That idea, that possibility had been swimming in his heart ever since his first conversation with Cillian. Cillian’s countenance had changed as if Mordeu’s words had been directed at him. Even though his excuse could be that Kai was his friend and as such was obligated to take offence, it still did not justify why his mood would sullen in that manner.
Mordeu turned around and smiled, “But then, you told me you only desired women and that was really all I wanted to hear.” Cillian had stopped walking ever since Mordeu brought Kai up. He knew of Mordeu’s utmost dislike for people who had these feelings for their fellow gender. Cillian had no opinion on Mordeu’s emotions, but yes, he would prefer if Mordeu would just shut the hell up. He forced out a smile, “I think we should go back, it’s already late. It has been a long day for you.” Mordeu looked around, surely they had been walking in the dark for a while, their source of light had been the bright moon and so Mordeu never realized how far gone time was. Still, he didn’t feel the slightest hint of fatigue. He wanted to walk further, maybe to the end of the world. He wanted to keep talking to Cillian. However, Cillian didn’t share that desire with him. Mordeu felt a certain kind of way upon that realization. Cillian didn’t give him even a minute to agree or disagree, he had already turned around in the direction of his house. He intended to hide in his courtyard forever if it meant avoiding Mordeu. But he could not avoid him. His desire was irrelevant. No matter where he turned to and for what reason he did, his life, his reality was tied to Mordeu’s. And the only thing that Cillian found utterly terrible about it all was that Mordeu was so greatly displeased about people like that and would not shut up nor keep Kai out of his mouth. Mordeu watched as Cillian continued walking away, his heart lurched with uncertain disappointment, the sinking feeling pulsating in his reality. Though he had come to accept that Cillian was obviously walking away, nevertheless, he thought he would be generous enough to spare him a glance. A short, fleeting glance would be okay. However, with long strides, a calmness from the heavens, and the air of divinity, Cillian walked away, stingily. The sun had just settled in the sky, painting the clouds a beautiful shade of orange. The settlement was starting to ring with life as the guards and instructors took their places. The torches on each pillar of the settlement were already put out by the guards as they waited for the one assigned to ring the morning bell to do his work. Lesson was scheduled to start today. The days of leisure had come to an end, and the reason why they were all here dawned on them like the sun just had. The heavy metal bell that was situated a few miles from the settlement — it was so huge it got itself its own building. With stones arranged one on top of the other and glued together with clay, the bell was hung high up and could only be rung by pulling a very thick rope which went over the top of the bell and sank down, surely caught in between many other machines. The manner in which the tower had been built, the way the bell worked was nothing of his concern. All he was meant to do was ring the bell. The heavy bell sounded throughout the mountain, not only waking up the trainees but also Alvitir’s household. However, the only Alvitir that was yet to awaken was Ayra, for Alvitir and his son were already awake, dressed up and ready to start the day. The only difference between them was that Alvitir had had a splendid night’s rest. Even though plagued with what he had just discovered, he managed to get good sleep. Cillian was different. He couldn’t close his eyes all through the night. He knew the reasons for such, but addressing them was what he was reluctant to do. He heaved a sigh and then walked out to meet his father who was waiting in front on the lawn with his entourage in tow. The entourage consisted of the other houses; Balor and Stregobor and their personal servants as well. Cillian knew seeing his sister there would be highly improbable, so he didn’t bother to look. His head was hung low as he approached the Head of the Houses. “Greetings,” he bowed slightly. Alvitir gave his son a hard stare, his eyebrows were narrowed, giving his son a scrutinizing stare that couldn’t be reciprocated given the fact that his eyes were pinned to the ground. Alvitir opened his mouth, but the voice that could be heard wasn’t his own. “Did you talk to him?” Cillian raised his eyes to meet Stregobor’s. Their unvoiced, short tussle hanging in the air between the two of them. Cillian was reluctant to deliver an answer, and Stregobor equally exuded the idea of being reluctant to communicate with him. Both were very prideful men, who had skill to back up their pride, to match their complacency. If given the chance to draw swords, to the eyes of the servants, a winner would be impossible to come forth. However, the men involved knew who the winner would be. Cillian nodded his head, “I did.” “What was his response? What are your thoughts about him?” It was Balor this time. It was so early in the morning but he already had a goblet in his hand, obviously filled with wine. The stench of the drink was heavily wrapped around him, making it very hard for Cillian to focus on the conversation. “Well,” he glanced ahead while digging through his memory for the events of last night and what Mordeu’s response had been. There was nothing. “He didn’t have a response. He just absorbed the information.” Stregobor’s uneasy growl was deafening. “I think we should kill him.” There weren’t any voices of controversion, nor were there sounds of support. Alvitir only gazed at his son’s frown that was aimed at Stregobor, understanding that his son was greatly displeased by his suggestion. “What do you think?” Alvitir finally got the chance to talk to his son. “Should we kill him?”That idea, that