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Chapter 17 - Shea
(Potential TW for disordered eating)
I planned to stay home all weekend. I knew I'd been avoiding Luke, and in a way Eva too. But she didn't say anything about it. Tiffany was staring daggers at me in the halls and I could see her whispering to her friends any time I walked by.
So I just kept my head down. I definitely didn't need this kind of attention. Since freshman year I had done my best to stay out of everyone's line of sight. I knew what they said about me. I knew the lies Tyler and his friends had spread around. When I walked into my house Friday though, I was greeted by silence. My mom worked at a bar downtown on the weekends, and my dad hated it. But she loved it there. As long as I could remember my mom had worked there. She said she stayed for the customers, and that if she quit now the place would close down. That left weekends to me and my dad. "Dad?" I called out, walking into the kitchen.&nb
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The car ride was stifling. Tyler barely said anything to me the whole drive back to my house."I'm sorry." I said again, when we were pulling into my neighborhood."Shea." He said with an irritated sigh. "It's fine. Apparently our signals were a little crossed.""But they're not." I argued. It felt like he was slipping away from me, and that was causing me to panic a bit."I think so though. I mean... obviously I like you a little more than you like me.""That's not true." I could feel my voice raise slightly because I liked him a lot. He was beautiful, and so many people liked him, and he was choosing to hang with me. Maybe I really was a bore."Well, what am I supposed to think? You freaked out as soon as I tried to touch you. That doesn't exactly put me in the headspace to think you're into me."I was reeling a little. I felt slapped that just because I was a bit squeamish about sex he questioned whether or not I li
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