MasukThis has to be a joke. Did the Council set this up? Or did they just wake up and decide to fly halfway across the damned country to insult me?
I can’t hide the glare as I sit down on my throne.
They’re all here. Every Alpha. All of them accompanied by daughters, nieces, sisters even.
Did they set this up? Did they all have a little conversation behind my back about how to deal with my lost mate problem?
Gods, Lia isn’t even cold in her grave, if she even has a grave, and already they’re trying to slide some new She-Wolf into my bed.
I glance at my mother. She’s stood to the side, I know all these Alpha’s always fuck with her head, that her own mate-bond reacts to their presence because she’s a Sullivan. And more than that, I know she’s uneasy, that that old fear is stirring. She’s the only woman in the world who can create Lycan’s. What if one of these Alpha’s decided to steal her away when I decided their chosen bride wasn’t to my liking? If my fathers were here she wouldn’t have to put up with this. If my fathers were here she would be safe, in her rooms, while they backed me up.
No. I don’t need them to back me up. They might be Alphas too. But I am the Alpha King. I am fully capable of holding my own.
And perhaps this will be a good demonstration of that. A good lesson for these Wolves to learn. Because of my age they see me as malleable, mouldable. They’re about to find out I am anything but.
“What is the meaning of this?” I growl.
“Your Grace,” Alpha Elwood says, “We came to pay our respects.”
“Respects?” I repeat. By displaying all these She-Wolves in front of me? That’s meant to be respectful is it?
“With the Aurora Pack gone…” Alpha Kian says carefully.
I shake my head getting up and prowl towards them. Half the women duck their heads like that’s what I’m after, a mate, a partner who’s too scared to look me in the face. One or two have the balls to stare my down and I’ll give them the credit where that is due.
I’m not an easy Wolf to look at. I’m almost twice the size of every man in this room. My Lycan genes have made me this way. My muscles are more pronounced, my body is stronger, faster, far more domineering than a simple Wolf. That’s another reason why I needed my mate. Because she was matched to me. Her body could handle me.
Oh, I’ve fucked She-Wolves. I’ve had my share. Afterall, we’re not known to be saints, waiting patiently as virgins until our mate arrives. No, I’ve enjoyed my time being single, just as my fathers did before they found my mother. I don’t doubt Lia has done the same, hell I want her to have. To have lived and enjoyed herself before she dedicated her life to me.
That stops me. That thought. Lia is dead. If she did fuck anyone, if she died a virgin, well, none of it makes any difference now. She’s gone. My mate is gone. I’ll never even lay eyes on her.
I clench my fists in fury as that thought sinks in and mingles with the doubt in my head still whispering that my mate can’t be dead. She just can’t be.
My eyes cast once more of the twenty or so women. If I choose one, if I decided to forget my anger and lose myself in the delights of their body, I know it would only be temporary. That the pleasure wouldn’t last because it never does.
I’ve always had to hold back, had to keep myself from entirely giving in to my partner. I’ve never been able to fuck the way I truly wanted because I know deep down any other than my mate cannot handle it. Their body is too fragile, too weak.
And now I will never have that. I will never get that.
“This is my daughter, Francesca,” Alpha Elwood says and I realise I’ve been staring at her. My eyes practically boring into her.
She’s pretty, with a long auburn hair not unlike my mothers, a wide soft face and bright blue eyes that look almost like jewels. She drops a curtsey, giving me a glimpse of her pert breasts in the slinky dress she has on.
Alpha Elwood’s family have ruled his pack for almost a thousand years. They’re a strong pack, a pack with history, legacy, loyalty too. Yeah, she’d made a good mate. A fine partner.
Just not for me.
“I’m busy.” Is all I can get out.
Her face drops. Her smile dies instantly. Maybe I am a brute, maybe the death of my mate is a punishment from the Moon Goddess herself for my bad manners but I don’t care.
I’m not going to entertain this, I’m not going to allow this insult to continue.
I walk out, leaving them all stood, staring at my back dumbfounded.
