MasukRiley
I had done exactly one thing in my entire life without my father’s approval, and I was determined not to mess it up. Figure skating. It was my secret rebellion, planned and saved for in silence. While my father graded papers and muttered about “frivolous pursuits,” I watched old Olympic routines. He wanted debate team, honor society, a direct path to law school. I wanted the ice. For two years, I trained in secret at the public rink across town. I paid for lessons with money I saved from tutoring kids in calculus, a fact he never knew. I auditioned for the university’s skating team without telling him, and I didn’t say a word until the acceptance letter was in my hand. Today was my first official day. “Excuse me, sorry.” I squeezed through the crowd clogging the hallway outside Thompson Arena, my gym bag thumping against my leg. The noise from inside was a physical thing, a deep roar that vibrated in my chest. I should have been heading to the figure skaters' locker room for orientation, but I’d promised Marvel I’d catch the end of his game. Falcons versus Eagles. The big rivalry. My boyfriend had been talking about this game for weeks. Five minutes, I told myself. Then I’d run. I pushed through the heavy double doors just as the sound exploded into a deafening cheer. Good. The game was still on. My eyes flew to the scoreboard. Falcons 4, Eagles 3. Four minutes left. “Marvel!” I whispered, scanning the ice for his number—22. “Riley?” My stomach flipped over. Three rows down, arms crossed over his chest, eyes locked on the game, stood my father. “Dad?” I made my way down the concrete steps, forcing a smile that felt too bright. “You’re here?” Of course he was here. He was the Falcons’ head coach. This was his life. I felt stupid for not expecting him. He didn’t smile. Just gave me a brief, business-like nod before turning his attention back to the ice. I let out a quiet breath and looked for Marvel. There he was. Number 22, moving with a grace that always surprised me. Fast, smooth, completely in control. He cut left, dodged a defender, and I lifted my phone. I had to get a picture. I framed the shot just as he pulled his stick back, every muscle tight and ready. Then someone crashed into the frame. Number 17. The Falcons’ captain came out of nowhere. His stick snapped forward, and with one clean, ruthless move, he stole the puck right from Marvel’s control. One second Marvel had it. The next, he was stumbling, off-balance, as number 17 blew past him. I lowered my phone, my breath catching in my throat. He moved like a storm. Aggressive. Unstoppable. His own teammates seemed to clear a path for him as he charged the Eagles’ goal. The goalie crouched, but it was too late. The crack of the puck hitting the net was sharp and final. The arena erupted. Falcons 5, Eagles 3. When the buzzer sounded a minute later, it was over. The Falcons swarmed their captain, lifting him onto their shoulders. The crowd was chanting, shaking the old rafters. “Collins! Collins! Collins!” Ray Collins. My father’s favorite. The golden boy. As if he felt me staring, he turned his head where he sat on his teammates’ shoulders. His gaze, dark and intense, found mine across the crowded bleachers. It held for one second. Two. I looked away first, a hot spark of irritation flaring in my chest. There was something about the way he soaked in the worship, like it was his birthright, that grated on me. Too arrogant. When I looked back toward the visitors’ bench, the Eagles were already filing off the ice, heads down. Oh, no. Marvel. “Ignore the final score,” my father said beside me, a note of pure satisfaction in his voice. “That was championship-level hockey.” “Marvel played well, too,” I murmured, already gathering my bag. My father started talking about defensive strategy, but I wasn’t listening. Marvel hated losing. He’d be dissecting every mistake, furious with himself. I needed to find him. “I’ll meet you for dinner later,” I said, cutting him off gently. He just nodded, his mind already on his winning team. The visiting team’s