LOGINNikolai's POV My hold tightened on her shoulders as I tried to calm the emotions wrecking my body. I slowly dropped my hands when I felt her stiff, clearly terrified that I'd hurt her.It became more palpable. The trauma I had caused her had left a scar on her heart that she wouldn't easily forget. Which meant I couldn't convince her to stay and if I used force on her, she'd drift into isolation, hiding from me and that light around her that I had fallen for would completely disappear. No. I couldn't push her further away from. I couldn't use my hands to destroy her and break her more. I had to let her go. I needed to let her go in order to move on, to heal and to keep that light around her alive. Sighing as I came to the decision, I nodded slowly. Chest tightened as the words lingered on the tip of my tongue. “Alright then. Let's get divorced. Right now, if that's what you want.” I could see the shock and disbelief in
Lena's POV Snapping out of my initial shock, I didn't wait for him to speak and immediately brush past him but Irina called after me. “Why? Are you running after calling him trash?” She scoffed, her voice laced with malice. “What? Scared of being punished again?” I turned around to face her and immediately regretted it. That smug look on her face made me burn with the need to wipe it off her face. But I held back, not giving her the reaction she did. Tilting my chin up, I smiled coldly. “No,this air just reeks with rot,” I looked between her and Nikolai. “And I don't have to look far to know where exactly it steams from.” “What did you just say—” “Leave!” Nikolai's voice cut her off, his cold eyes met hers with an intensity that made her shudder in fear. She parted her lips to speak but was too afraid to let out any words, so she bolted
Lena's POV “I don't know…” I shook my head. “You hurt me, Nikolai. You treated me like I was never important to you. Do you even love me?” I asked, my voice broken in despair. Nikolai pulled back, his eyes still filled with guilt as he shook his head. “You're important to me, Lena. I never meant to hurt—” “Don't say that!” I pushed him off, getting down from the bed. “Don't you dare claim you never meant to hurt me. Because I begged you, Nikolai. I begged you!” Turning on my heels, I rushed to the bathroom and locked the door. I rested against the door, my heart pounding as I waited for him to follow after me but that was just my wishful thinking because I heard nothing, no sound of footsteps. I slowly calmed myself, finally rationalising my thoughts. My body ached, especially my backside and my pussy. I still couldn't be
Lena's POV That night, Alexi had been unhinged and unrecognisable. He told me everything, yelling in anger like a deranged lunatic while I tearfully listened to his unremorseful recount of how had killed our mother. He made it sound like it was something he had always thought of doing. His eyes lit up with a spark, as he described how he struck her at the back of her head and strangled her until she died. It was just two weeks ago, but I remembered how we found her laying on the cold floor of her room with her eyes open in terror. To think he did something heartless and still didn't regret it. Although he was drinking, acting like he was tormenting with guilt, I knew it was the opposite. He wasn't feeling any ounce of guilt. He was drinking because of the intense argument he had with dad and the fear that he might never be the capo. Something he had always been obsessed with
Lena's POV “One!” I gasped, my back arched as his palm came down my backside again, each one harder than the last.“Two.”“Three.”“Four…” my legs trembled at the pressure and the intensity but Nikolai had no thought of stopping and I was certain I wouldn't be able to sit for at least a few days. “Fucking count, Lena!” His gruff voice snapped me out of my trance and I clenched my fists, reminding myself that the longer I drag this, the more unhinged Nikolai gets and I knew I was fast approaching my physical limit.“Nikolai, please. I get—” A hard strike caught me off immediately, letting my plea hang in the air.“Five!” I shrieked, my head pressed against the soft mattress as I tried to suppress my voice. It went on and at the last count, I could already feel the burn and the aching feeling on my backside. “Twelve!” I fell back on the
Lena's POV I fought against him but to no avail, Nikolai was stronger than me, turning my struggles to a child's play.“Nikolai, please don't do this. I swear I didn't mean to lie to you—” I gasped when he pulled the dress over my head and then his hand went into my undies.I heard the faint sound of ripping fabric before cold air greeted my sensitive skin between my legs. “Nikolai, what are you doing? You promised you would never hurt me?”He paused, tilting his head to the side. The dark look in his eyes scared me. “Really? Am I the only one who made promises?” He scoffed, his hand grabbed my jaw. “You know how much I despise lies, yet you did worse. You betrayed me.”He got up, releasing me immediately. I sighed in relief, propping myself up on my elbows when I saw him taking off his shirt and then undoing his trousers. He pulled the belt and wrapped it around his hand and tensed, unable to move. Was he going







