CLARA“You’ve got to be kidding me, girl. Please say that this is a joke,” Lucaa begged.I shook my head and took a sip of my latte. It was decaf of course.Oh, how I missed caffeine.“I’m not kidding, Lucaa. I don’t think I want to do it,” I replied.“But that’s like the chance you have to receive free gifts. Babies aren’t cheap, you know?”I took another sip of my latte and set it on the table. “I’m well aware of that but I don’t want to take advantage of people’s generosity,” I told her.She sucked back her coffee and glared at me. “You’re not taking advantage if they really want to do it for you.”I shrugged. “Still, it still doesn’t feel right.”Lucaa sighed. “What the hell am I going to do with you?”“You have no choice but to love me forever,” I replied.“This is not the time for jokes, Clara. I’m dead serious. You need to have a baby shower.”“This is not why I asked to meet you, Lucaa. Mateo’s mom asked me about it and I want you to help me come up with an excuse so that she
CLARAIt was late afternoon before Lucaa and I said goodbye to each other at the coffee shop when I returned to the house.I was greeted by Christopher at the door.“Hi, Christopher,” I greeted.“Hello, Ms. Clara. You were gone before I had breakfast ready,” he said.I smiled at him and said, “I apologize. I had to meet with my friend at our spot.”“The coffee shop?” he inquired and I nodded. “I hope you at least got something to eat,” he added.“Yeah, I ordered a muffin with my coffee at the cafe,” I replied.Christopher shook his head. “No, that won’t do. You need more than a single muffin and I’ve got just the right thing for you.”He grabbed my hand and dragged me towards the kitchen.“Sit,” he ordered, pointing to the high stool by the kitchen island.I took a seat and asked, “Don’t you think it’s too late for breakfast?”“I know, that’s why I’m going to serve you lunch,” he replied. “You have more than just yourself to think about so you need to eat well.”“But I am eating well
MATEOThe last thing I expected was an impromptu visit from my mother.No, it wasn’t because I didn’t want to see her but more often than not, when she does things like this, it’s to tell me about her sudden bright ideas which usually consist of fundraisers and charity balls.However this time around, her bright idea was none of those. Today, she came to my office to discuss Clara and her baby.“I don’t know why you are telling me all this, Mom. Ultimately, it’s Clara’s decision,” I said.“I know but you can always convince her. It’s your baby too,” she argued.“I’m not going to force her to do something she doesn’t feel comfortable with.”“What’s there to feel uncomfortable about? It’s a baby shower, every expecting mother wants one,” she said.Except, for Clara apparently.“Then she must have a reason why she doesn’t want to have one,” I told her and she frowned at me.“Why are you acting this way? You should be trying to change her mind.”“Clara is old enough to know what she want
MATEO“Is there a reason why I need to be in this briefing?” Bruno asked.I glanced at Dominic who was sitting beside Bruno. We were currently in my office.“Would you prefer to be left out?” Dominic asked.“That’s not what I said,” he replied.“Then please, explain to us what you meant,” I said.“You sat right there merely a few days ago and accused me of being a traitor. I believe I have every right to be surprise when Dominic called me in the middle of the night to tell me that we had a field assignment,” Bruno said.“And I was told that you handled yourself quite well,” I responded.“What did you expect?” he snarled. “That I was going to let a bunch of amateurs take me out? If that was your big plan then you need to go back to the drawing board because you failed horribly.”I smiled. “Now, there’s no need to get defensive. If I wanted to kill you, I have a handgun that’ll do the job perfectly,” I told him.“Sir,” Dominic chided.“What? I’m just letting him know that I don’t need t
MATEO For the first time, I had to stoop low to listen to Dominic. Not like I never listened to his advice before, I meant on cases like this one.I couldn’t clearly tell why I was being this way towards Bruno. Not like I haven’t seen just enough to know he was on my side. But then, I just wanted to vent my anger on him. Maybe, that’s because I wanted him to see how annoying it was to suddenly hate an innocent man.But that wasn’t helping in anyway.I stared at my phone, but didn’t make a move to touch it. It was too early to give him that call, right?I’ll definitely do that later in the night.Lily walked in without knocking. I was too busy to even notice that.“Oh my gosh!” She screamed, covering her mouth with her hands. I looked at her, trying to know why she had suddenly shouted.She pointed at me, stammering like I had suddenly turned ghost. “What’s wrong, Lily?” I asked, trying not to transfer my aggression to her.“Your face, it’s burning red.” She finally spoke. “Did you ye
MATEO I sighed frustratedly. “I guess calling you here was a mistake then.”The smiled turned to a smirk. “Who said so?” I raised an eyebrow at him. “I’m quite less busy today, so I think being here is the best choice.”We sat in silence for a long time. Trust me, I wish I could smack his face a million times. He keeps getting on my nerves, giving me reasons to get annoyed even more.“If you don’t have anything to tell me, I guess you should get going now.” I told him.“Fine. I was even about to do that now.” He stood up, heading for the door. “I really need the information, Bruno.” I said, trying to be calm as possible. “I need to know what step to take next.”“And I said no, Mateo. I can’t give you the information you need right now.” He smiled. “I will definitely tell you, but not today. And not even anytime this week.”I never knew he was damn serious with his words until he walked out of my room without hesitation. I walked towards the window, watching as he stepped into his ca
MATEOI found Clara watching a show when I walked into the house.I guess she was feeling better since she wasn’t asleep like she had been the past few days.“Oh, I didn’t hear you come in,” she said when she finally noticed my presence.“I was quiet in case you were sleeping.”“Well, you didn’t need to do that. Most of the time when I fall asleep I’m usually dead to the world,” she replied.Don’t I know it?Sometimes I wished I could sleep the way she did but I guess that’s virtually impossible. I doubted she had much to worry about.“Have you had dinner?” I asked.She nodded. “Yes, Christopher fed me before he retired for the night.”“That’s good.”“Uhm… do you want me to dish out your dinner?” she asked.I shook my head. “No, I can do that myself.”“Okay, then,” she said and turned her attention back to the show she was watching.I turned to go to the kitchen but stopped in my tracks when she called for me.“Can I talk to you?” she requested.“Sure, what do you want to talk about?”