I start slow, deciding that Luca is the easiest to paint. I’m not a fantastic painter but I’m not bad either. I take my time, sketching out his features, drawing and redrawing until I know they’re perfect.Then I do Jace. Then my mother, then my father, leaving my sister to last.I’m sobbing when I begin working on Lia’s portrait. It feels too painful to attempt and yet I want to see her face, I want to bring her back to life the only way I can. I feel like the fake Lia has tarnished her memory, has spoiled every moment I had of my real sister.By the time I’m done, days have past. Khloe comes and sits with me. Ryker pops in here and there. Neither of them speak. Maybe they can tell that this feels too precious, too intimate.I’m scared to paint them, to finish the canvases for fear that’ll mess it up but again, I take my time, after all, that’s what I have now. Time. So much time.Once they are finished, I stay where I am, half shocked, half broken, staring up at the family I loved,
When I get to my room, I see someone there, I see the mass of muscles, the undeniable shape of a Lycan and though my heart shouldn’t react, it still does.And then he turns, he turns, and I see the red hair and the lack of tattoos, and I know it’s not him. It’s not Adriel.I hate how much it hurts. I hate how much I wanted it to be him.“Hey,” Ryker says like he knows exactly where my thoughts are.“Hey,” I reply, giving him a small smile. I don’t want to take out my emotions on him. It’s not his fault. None of this is. He can’t help that his brother is the worst kind of person imaginable.“Please don’t leave.”I blink, fighting back the tears. So Khloe told him?“We need you, Mari, this Pack needs you.”I shake my head, as that emotion cascades out of me, as I start sobbing. Can’t he see how much this is hurting me? How much this is killing me?And he’s there, hugging me, soothing me, once more playing that kind, loving brother I miss so badly. “It’ll get better. I promise.”“When?”
I stay away, hide away, making sure my door is locked and that no one can get in. I don’t trust the Pack Witch enough to ask for help, for all I know she’s involved in this, she’s the one casting these spells.I know I should speak to Khloe, that shutting her out like this is unfair but I’m struggling. I’m struggling so badly.I’m not sure if it’s her or Ryker behind it, but they make sure that I have food, that all my meals are delivered and while I’m hungry, I more pick at it than truly eat it.I feel sick. Sick and disgusted.Adriel hasn’t touched her since, but that doesn’t make up for what he’s done. It doesn’t remedy all the wrongs. Did he really think I wouldn’t have noticed? Or did he not care? I guess it doesn’t matter either way. He’s burned all his bridges as far as I’m concerned. It’s over. I never want to see him again. I never want to speak to him again.And that alone breaks my heart more than anything else.After a week of self-imposed exile, Khloe clearly has enough a
She tears from the room, almost tripping over in her haste to get away from me and I can’t blame her.I didn’t know she would feel it. I hate that she does.I don’t even know why I did it, why I was with Lia, when this morning Maricela was all I could think about. What the hell was I thinking? What the hell am I doing?And then Ryker slams his fist into my face before I can do anything else.“You piece of shit.” He snarls, as I land on my arse, completely taken by surprise. “You fucked her? You fucked Lia, after everything?”“I didn’t.” I splutter.He snarls, clearly not believing me.“I didn’t want to. I didn’t…” Gods how do I even explain what happened, how do I even try? Lia’s had me locked up in our room all day and I couldn’t get out, I couldn’t…“But you did it anyway.” He sneers over me, like I’m trash. Like he hates me as much as my mate does.“She forced me.” I shout, as something inside me snaps, as that awful memory comes flooding back enough that I fear I might just lose a
I lash out, I buck my back, I try to get free of whatever this is, but it tightens its grip, forcing me down, forcing me further to the bottom.I gulp, swallowing water, feeling it fill up my lungs. Is this drowning? Is this what it feels like? I heard it was peaceful? That you simply slip away and die. This is so different from that.But as my mind registers the awful betrayal, the agony of what my mate has put me through I think there is a part of me that would willingly drown now. That would willingly roll over and die.But I don’t want that. I don’t want to die. I’m Alpha Juan’s daughter for fucksake. I’m better than that, better than this pathetic creature they’re turning me into.I scream out and it comes out so muddled, so contorted against the water swirling around me.And then a hand reaches down, a body dives into the pool and I’m wrenched up, pulled out and all that fearful panic is gone.He slaps my back, helping me cough up all that water as I gasp and heave on all fours.
I double over in pain. I scream out, shutting my eyes, but it does no good.I know what’s happening.I know exactly what this is.That he’s with her. That he’s fucking her right now.My tears stream down my face and that betrayal, it hurts worse than ever. I thought yesterday might have meant something, I thought last night meant something, I thought him taking me to meet his grandmother was proof that he was accepting our bond, that he was starting to accept me as his mate.But this act, this proves it; everything I feared. Everything I’ve been pretending isn’t the case. That I’m a fool. A stupid, naïve fool.I writhe on the floor, in absolute agony. There’s nothing I can do to alleviate it. Nothing I can do to ease it. My mate is cheating on me. And right now, while he’s chasing his pleasure, I’m the one paying the price.Only, when it ends, that isn’t it. Clearly, they’re spending the day making up, reuniting. Over and over that pain wracks through me, telling me under no uncertain







