Bianca D'Arcangelo was Leonardo's cousin. On the surface, she was charming, bright and naïve. Her personality's purity evoked the kindness and the strong desire of people around her to protect such a rare gem.
But, her inner self was nothing like that. Unfortunately, I found out too late. Like all these people, I thought Bianca is an example of some of the best qualities a woman can have. I used to like her and tried to form a friendship. She perfectly pretended to be close and loyal, helping me when I was in need. I thought because she had such a close relationship with Leonardo, that she would lend me a hand in making him fall in love with me. Funny thing, he started to hate me due to her ''help''. I had no idea what things she spoke behind my back; however, he became disgusted at even looking at me thanks to her.
''Little one, your friend doesn't look healthy. Stay with her and if she doesn't get better, find the butler.'' I didn't stop my sneering on time and had to cover my mouth. Too bad my eyes were expressive and couldn't hide my ridicule.
''Luo, what is it?'' Like a spring breeze, her innocent voice made people be at ease and lifted stress from their shoulders. Alas, my nerves weren't relaxed at all. I felt tensed instead. My body trembled, and a giggle escaped my tight – pursed lips. They both looked at me like there is something wrong with my head. Inexplicably, I found that too funny and could no longer keep my laughter at bay. Oh, God! Was I really that stupid before? How didn't I notice it even once? They are both two-faced hypocrites. One excellently played the role of a humanitarian gentleman with perfect manners, the other a chaste woman. And behind the scenes, they indulged themselves in illicit relationship planning how to ruin people's lives.
But, I had to give the first place to Bianca. She was far more dangerous than her so-called cousin. Leonardo at least showed his wicked nature when provoked, but she played her part until the very end. Only when there were no people to see how ugly she was inside, she show her psychotic self. Until my last moments, I had no idea what monster lurked inside her body. Her subordinate beat me, the bones on my limbs broken, with excessive blood loss from my body and shot in my lung. As I was in a shock with rapidly beating heart, she initiated a video call. She mocked me, cursed me, laughed at my misery, saying this is what a sl*t deserved for trying to covet her beloved.
She was jealous, I realised. That thought was amusing. Did she have so little confidence in herself, or was she blind to see how much Leonardo loved her? I burst into a new wave of giggles putting a hand on my stomach. It hurt. The muscles on my face were throbbing a little, and the air was not enough. I couldn't breathe. Tears formed in my eyes. Their images were blurry. A moment later, Leonardo put his hand on my shoulder.
''Miss Luo, what happened? Can we do something for you?'' He patted my back awkwardly. His voice was so gentle and caring. I wanted to vomit.
''Actually, you can.'' I looked at him coldly. ''Remove this dirty hand from my body and stay the hell away from me together with your lovely cousin.'' He abruptly froze. Surprise and unbelief were written on his face. A few seconds passed until he fully processed my words and reluctantly stepped back.
'' I don't think you can address people in such a rude manner. Please, restrain yourself'' His now lukewarm eyes turned into slits. I sneered at him.
'' This manor is my family's property. Thanks to my father, you can make your auction in order to cover your illegal deeds. In other words, you have to comply with my family and me while you both are here. So, if you dislike what you hear from me, you are free to do whatever you wish when you get out of my home.''
My behaviour was over the top. I knew it. This pair of people didn't hurt me at this moment in the past. Leo was good to me, and Bianca wasn't my friend. All in all, we had nothing to do with each other yet. But my memories and emotions were still fresh. They controlled my actions, and I didn't want to put them in check. I was an inch across from an emotional eruption.
''Mr D'Arcangelo, our contact from China, wish to have a word with you.''
''Alright. Bianca, wait for me in the car until I finish the call. Xavier, look after Miss McCarner. She may not want us here, but a person shouldn't be coldblooded and leave alone people in need.''
As I was ready to curse him, the blood in my veins froze. This man…Xavier was my tormentor. Bianca tasked him to kill me. And now it looked like he worked for Leonardo too. I look at Leo's back as he was leaving us. Did he know then? Did he help his cousin? He loved her to the moon and back but was he such a monster to let her destroy me completely?
My lips trembled. I wasn't a saint, but my death was far more crueller than I deserved. Xavier looked at me with empty, emotionless eyes. The endless hollowness in them scared me more than the most distorted psychopath could never do. This man was pedantic, careful, and observant. He would never make a mistake in torturing because he knew how to control the feeling of pain without causing life-threatening damages and how to hurt you gravely without the person realising.
My breathing became hard while I was thinking for all of these, the events of ot long ago repeating themselves like a horror movie. The feeling of suffocating raised rapidly. I gripped the handles of the couch, swallowing the need for vomiting. Due to the adrenalin rush, my body started shaking violently. Only Xavier was left in the room watching me with knitted brows. As he made a step forward, I shook my head. At this moment, my vision was foggy. His phone ranged.
''Mr D'Arcangelo, there is a problem with Miss McCarner. I'm not sure what it is. Yes, I will do it right now.''