CLARAI parked my ass on one of the hard benches in the chapel and dialed, Lucaa’s number.“Hey, girl!” she answered in her usual chipper voice. “I wasn’t expecting a call from you today.”“Stop playing, Lucaa. Since when do I need to inform you before I call,” I replied.“I was just kidding,” she replied with a light chuckle. “And I’m going to guess and say you’re in the chapel so what’s up?”“I have news for you. In fact, I’m sure you would classify this as good news,” I said.“Ouuuu…I’m set. Now tell me what it is,” she demanded like a child and I couldn’t help but let out a little laugh.“Okay, I had a conversation with Mateo about the baby shower,” I started.“Okay….” She replied tentatively, obviously having no idea where this was going.So I went ahead and narrated the details of my conversation with Mateo. And in true Lucaa fashion, she listened without interrupting.“That seems to have been a very interesting conversation,” she said when I had finished giving her the details.
MATEO“You’ve been smiling a lot lately. Care to tell me what’s got you so happy because last I checked, Renzetti was still alive and well,” Dominic said.We had just finished a meeting, and instead of getting out of my office, he was prying into my personal life, which was on brand for him.“I don’t remember it being any of your business, and last I checked, the fact that Renzetti is still alive doesn’t mean I had to be miserable about it,” I replied.“No, it doesn’t but I’ve known you for years, and you’ve smiled more in the last few days than I’ve ever seen you do. Which tells me that something has changed, and I think I have an idea as to what it is,” Dominic added.“Yeah? Why don’t you tell me since you now seem to be aware of everything going on in my life?” I demanded.“Being your usual self isn’t going to make me switch the subject, Mateo. I’m your friend first, and I’m glad you finally took my advice and told Clara how you feel,” he said, and I stared at him in surprise.“How
CLARA“You better not be messing with me,” Lucaa warned.“I promise I’m not,” I responded.We were at our favorite bistro and had placed an order for some burgers and fries. Since we were waiting for our food, I told her about what had been going on between Mateo and me.“Swear that you’re telling the truth,” she demanded.“Come on, Lucaa. You’ve known me for most of my life. Do you think I would lie to you about something like this?”She thought about it for a moment before she said, “No, you won’t.”Then, her face transformed into a bright smile. "It's about time! Gosh, this is amazing news!" she exclaimed excitedly.“Wait, you’re not mad I didn’t tell you earlier?”She looked at me like I was crazy. “Should I be?”“I guess not.”“I’m definitely not mad. In fact, I appreciate you waiting to tell me in person, and this isn’t about me, remember? This is about you finally fighting for the happiness you deserve,” she said.“Thank you so much, Lucaa. I honestly wouldn’t have had the cour
CLARAI had always thought that people who claimed to be blissfully happy were always so full of it.Oh, I was so wrong.They were absolutely right. Don't get me wrong. Nothing came close to how happy I was when I held Ale in my arms for the first time, but this was a close second.Ever since the veil had been lifted on our feelings, Mateo and I have been in such a happy bubble. These past few days have felt like a dream.He has made it a point of duty to get home earlier than he usually did so we could all have dinner together and this had not gone unnoticed by Lily and his mom who were unsurprisingly curious about what had changed.I told them that we were trying to rekindle the spark in our relationship and thankfully, his mom believed me. Lily, on the other hand, took me to the side and said it was about time we both got our heads out of our asses.Needless to say, that was her way of telling me that she approved of my new relationship with, Mateo.The only person who was still in
CLARA“Was that so hard for you to admit?” I asked.He looked at me like I had grown two heads and replied. “No, that was surprisingly easy.”“Good, because I didn’t have any plans to leave either,” I said. “I don’t know when or how it started but what I feel for you is nowhere near superficial and I’ve just been waiting for you to catch up.”He groaned like he was in physical pain before he said, “It’s taking everything in me not to kiss you right now.”“Then don’t fight it. Kiss me, Mateo,” I demanded.I had barely gotten the words out before his lips crashed onto mine. We both groaned heavily into each other and honestly, for the first few seconds, I didn’t move.I couldn’t move because I was too afraid that this was all a dream and any movement would kill the bubble we were in but Mateo sensed that and slowly eased me into the kiss, making me melt into him.I kissed him back like he was oxygen and I was air deprived. Like he was the air I didn’t even realize I needed in my life.
