LOGINRiley's Pov
Marvel,” I said, the word coming out as a relieved sigh. He didn’t smile. His eyes, usually so warm when they landed on me, were hard. “What’s going on?” “I was looking for you. I came down to… I saw the end of the game.” I took a step toward him, wanting to bridge the gap, to get us away from this audience. “Got lost, did you?” Ray Collins’s voice cut through the tension, deceptively mild. “Visitor’s room is down the other hall, Hartwell.” The use of my last name, my father’s name, in that tone, felt like a deliberate provocation. Marvel’s jaw tightened. Buzzcut chuckled. “She was just telling us how she doesn’t support any team, Cap. Neutral party.” I saw the misunderstanding solidify in Marvel’s eyes. He thought I’d been chatting with them. With Ray Collins. “I was waiting for you,” I said to Marvel, emphasizing the last word. But the damage was done. The pride of a losing player, the presence of a rival who seemed to dominate every space he entered, and the girlfriend caught in the middle of it all created a perfect, toxic cocktail. Marvel gave a short, sharp nod. “Yeah. I see that. Let’s go.” He turned and started walking, not waiting for me. I shot one last glance at the group by the locker room. Ray Collins’s smirk was gone, replaced by an unreadable, analytical expression. He gave me a slow, almost imperceptible once-over. Then he turned, shouldering past his teammates with a muttered, “Shower’s getting cold,” and led them back through the door, leaving me alone. ******* Ray Collins The silence in the hallway after they left was louder than the roar of the game had been. My guys were still buzzing, replaying the winning goal, but the noise felt distant, muffled. All I could see was the back of Riley’s head as she followed Martinez down the dim corridor. “You okay, Cap?” Liam clapped me on the shoulder, his grin fading. “You look like you just took a puck to the teeth.” “I’m fine,” I said, my voice coming out flat. “Just tired.” It was a lie. I wasn’t tired. I was wired, but not from the win. My skin felt too tight. The image of her face, first soft with concern, then sharp with annoyance was stuck behind my eyes. Better than him anyway. Why did those words hook under my ribs like that? She didn’t know me. She’d decided who I was from the cheap seats. So why did I give a damn what she thought? My friends’ chatter about the game stats faded into a meaningless hum. I was only half-listening as we filed back into the steam-filled chaos of the locker room. Guys were laughing, shouting, music blasting from a speaker. Normal victory chaos. I went through the motions: peeling off my sweat-soaked gear, nodding at the right times, but my mind was somewhere else. It was down that other hallway. Were they arguing? Was she touching his arm for real this time, saying all the right, soothing things? Was he believing her? The thought made my jaw clench. And why the hell was I thinking about it? This was exactly the kind of “distraction” Hartwell had hired me to monitor. Not to get tangled in. “Earth to Ray Collins!” A hand waved in front of my face. I blinked. Liam was standing in front of me, already in his street clothes, eyebrows raised. The locker room was almost empty. “You’ve been staring at that locker for five minutes, man. You concussed or something?” “No,” I grunted, finally turning to grab my towel. “Just thinking.” “Well, stop thinking and start moving. Union party at The Rink Bar. You in?” The Union Party. A stupid tradition. Whenever Falcons or Eagles won a head-to-head, both teams were expected to show up at the same off-campus bar. It was supposed to foster cooperation. Usually, it fostered drunken shouting and the occasional fistfight. “Not really feeling it,” I said, heading for the showers. “Since when?” Liam called after me. “You’re the captain. It’s basically mandatory.” The hot water did little to clear my head. Riley’s schedule, the one Hartwell had texted me, flashed in my mind. Psychology 305. Mon/Wed/Fri, 10 AM. This was her world. Class, the library, her skates. Not hockey parties. But Martinez was a hockey player. A star for the Eagles. He’d be at that party. And if he was going… She’d be there, too. Trying to smooth things over. Playing the supportive girlfriend in a room full of people who’d just watched him lose. A fresh, sharp curiosity cut through me. What was she like in that setting? Was her cool composure real, or just for show? Hartwell’s voice slithered into my thoughts: “She does not understand what these boys want from her.” My job was to watch. To be there. This wasn’t curiosity; it was duty. I turned the water off with a hard twist. “Change of plans,” I said to Liam as I strode back to my locker, dripping. “I’ll go.”POV: RileyThe hearing room was on the second floor.I had been in this building many times now. The committee room on Thursday mornings. The corridors I had learned to navigate without thinking. But the hearing room was different from Room 204. Larger. More formal. The specific architecture of a space designed to hold proceedings that mattered.I waited in the corridor outside at eight fifty-five with Naomi beside me. She had her notebook. I had mine. We did not talk. The waiting was its own kind of preparation and we had both learned that filling it with conversation was not the same as being ready.At nine-oh-two the door opened.The facilitator. A woman I recognized from Dr. Venn's staff, precise and efficient. She looked at me."Ms. Ashford," she said. "We are ready."The room was exactly what it was.Long table. Seven board members seated. Dr. Venn at the head, the same composure she brought to every room. The external reviewers at the far end. The recording secretary at her sep
