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Guilty

作者: Yoanna
last update 公開日: 2022-04-21 20:07:16

Trigger warning, panic attack, suicide, ptsd

1 month later, Valetta, Malta

I raised my hands wrapped in boxing gloves and tried to relax my shoulders. They shouldn’t be stiff or too high. That would make my belly vulnerable. I put my right leg forward and crouched a little just enough to easy to avoid an attack coming to my face. I looked at the man standing opposite me and once his eyes met mine, I tried to hit him with my right fist. He blocked it as always, but it didn’t’ m

Yoanna

The author is an amateur boxer. Don't judge the author too hard

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