CLARATalking with Lucaa was exactly what I needed. As much as I hated to admit it, she was right, I couldn’t keep living on ifs and maybes. I needed certainty in my life. So I had to have that conversation with Mateo whenever I got the chance. It was late at night and Ale had been fed, burped and changed. When I finally put him to sleep in crib, I released a sigh of relief.Now that I had put him down, he should be knocked out for at least a couple of hours. Long enough for me to take a quick shower and get some sleep.I grabbed the baby monitor on my way to the bathroom. Although it was unlikely, I wanted to be able to hear my child in case he woke up.I stripped out of my clothes and stepped into the shower, the warm water cascaded through my body, soothing my skin.I debated it for a while before I decided to wash my hair. I haven’t gotten around to doing it for days and I figured now was just as good a time as any. So I grabbed my shampoo and conditioner and proceeded to wash
MATEOIt’s been about a week now and I still haven’t heard a word from, Bruno.I hated to admit it, but the truth was I was really getting worried. I didn’t know what business he had to get done in Puerto Rico and the last time I checked with him, he had moved on to Mexico.There were a number of possible reasons why he hadn’t been able to reach out and none of them were good.I even told Dominic about it and he was also getting worried, that was after he made fun of my ass for acting like a fucking mother hen.I concluded that if I didn’t hear from him by close of business today, I was going to hit up my contacts in Mexico, maybe one of them might know what’s going on.But as fate would have it, just when I had come to a conclusion, my phone rang and I saw Bruno’s name on display.Accepting the call, I put the phone to my ear. “Where the fuck have you been? I haven’t been able to reach you for days now,” I yelled into the phone but I was met with the sound of laughter.“Do I sound li
CLARAAt this point, I was so convinced that Mateo was avoiding me. Apart from the schedule we’ve silently created for Ale’s night feeds, moments when we were both tired and barely able to make conversation, I hardly saw him.He was the one who promised me we were going to have a conversation, but lately, he had been leaving for work earlier than usual and returning late.I couldn’t talk to his mother or Lily about it, they were his family and it was hard for them to be objective so I decided to unload the burdens to my best friend.We agreed to meet at our usual cafe and I was more than happy to leave, Ale in Mrs. Antonia’s care while I took a few hours for myself. I haven’t been out of that house since I got back from the hospital and I was beginning to feel a bit claustrophobic.I ordered a latte and muffin and it got served just as Lucaa came rushing in.“I’m so sorry for being late. I got held up at work and traffic was crazy,” she said sounding out of breath.“It’s okay. I have
MATEOThe house was quiet by the time I got back.I’m guessing that was because they decided to turn in early, especially since it was a given that the baby was going to be up crying in the middle of the night.I headed towards the master bedroom but decided at the last minute to take a detour towards the guest rooms.I knocked on the door, hoping that she was still awake and the door was opened a few moments later.“It’s late,” she said.“I know, Mom but I really want to talk to you and I figured now is as good a time as any,” I replied.Mom glared at me before moving sideways so I could come inside. She closed the door and moved to sit on the bed while I remained standing.“Now say what it is you want to say,” she said.“I know you’re mad at me and you have every right to be,” I started and she scoffed.“Mad? That doesn’t even begin to cover the range of emotions that I’m currently feeling,” she replied.I nodded in agreement. “I know and I also know that there’s nothing that I can
CLARAI stared at Lily, unsure of what to say, but I couldn’t keep quiet any longer, so I went with the first thing that popped into my head.“I don’t think you need to thank me. I haven’t done anything except take up space in here,” I said.Lily shook her head in disagreement. “That’s not true and you know it. Stop selling yourself short, Clara, and just take the credit you’re due,” she said.But that was the thing. I wasn’t due any credit. That will just make me more of a fraud.“Listen, Lily. I don’t know what makes you think I’ve done anything to make Mateo a different man since I moved in here but I can assure you that I haven’t done anything,” I told her.“The fact that you don’t see it speaks a lot about the magnitude of what you’ve done,” Lily said.“Hmmm… I really think you’re mistaken. If there’s anyone that has gained anything then it’s me. Although our situation isn’t quite conventional, Matoe gave me access to a community of people that have accepted me and my son as thei