locker room was down a narrow, damp-smelling hallway on the east side of the arena. I’d been here before. Marvel always came out this way. I waited outside the heavy door, shifting my weight from foot to foot, practicing my lines in my head. It’s one game. You were amazing. That goal in the second period was perfect. Next time. The door finally swung open. A player stepped out, still in full gear, his helmet on. Relief washed through me. “Hey,” I said softly, taking a step closer. “You okay?” He didn’t answer. Just stood there, his back to me. “I know you’re upset, but you played so well tonight,” I continued. The words tumbled out in a rush. “That breakaway in the second period? I thought for sure you had it.” I reached out and touched his arm. “And you don’t have to measure yourself against their captain. You’re better than him anyway.” He went completely still. “Better than who?” A deep, unfamiliar voice answered. It wasn't Marvel’s. I watched, my heart freezing, as he turned slowly. He lifted his helmet off in one smooth motion. Dark hair, damp with sweat. A sharp jaw. Eyes that weren’t Marvel’s warm brown, but a piercing, cool gray. Ray Collins. My hand snapped back from his arm like I’d been burned. I stumbled back a step, my fingers knotting together. He just looked down at me, that intense gaze taking in my shock, my embarrassment. A faint, unreadable smile touched his lips. “You were saying?” he asked, his voice a low rumble. Humiliation burned my cheeks, quickly followed by a wave of pure annoyance. I hated that I’d been caught off guard. I hated the way he was looking at me, like I was a funny little puzzle. I opened my mouth, ready to tell him exactly what I thought of arrogant hockey players who eavesdropped, when the Falcons’ locker room door burst open behind him. Laughter and the smell of sweat spilled into the hall. Three of his teammates, still in their gear, piled out. One of them, a guy with a buzz cut, spotted me and grinned. “Whoa! Aren’t you Riley?” Buzz Cut said, slinging an arm around Ray Collins’s shoulders. “Coach Hartwell’s daughter, right? Saw you in the stands.” Another player, taller, chimed in. “Aren’t you being unfair? You’re our coach’s kid. Shouldn’t you be, I dunno, cheering for us?” All their eyes were on me. I felt like a bug under a glass. I tucked a strand of hair behind my ear, forcing my voice to be calm. “I might be the coach’s daughter,” I said, looking at the taller player. “But I’m not officially supporting any hockey team.” It was a stupid, defensive thing to say, but I couldn’t take it back. Ray Collins hadn’t moved. He was just watching me, that same analyzing look on his face, as if my every reaction was a play he was studying. “Riley.” The new voice was tight. Strained. I knew it well. I turned. There, a few feet away, his gear bag hanging from one hand and his face a mask of cold, clean anger, stood Marvel. My boyfriend. His eyes moved from my flushed face, to Ray Collins standing so close to me, to Ray Collins’s smirking friends. The silence in the hallway was suddenly very, very loud.POV: RileyThe formal findings published at eight on Monday morning.I was at the rink. Not because I had planned to be there when they published. Because I had been at the rink every morning for two weeks and this morning was not going to be different just because something significant was happening in a document on a server somewhere across campus. The ice did not care about oversight board publications. It just required your full weight on the correct edge and it would hold you.I was running back edges when my phone buzzed on the boards. I finished the edge. Came off the ice through the gate. Picked up the phone.Amara."It is live," she said the moment I answered. "The formal findings. All three names in the opening section. Hartwell. The provost. Carol Bishop." A pause. "Your name is in the acknowledgment section. Clara's. Preethi's.""I know," I said. "Dr. Venn's office sent the notification Friday.""Have you read it yet," she said."Not yet," I said. "I wanted to skate first.
