VioletA soft groan slipped past my lips as the bright morning sun hit me. The first thing my hand reached for was the empty spot beside me, and then I heard quiet footsteps through the room.I knew it was Kylan, and I was certain he wasn’t trying to wake me. Curious, I peeked one eye open, just enough to watch him through my lashes.What would he be up to today?His back was turned toward me as he stood in front of the window, and I could not stop staring at him, thinking about yesterday.Yesterday was definitely something. I had come clean to him about the information I withheld from him, and he was deeply disappointed, and rightfully so. We had talked about the Kayden situation, came to the conclusion that we didn’t see eye to eye, but I couldn’t say it was an argument.After everything that was said, he walked out because he needed some space, but as soon as that door closed, I did the one thing I swore I wouldn’t.I broke down.At first, I wasn’t even sure why. I thought it was b
KylanI let out a surprised laugh, even if I didn’t mean to. I didn’t know what was funnier, that she had called herself a failing mother, or that she thought she might still have something to offer after I had already ruined everything.She was the woman who gave birth to me. My mother, and not just mine, but Lyperia’s mother. I had always been desperate for her love, and I still was. I remembered how relieved I had felt when I saw her standing with Violet at the feast. Even more when I bumped into her in the halls and she didn’t look at me with that same coldness I had learned to get used to.I understood why she was angry, and I accepted it. She had every right to be. For so long, I had wished she would forgive me.But now that she was here, standing in front of me, I wasn’t quite sure if I even liked the sound of what she was saying.She acknowledged something, and it meant I had to face something I wasn’t ready for, something I wasn’t even focused on at the moment. Her actually t
KylanI needed to walk. If I stayed another second in the room, I would’ve said something I couldn’t take back. Or worse—I would’ve snapped at her…My Violet…Fergus looked me in the eye and made me promise I would never raise my voice at her, and I could not break that promise.I was furious, but more than that, broken.She should’ve told me.She should’ve told me from the start.The second Kayden saw her eyes.The second he started getting closer.And I wasn’t even going to get started on the mountains. All I ever wanted was to protect her, but she didn’t trust me enough to let me.My steps were hard and loud. Several guards glanced at me, but I didn’t care, just as I didn’t bother to acknowledge their greetings. I ran my hand through my hair, dragging my fingers across my scalp like it could stop the noise in my head, but it couldn’t. Nothing could.She lied to me, and I hated lies.I didn’t forgive easily. Especially not lies. I never had. It was just how I was. I cut people off t
VioletKylan’s body stiffened. His hand slipped off the door handle, and his eyes went big as he turned around all the way.“What did you just say?” he asked, stunned.I gulped, knowing it was not exactly what he wanted to hear, but he was the one who told me not to lie to him again. My heart was beating out of my chest, but I held his gaze.“You told me to be honest with you,” I said, my voice steady. “So I’m being honest.”Even as the words left me, my mind was spinning. I didn’t want to go against Kylan, and I didn’t want to provoke him or turn this into something ugly. As a matter of fact, it had always been hard for me to be open about what I wanted, and what I believed in. I had spent most of my life watering myself down so I wouldn’t scare anyone off.But Kylan had told me to be real…So I was being real, and yes, I was shitting myself.Kylan looked down at his balled fist, then slowly opened it. “My hand,” he said, “could be wrapped around Kayden’s throat at this very second.”
VioletMy heart dropped the second the question hit me. I knew I gave him very good reasons to believe so, but he really thought I trusted Kayden over him. Kayden…He still didn’t yell, didn’t storm off, but just stared into my eyes as he asked questions he feared he already knew the answer to. That’s the part that broke me.The thing I had broken wasn’t just some stupid rule or his promise. It was his trust, and there was one thing I needed to clear up. Not because he clearly didn’t want to talk before whatever this was, was handled, but because I owed it to him.“I do trust you,” I whispered. My voice felt dry and tight.He didn’t say anything. All he did was give me that observing look again. The one where he tried searching every corner of my face, looking for lies.And as he kept staring at me, a thousand thoughts were in my mind. Thoughts I couldn’t help because that was just the way I functioned.Was he going to decide I wasn’t trustworthy, and take back his love?Does he hate
Violet“He knows,” I breathed.I looked at Kylan for a long moment, just studying him the way he always studied me as I looked for signs. To be honest, I didn’t even know what I was looking for.Maybe a twitch, or a shift, or anything to tell me how bad this was going to be. Was he angry?He looked angry. But I wasn’t sure.Was this the part I had been so afraid of? Where the one person I had been leaning on the most would finally call me stupid?Kylan’s jaw flexed. He pulled in a breath through his nose, clearly trying not to snap, and then he…smiled. His lips curled into a tight smile, and his hand slowly rested on my thigh.“And when did this happen?” he asked. His tone was gentle but tense. He didn’t need to tell me that he was hurt, and he didn’t have to try and hide it either, because I could clearly tell. It had affected him.“It was the first day I got here,” I came clean, my voice small. “That morning I went to Madam Renata. I got overwhelmed, had a panic attack, and my eyes…