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Kristoff kissed me! I can’t even count how many kisses he has given me since this morning. I can do nothing but just sigh. Sigh in happiness and content. I like this feeling very much.
Well, who wouldn’t like this feeling? The person I loved all these years loves me back. Isn’t that a good feeling?
Maybe not.
Because it is the best feeling ever.
Who would expect someone who you thought has never laid his eyes on you to be crushing on you all this time?
So, we were feeling mutual feelings for each other all these times. How did he manage to keep all those feelings in?
But one thing is still unanswered in my mind. Who is that Bianca Lee to him? Why is she clinging to him to the she would tell everyone in the world that they have history?
Just thinking about it makes me really bothered.
Kristoff looked—or stared—at me while I was seated across him in the table.
LITTLE MISS INSECUREI ran as fast as I could. I don’t want to talk to anyone. Especially not to Dad. Especially not to Kristoff.How could they do this to me? How could dad hide this thing from me? Didn’t they realize that keeping it a secret from me would make me more upset?Now, I don’t want to think about anything. I just wouldn’t want to think. I don’t want to think. Because all that is in my mind is how they betrayed me.Bianca Lee. Of all people, why must it be her?She is everything I will never be. I am nothing compared to her. She is Kristoff’s ideal type. She is a goddess and they have history. She is the owner of Jewel Shoppe where everyone looks up to.I shut my eyes as I hailed a cab.All of these insecurities are setting in. I couldn’t believe I’d be this insecure towards someone. And this person I am insecure of is my sister. I f
SORRY, NOT SORRY“Are you sure you can eat all these?” I asked Hunter who led me to an Italian restaurant near the forbidden park and ordered foods good for eight people.I looked at him in disbelief and shock. How could he order a lot of same dishes? I mean, they are all pasta and pizza. How could he eat all these?He just gave me a grin and started attacking the food.I sat there, watched him, stunned. Oh yes, he is eating well, eating really, really, well. What can I say?“Are celebrities supposed to eat a lot? Aren’t you conscious of your image and appearance?” I asked him, still not starting to eat.He looked at me while he was plopping the spaghetti in his mouth. He tried to respond but I didn’t understand because his mouth is full.I handed him the iced tea. It was bottomless as well. What will my bill be? How much will it be? It seems like I have to work harder on
ZOMBIEKristoff continuously knocked on my door since the moment I entered and banged the door in front of his face.“Ashanti! Open up, please?”I ignored him.“Please! Baby, at least let me explain!”I rolled my eyes and went to the toilet to shower and prepare myself for the congratulatory dinner. What was there to explain anyway? It is clear that they had betrayed me. They kept that freaking secret from me and now I am torn because it hurts so much.Perhaps, it’s true that it is hard to forgive the persons close to you. Well, it is harder than those strangers who bump into you on the way.I felt like I was eaten by my whole being. I didn’t even know what happened. All I know is that I can’t talk to any of them right now.Dad and Kristoff.No. Definitely not.I don’t know when I would be ready to talk to them because I don’t know i
TRUTH HURTSWhere am I? That was the first thing I asked myself when I opened my eyes. I was in this white place with a single window. I am certain that this is not my room. And I swear, this isn’t Kristoff’s.I looked around and saw an IV line connected to me.So I am at a hospital?I looked to my right and saw a figure sleeping in the couch. Seems familiar but I can’t seem to remember.“Ashanti?”I flinched when I heard that voice.Kristoff.I immediately looked away as he began to walk towards me.“You are awake! Thank God!” He beamed as he hugged me tightly. I can’t even breathe. But why is this feeling taking over me once again?I don’t know but I just let him hold me like that. Damn. I must admit that I miss his touch. I miss him badly. But there is this fighting feeling that makes me want to go away.Bianca, th
MAKE UPAcceptance. An easy word to speak, a hard one to do. And what makes it harder is the fact that you don’t want to accept it. You resist that certain force to accept what is presented to you.As for me, that is what is happening.I am trying my best to try to convince myself to accept the reality but it just wouldn’t work. Every time I think about it—every time I think about her—everything in me just repulses. Like every cell in my body hates me for even considering the idea of accepting her into the family.It’s not like Bianca has done something really bad to me. But yeah, she somehow did. When she broadcasted in the whole Chicago that she and Kristoff had this history, she had done the worst thing to me.I just couldn’t get the fact that she knew that we are sisters—half-sisters—and she still came into our house, begging Kristoff to choose her. Well, aside from the
AS LONG AS YOU’RE SAFEIt took me a few tears and tantrums before Kristoff allowed me to visit Hunter. He just wouldn’t budge. I told him I won’t take long, I even promised, but he just wouldn’t blink. He even wouldn’t flinch. And I don’t get why he is too stoic about this thing. He feels so possessive. But hey, he isn’t showing any affection or any emotion about it either.But then, I shot a tantrum and didn’t talk to me and poof! He agreed in an instant.“Three minutes, Shan. I’ll be waiting for you for three minutes.” He warned me as we stand in front of Hunter’s room door.I nodded. “I know,” I replied.He has been repeating that instruction for the thousandth time and I have grown tired of it already.He sighed and gave me my phone. “Take this,” he said. “When that rings, it means your time’s up.”
KRISTOFFI know I have hurt Ashanti. I have crushed her heart. I lied to her. I have stepped on her feelings more than I could ever imagine. I have done the worst things a husband could do.But for everything that I have done, I have a reason.“Kristoff, I want to talk to you.” Ashanti’s dad, came into my office, Monday last week.I was shocked because never have I expected Shan’s Dad to appear in my office, any day of the week. But here he is. I looked at him and led him to the couch. “What is it, Dad?” I asked. He sighed really hard. “Promise me not to tell Ashanti about this. Don’t tell her that we talked. Not even a sound about this,” he told me with a serious face. I was intimidated. So, I nodded. He smiled weakly. For the time that I have known him, this is the first time that I have seen
START OF THE END“Don’t you have work today?” I looked at Kristoff who is cooking something.He looked at me and smiled. “Good morning to you too, Ashanti!” He greeted me sarcastically.I rolled my eyes and walked beside him. “Why are you the one cooking? Where is Lora and Jana?” I asked him.He smiled. “It’s better this way than make you the one to cook,” he told me.I scoffed. “Hey! You really know how to boost my self-esteem in cooking, don’t you?” I pouted.He smiled and wrapped his arm around me while he was mixing his dish with the other. “You look cute when you pout. It makes my morning complete,” he whispered.Suddenly, I felt my lips forming a smile and my face heating up. Damn Kristoff when he is acting like this. My heart is beating really, really, really fast.I suddenly felt his lips on my cheek. Ge