POV: RileyHe said yes before I finished the sentence.Not the considered yes of someone who has weighed the options. The immediate yes of someone whose answer was already there before the question arrived and who did not know until the question came how much they had been waiting to say it. It surprised him. I watched it surprise him, watched his expression move through something unguarded for exactly one second before he caught it.I did not catch mine.We were standing outside my building in the cold Wednesday evening, the path light above us making its orange circle on the ground, our breath coming out in small white clouds that the wind took sideways. I had said we could figure it out at the same time if he wanted and he had said yes and now we were both standing in the specific silence of two people who have said something real and are deciding what to do with the realness of it."That was fast," I said."Yes," he said. "It was.""You did not think about it.""No," he said. "I d
POV: RayWe walked after dinner.Not the Greek place. A different restaurant, quieter, on a street two blocks further from campus that neither of us had been to before, which had been Riley's suggestion and which turned out to serve very good soup and have exactly four tables and a owner who brought bread without being asked.We had been walking for ten minutes through the cold Tuesday evening when I said it.Not planned. Not assembled. Just arrived, the way honest things arrived now that I had stopped constructing them first."I am scared," I said.Riley looked at me sideways. Not with alarm. With the specific attention she brought to things that mattered."Of what," she said."The graduate program," I said. "The life after this semester." I kept walking. "All of it." I paused. "I have been inside an emergency for four months. There was always something urgent. Always a next move. Always a clear direction that the situation required." I looked at the path ahead of us. "Now there is n
POV: MarvelThe scout meeting was on a Wednesday.I knew because I had been counting the days since my agent called and told me, marking them in the specific way of someone who has learned that counting days is less useful than filling them with work but cannot entirely stop counting anyway. Eleven days between the call and the meeting. Eleven days of the best practice of my season, not because I was performing for anyone but because something had shifted in me since the morning I walked out of Hartwell's office and called Tomas from the front steps.I had disclosed to the student conduct office. The letter from Hartwell was in a drawer in my apartment, untouched since the morning I almost sent it to the scout's organization and then did not. The recommendation was worthless now given the investigation, which my agent had noted with the specific professional calm of someone recalculating without showing the recalculation.What I had was my record. The actual one. Four years of ice tim
POV: RayI knew it was coming.I had known since the morning the first article published that the locker room was going to be a specific kind of loud. Not because my teammates were cruel. Because they were twenty-two year old hockey players who read things on their phones and talked about what they read and had opinions about everything that moved through the team's orbit. My name had moved through their orbit in a significant way and I had been mentally preparing for the Tuesday morning practice since Thursday evening.Preparation helped. Not as much as I hoped.I came through the locker room door at six forty-five and the room went through a specific sequence. The first person to see me was Derek, who did the thing where his expression moved through four things quickly and settled on carefully neutral. Then Liam, who had been there since six-thirty and had already done whatever Liam did before difficult mornings, which usually involved being exactly where he needed to be and saying
POV: RayThe email arrived on a Tuesday.I was at the library. Not the north window table, which had become Riley's table in my mind regardless of who was sitting there, but a table near the east stacks where I had been working on a response paper for my graduate seminar, the first one that had felt genuinely easy to write because the subject matter had stopped being abstract and had become something I understood from the inside.The notification appeared at the top of my screen while I was mid-sentence.Graduate Admissions Office. Hartwell University Graduate School of Psychology.I stared at it for approximately four seconds without opening it.Then I opened it.The first word was Congratulations and after that I read the rest of it but the first word was the one that did all the necessary work. Full financial aid package. Program start date confirmed. Orientation schedule attached.I sat in the east stacks of the library on a Tuesday afternoon and held that for a moment.Three year
Ray's PovI should have said no.The second Professor Hartwell asked me to babysit his daughter, I should have walked out. But I didn’t. I just sat there, in the worn leather chair across from his desk, trying to figure out what game we were playing.I’d been in his office plenty of times. Usually,
POV: RayMonday came like a punishment. I stood outside the athletics media room with my hands in my jacket pockets, telling myself I was calm. I was not calm. I'd barely slept. Every time I closed my eyes I saw the photograph on Hartwell's desk, the girl with the laughing eyes and the swinging hai
Riley The Rink Bar was everything I hated about hockey culture crammed into one sticky, overheated room.Blue and gold jerseys clashed everywhere I looked, Falcons and Eagles pretending to be civil while shooting daggers at each other over red plastic cups. The music was too loud, the bass vibrati
Riley's Pov Marvel,” I said, the word coming out as a relieved sigh.He didn’t smile. His eyes, usually so warm when they landed on me, were hard. “What’s going on?”“I was looking for you. I came down to… I saw the end of the game.” I took a step toward him, wanting to bridge the gap, to get us a