POV: RileyI woke at five.Not the alarm. Just the body knowing. The specific early wakefulness of a significant day, the kind that had been true before competitions and before the first article published and before the morning I submitted the documentation at four-eighteen in the afternoon.I lay still for three minutes. Ran the inventory.What I would say: the true sequence. The specific account of what I found and what I did with it. No editorializing. No performance of distress. No looking at him while I said it. My testimony was for the record, not for my father.What I would not say: anything about the letter. Anything about the voicemail. Anything about the specific grief of understanding what something always was. That was mine. That did not belong to the formal evidentiary session of the oversight board's full hearing.How I would hold myself when I saw his face: the way I held myself in every room that tried to manage me. Chin level. Shoulders back. Full weight on the correc
POV: RileyNaomi was already in my room when I arrived.Not because I had asked her. Because she had understood without being told that the night before a significant thing required a specific kind of company. She had her laptop open on my desk and a printed copy of the testimony structure on the bed beside her and two cups of tea already made and cooling to the right temperature.I looked at the room. At the organized evidence of a friend who had been inside this with me since the battery drain on my phone in October."Thank you," I said."Sit," she said. "We go through it once. Then you sleep."I sat.We went through everything in order.Not because the documentation was in question. Because going through it in order was its own kind of preparation. The act of moving through the sequence deliberately, one piece after the next, settled something in the nervous system that abstract readiness could not reach.The spyware documentation. Clean. Authenticated. Access log, installation fil
POV: RileyHe laughed.Not the almost-laugh I had been collecting all semester. The real one. Soft and brief and completely unguarded, the specific laugh of someone who has been holding something tightly for a very long time and something has just released the grip.It was the most human sound I had heard from him."I have been not doing that for longer," he said.I smiled.Not the managed version. Not the composed version I deployed in rooms that required composure. The one that arrived before I could do anything about it, the one that took over my whole face without permission, the one I had been controlling since I was four years old because unguarded things in my father's world were things that could be used.Ray looked at that smile the way he looked at things that mattered. Completely. Without performing a reaction to it."There it is," he said quietly."There what is," I said."That," he said. "The one you do not plan."I looked at him. The cold pressing around us on the path o
POV: RileyHe was in the corridor when I came through.Not waiting dramatically. Just standing near the wall with his hands in his jacket pockets, the specific stillness of someone who had been there a while and was comfortable being there a while longer. The corridor smelled like cold rubber and the particular athletic smell of a building that had held a lot of people working hard. The overhead light buzzed faintly above us.I was still in my skating dress. Hair still pinned. The cold of the ice still in my skin and the adrenaline of the performance still warm underneath it, the specific combination of those two things that existed only in the minutes immediately after. It made everything very clear. Very present.He looked at me the way he had looked at me from the third row. No performance. Just the real version."You came," I said."I was always going to come," he said.I looked at him for a long moment.Not building toward something. Not deciding. The decision had been made somew
POV: RileyThe showcase was on a Thursday.Two days before the formal hearing. I had not planned the proximity. The skating program's schedule had been set in October, before the hearing date was confirmed, and the two things had simply landed where they landed. Close enough that they existed in the same atmosphere. Far enough that each one could be entirely itself.I woke at five-thirty. Made tea. Laced my shoes in the correct order. Walked to the rink in the dark December morning with my skating bag on my shoulder and my breath making small clouds that the cold took sideways.The ice was clean. Resurfaced overnight. Not a mark on it.That always mattered on showcase days. The specific perfection of unmarked ice before the first blade touched it. The reminder that the surface was ready and what happened next was entirely about the person on it.Coach Farrow ran us through the warm-up sequence at seven. Six skaters, focused and quiet, the specific pre-performance energy that was diffe
Riley The Rink Bar was everything I hated about hockey culture crammed into one sticky, overheated room.Blue and gold jerseys clashed everywhere I looked, Falcons and Eagles pretending to be civil while shooting daggers at each other over red plastic cups. The music was too loud, the bass vibrati
RileyI had done exactly one thing in my entire life without my father’s approval, and I was determined not to mess it up.Figure skating.It was my secret rebellion, planned and saved for in silence. While my father graded papers and muttered about “frivolous pursuits,” I watched old Olympic routi
Ray's PovI should have said no.The second Professor Hartwell asked me to babysit his daughter, I should have walked out. But I didn’t. I just sat there, in the worn leather chair across from his desk, trying to figure out what game we were playing.I’d been in his office plenty of times. Usually,
POV: RayMonday came like a punishment. I stood outside the athletics media room with my hands in my jacket pockets, telling myself I was calm. I was not calm. I'd barely slept. Every time I closed my eyes I saw the photograph on Hartwell's desk, the girl with the laughing eyes and the swinging hai