possibility had been swimming in his heart ever since his first conversation with Cillian. Cillian’s countenance had changed as if Mordeu’s words had been directed at him. Even though his excuse could be that Kai was his friend and as such was obligated to take offence, it still did not justify why his mood would sullen in that manner.Mordeu turned around and smiled, “But then, you told me you only desired women and that was really all I wanted to hear.”Cillian had stopped walking ever since Mordeu brought Kai up. He knew of Mordeu’s utmost dislike for people who had these feelings for their fellow gender. Cillian had no opinion on Mordeu’s emotions, but yes, he would prefer if Mordeu would just shut the hell up.He forced out a smile, “I think we should go back, it’s already late. It has been a long day for you.”Mordeu looked around, surely they had been walking in the dark for a while, their source of light had been the bright moon and so Mordeu never realized how
Mordeu couldn’t believe what he was hearing. Though Cillian had told him the history of this man in such a casual manner, it still ignited a sense of unease, a feeling of dread and a need to escape in Mordeu, and now he was hearing that that man was still very much alive.“You said it happened a hundred years ago, there’s no way he would still be alive.”Cillian nodded his head. “Well, normally, it wouldn’t be, and that has brought about the deduction that red wolves have a longer life span.”Mordeu swallowed. The good thing was that he was going to live long, but then, his loved ones wouldn’t, his mate surely wouldn’t, and he would outlive everyone he cared about.However, Mordeu couldn’t allow himself to indulge in that section of the story just yet. He was still trying to wrap his head around the newfound knowledge that the scariest man he has ever heard of was still very much alive. Though it wasn’t a problem of his, it still made him feel very anxious. He couldn’t quite place his
Cillian scrutinized Mordeu for a while. He wondered what could’ve changed, what could have spiked up his curiosity about the red wolves. What Cillian could remember was that Mordeu had chosen to walk with him with no desire whatsoever to learn about his predecessors, but suddenly, out of the blue, with a smile on his face and mirth in his eyes, he was asking for his history.Somehow, along the way, Mordeu’s reluctance to learn about his history had contaminated Cillian’s zeal to tell him about it. He had lost his willpower and now Mordeu was suddenly demanding the story, one that Cillian had successfully tossed away to the back of his head.Nevertheless, he had a duty to Mordeu, so whether he wished to tell him or not, he was obligated to.“Well, where do I start from?” He circled around a spot.Mordeu watched him with an inquisitive expression. He could see that Cillian was lost in the history books with no idea where to start from.To say the truth, Mordeu still had no desire to lea
Mordeu raised an eyebrow. The last reason Cillian gave did not sit right with him. Nevertheless, he would rather hear from Cillian than anyone else, whether he was going to die or not. Probably, it would make him feel much better if the reason for his death was coming from Cillian.Under everyone’s eyes, Cillian rose to his feet and walked away, tugging on Mordeu’s robe as he walked right past him. Mordeu followed immediately after him. Cillian led him away into the woods. At the time, the sun was getting ready to lay her head to rest and give way to the nocturnal creature, the moon. Cillian walked in the woods, through the trees in silence. His marvelous face entertained a small, satisfied smile as his feet touched the fallen leaves on the ground.At the moment, Mordeu cared less about the issues going on—whether he was meant to die by Cillian’s hands or not, which was starting to feel like unfathomable bliss, or whether he really was a menace to society. None of that seemed importa
Cillian moved and stood before Mordeu. “Let’s see for ourselves, Lord Stregobor.”Stregobor frowned at what Cillian was meaning to do. Mordeu’s heart palpitated, his focus was disoriented. Stregobor’s movements were explicable to everyone in the courtyard. If Mordeu were to change and make even the slightest berserk movement, Stregobor would’ve struck his sword into him. However, Cillian had stood in front of him in a stance of protection. It was like the table had turned on them. Mordeu was initially meant to protect Cillian, but now Cillian was ready to risk his life going head-on in battle against Stregobor if he were to attack Mordeu.Mordeu cleared his throat and pulled Cillian back. The thought of Cillian protecting him was pleasurable, but he didn’t want anyone to misunderstand. Standing against one of the Lords may come off as rebellion, whether or not he was Alvitir’s son. Mordeu didn’t want to risk it.“I’m not a danger to anyone. You don’t have to be alert around me. I’m j
Mordeu almost panicked. “That’s not what I mean. You’re amazing, you’re not repulsive. It’s just that it’s because…”“He’s a man,” Cillian fetched the words out of him.Mordeu nodded his head.Cillian smiled. “I understand now, it really is disgusting to some people.”Mordeu chuckled in relief. “I think it’s disgusting to everyone.”Cillian said nothing to that. The rest of the walk to Alvitir’s own courtyard was left in silence. Mordeu’s head was cautiously wrapping itself around the discussion he just had with Cillian.Never had he thought for a second that there could exist a man who didn’t just see indulging in sexual activities with another man as a pastime but would rather want to spend the rest of his life with another man. It was unquestionable—the way Kai looked at Cillian, the way he made subtle touches, how he would place his hand on his thigh, or his knee, or his shoulder, how he would look at Cillian like Cillian was a pool of intoxicating water or how he definitely want