He left the room, leaving me to my own devices. Closing my eyes, I tried to calm down. But this feeling of having a rock on my chest didn't go away. Finally, I vomited on the floor, unable to hold back anymore. The pain was back like a ghost refusing to let me live in peace. For a moment, I thought I was again in the warehouse. I could smell the scent of rubbish, felt the cold of the floor. It was overwhelming for my senses. Before I blacked out again in the span of half an hour, I saw my parents with the butler burst in worryingly. They were asking me different things, but I felt far away from them. I couldn't understand their words, nor I tried. I just wanted to have a rest.
The morning air was crisp and fresh. The sun was shining brightly, and its warmth gently caressed my skin. I was lying on the concrete next to the pool in the yard of Leonardo’s two-story house. My eyes were closed, and I was exuding an air of tranquillity. Or at least I hoped my pretense was believable enough for the security guard whose eyes were glaring at me with murderous intent. I wish I could sigh, but that would give me away. Honestly, at this point, the constant threats to my life felt like an annoying chore I had to constantly deal with. A normal person would be scared, constantly on edge, looking behind their back to make sure there isn’t a crazy personal hitman or a mentally unstable woman trying to end them, but maybe because I died once, I became a bit indifferent. Or maybe my indifference was a result of me going cuckoo. Whichever one it was, I was too lazy to give a sh*t.The security guard looked around for the fifth time during the last ten minutes. No, not because h
Trigger warning, panic attack, suicide, ptsd 1 month later, Valetta, Malta I raised my hands wrapped in boxing gloves and tried to relax my shoulders. They shouldn’t be stiff or too high. That would make my belly vulnerable. I put my right leg forward and crouched a little just enough to easy to avoid an attack coming to my face. I looked at the man standing opposite me and once his eyes met mine, I tried to hit him with my right fist. He blocked it as always, but it didn’t’ mean it will stop me from trying to punch him again and again. When I tried to hit him for the fourth time, he raised his fist so quickly I couldn’t even see it before I felt pain on the left side of my head. I staggered backward and shook my head like a wet dog. ‘’ I told you to be careful when you attack because you leave your guard open.’’ Leo’s voice was even and unbothered. On the other hand, I was already breathing with difficulties. ‘’Don’t focus only on attacking. You need to prot
For the first time in a long while, I felt some semblance of satisfaction. Was it because Leonardo, the man I used to love so much without being reciprocated, was standing in front of me? No, definitely, not. It was because of the fear in the eyes of the woman who ordered my death and almost succeeded in taking my life. Her skin was as white as a sheet of paper, and her dark eyes were round with dread. Did I look like that when Xavier took a picture of me and sent it to her? Did she feel the same thing as me now? If the answer was yes, I could truthfully say that I understood her. I sincerely understood why she enjoyed watching the person she hated suffering. My gaze full of malice was promising endless pain if I got the chance to get near her. Noticing the promise in my eyes, she quickly hid behind Xavier. As always. God, I just wanted to see her alone without the protection of her dog. I clenched my jaw, sensing my boiling anger but then forced myself to calm down. I wante
“All it takes is one bad day to reduce the sanest man alive to lunacy. That's how far the world is from where I am. Just one bad day.” Never in my life did I believe there would be a day when a quote from a comic would relate so closely to me. But recently, I started feeling that the bad days in my life are far more than the good. I was so tired of fighting to keep my sanity. To fight to stay afloat of the sea of misery that was pulling me to its depths with every passing day. I didn’t think I had more strength to swim. I gave up.I looked at the woman kidnapped and wanted to torture me for some unknown reason. Earlier I tied her wrist and ankles with the same rope she tied me before breaking free. My eyes found hers, and I noticed the slight trembling of her body. Her nostrils flared because of her heavy breathing, probably caused by her fear. Yes. It wasn’t funny to be let at the mercy of other people. But I was curious. Did I also look that pathetic
When I was left alone, I used the time to go to the bathroom and pull the lid of the toilet bowl. There I sat in for a while, not thinking about anything. I watched the white door blinking and not letting any thought or emotion in my head. For the first time in a while, I felt some semblance of peace. Why was my life like that? In the beginning, I blamed Leonardo and Bianca. But now? After this hallucination, I didn’t know what to think. Was what I saw something created by my stressed subconsciousness? It was possible, but it couldn’t explain the familiarity I felt. I had that feeling of being aware of it at some point but forgetting about it.However, I couldn’t accept the other option. I wasn’t strong enough mentally to do it at this point. So, for now, I would just bury my head in the sand and believe it was a bad dream caused by the constant stress I lived in. I went to wash my hands, and while doing so, the door opened, and another woman came in.
The door opened to a spacious hall bearing an ancient ambience. I blinked confusedly, wondering what was happening. Many people were inside wearing traditional Chinese clothes, their gazes pointing expectantly at the place where I was standing. Just a moment ago, the make–up artist was preparing me for the interview, and now suddenly, I was on some set for an ancient drama tv-series together with many other unknown people. I must be dreaming. But, normally, people didn’t realise they were dreaming while I was keenly aware that what I see wasn’t real. Then my body started moving on its own accord, making everything even more surreal. My back was as straight as an arrow, my head held high and my breathing steady. But deep inside, I was feeling anxious. Why was I moving without wanting it? I felt like a marionette. I tried to move my head around and better look at the environment, but it was impossible. The only thing I could see was the red hem of my clothes and t