ledge opposite me, where Edric promptly sat on, perhaps needing the same thing I did.Air.“I can’t even remember the name of the witch who cursed me,” he confessed with a silent tone, one that spelled his embarrassment at the situation. “Pathetic, no? Would’ve been a good start, if you as
DianaI sat curled on the edge of the bed, refusing to move.I was scared that if I did, in some sick, twisted turn of events, something would happen. Something so wrong would hurt him even more.The paradox of the whole thing was that my being ever closer to him meant that he was weaker. It meant that he could die.And yet, here I was, pretending like I didn’t want to hurt him.My fingers lazily grazed Edric’s arm and I felt the warmth and his pulse…just to make sure he was still breathing.Or to be sure it wasn’t.I wasn’t sure I lived in a world that even made sense.The minutes blurred into longer ones, and each ticking of the clock made me painstakingly aware of my role in this.In the death of a man.Eventually, sleep pulled me under its blankets. It wasn’t warm and fuzzy. It was a rough tug. I felt the tiredness gnaw at my bones and by the time I pulled my eyes shut, I couldn’t even spare some time for extra thought.I just got sucked into the world of the unknown.Where my min
DianaI was tending to the crops in the garden when Muzan came to me. His face held concern, deeper than I had ever seen.“Is anything wrong?”He nodded.I stood up.“He’s…ill…odd, I know…”I wanted to sprint past him, to go and see Edric, but he held me back“The curse is not broken, Diana. He stabbed himself with a knife to test it out…nothing.”His words made me relax a little, but still, he was ill. I had to see what was wrong.When I got to his room, he didn’t look like anything was wrong with him. He was hunched over his desk, his eyes buried in concentration behind his meaningless calculations.Meaningless at least, to me.“False alarm,” he waved dismissively when I inquired about his health and the report from Muzan. “Looks like I’ll be living to see another century,” he huffed.“You act like it’s a really bad thing,” I rolled my eyes.“Well, when you’ve seen five…maybe…yes.”I wasn’t ready for his schematics this morning. I wasn’t ready for it today.“I’ll check through what
Edric“Wh…what does that mean?” she croaked frantically, trying to reach her wrist, but I pulled it away from her.I didn’t want her to scratch it anymore, because I wanted to see what would happen. I needed to see what the wolf symbol did.To my surprise, nothing happened.“What happened?” she asked with a weak sigh.Or, at least, I think nothing happened.I looked around me when I felt the whoosh, and knew for a fact, that this was far from ordinary. If a mark was able to appear on her wrist from nowhere, then something was coming.I just needed to be ready for it.“Nothing,” I sighed, feeling frustrated, when this was supposed to be the most upbeat I had been in years.A discovery!Something new! Something new must mean change! And change is good, isn't it?Well, not when the only thing that never changes is you.I stood up and packed everything up.“I should have never let you do the spell,” I said as I walked away. “I’m sorry.”Her hasty footsteps followed my deliberate ones in h
DianaThe next day was filled with more glee than I ever had in a week. When I offered Edric breakfast, he loved it so much, he wanted to know how I made it.“It was from a recipe book my mother used,” I admitted as I watched him wolf down the entire meal. “I watched a chef do it, and voila…”The next moment, I was standing in the kitchen, my hands deep in a bowl of flour.I wiped flour off her cheek with the back of her wrist, my eyes narrowing at Edric, who stood stiffly beside me like the idea of cracking an egg might bring about the apocalypse.“You’re holding it like it’s a bomb,” I teased him, nudging his elbow as he stared down at the egg with a frown that said he was contemplating war tactics, not breakfast.“I only know how to deal with meats,” I said and studied the egg like there was more to it than just cracking it open and pouring out the contents. “Anything more than that…I’m lost. It’s why I could hardly tell when you poisoned me…unless the poison was something strong.